22 September 2023
Thoughts On The Finiteness Of Life | The Effect Mortality Has Upon Us
Bit of a heavy episode with some info on our personal circumstances.
In Episode #412 of 'Musings', Juan & I discuss: my mum's Alzheimer's diagnosis 7 years ago, ponderings on what type of people we'll be at the end of our lives, whether it is worth trying to prepare now for possible eventualities, an economics term that could be applied more broadly and mental exercises/resources that people could find useful.
Massive thanks to Dave Jones, The Tone Wrecker, Cole McCormick and McIntosh for the support! Absolute legends, we really appreciate it.
Timeline:
(0:00) - Intro
(0:30) - Why this topic?
(1:34) - My Mum's diagnosis
(4:36) - How we imagine the end of our lives
(11:14) - Dying young vs old
(15:15) - Mentally preparing for the end
(20:22) - A positive spin on everything
(24:59) - Boostagram Lounge
(28:36) - High vs low time preference
(38:15) - Preparing for the future
(42:17) - Is it harder to be old or young?
(51:07) - Summary
(55:26) - Housekeeping
(1:00:44) - V4V: Send in some resources
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