Welcome to another episode of the Disorganized Productions Podcast, where we explore the depths of human potential and creativity. In this episode, host Rob welcomes a special guest, Ari Mnemonic, a multifaceted artist, musician, and yoga teacher. Ari shares her journey from living in the bustling cities of Massachusetts to finding peace in the serene landscapes of Maine. She discusses her battle with cancer, the challenges of being misunderstood by the medical community, and how she found solace in art and nature.
Ari talks about her unique lifestyle, living off-grid with 13 rescue dogs, and how she embraces a minimalist approach to life. She shares insights into her creative process, blending digital and traditional art forms, and the therapeutic power of music and yoga. The conversation delves into the importance of community, the healing power of nature, and the freedom found in self-expression.
The episode also touches on intriguing topics such as conspiracy theories, the mysteries of Antarctica, and the societal pressures that shape our lives. Ari and Rob discuss the value of questioning the status quo and the importance of living authentically. Join us for an inspiring conversation that challenges conventional thinking and celebrates the beauty of living a life true to oneself.
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Okay. According to progress. Ladies and gentlemen, fellow human, welcome to another episode of Disorganized Productions. And today, we have a special guest. I think it's episode 97, I think. Oh, my disorganized prank. But we have an artist, in the room. I I really like it when when she said, on her Instagram page, a space of chaos, which really resonates with me. She's a musician, artist, and a registered yoga teacher, so IT. Welcome to Disorganized Productions' Ari mnemonic.
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Thank you for having me.
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I'm going to record it anyways, but I don't know if the video is also available because of the rendering and the data and stuff like that. Because, hello, Eunze, today, I'm in the, in in Germany, cross border, from my place, like, one hour, because tonight I'm gonna fly to Dior, baby. Star spreading anew. I'm glad I know. Well, how you doing, Harry?
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Very good. You seem to be in well spirits too. You're excited about traveling. Like, your energy overall is amazing. Meeting you for the first time, it's great. Like
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Yeah. Well, I'm trying to do my best. Sometimes I'm, but when I'm not in the mood, I just close everything, and I don't wanna shut off from people. But I think we we all have that, color. Right? But you gotta pick you up. Yeah. I'm I'm a positive guy, to be honest with you. And I'm very excited. Maybe I'm too nervous. He's he was standing there with my suitcase like, I did you let me in? Well, you got a ticket, sir. Well, I got one ticket, which is one way. I don't know if they're gonna
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if Yeah. It's gonna be fine. People do it all the time.
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Right? Yeah. Yeah. A lot of them don't go back, and they want me to go back. Chewy.
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The the you could cob travel, have fun, go within all the states, and then yeah. It's no. We want tourism. We do. We want tourism here.
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Right. So, great. If if if you would please introduce yourself a little bit to the or to the audience, what you're doing, and what's up, and maybe some stuff that you wanna talk.
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Okay. Well, I'm Ari Mnemonic, as he said. I'm also a yoga teacher. I go by Ari Mac in my yoga teachings. Mnemonic is a tongue twister. Right? It's kinda hard to say for some. Yes. Definitely. And, but I use that as a stage name. Mnemonic devices is a way I've always remembered things. And if anyone's seen the movie Johnny Mnemonic, it's a little, like, pop culture reference as well. Yeah. Keanu Reeves is great. I teach yoga, and I basically I don't wanna say I live off grid, but I live in a village of basically 900 people in the middle of nowhere in Maine. I'm not far from Baxter State Park. It's just a bunch of farms around me. I have a few acres of land. I have 13 dogs, some chickens. I got a garage cat. Huge.
13 dogs. Yes.
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Oh, baby.
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Mostly all rescues. I didn't plan on having 13 dogs. It just hap you know, it just Just happens. It just happens. I've I've got the space in the land, so why not? So I basically stay home. I make art. I create. I teach yoga, and I just hang out in nature because, yeah, I I grew up in a big city, was born in a big city, and I can't do it. Like, I it was it it was eating me alive. Like, I I so after my cancer diagnosis, I left Massachusetts, left the big cities like New Bedford and Boston, and came up here, and it's been so peaceful. It's it's definitely aided in the healing process. It's allowed me to a degree to kind of disconnect in a peaceful way because when you don't wanna be a cog in the machine and do, like, the struggling artist thing, you can be looked down on, and people just seem to like like, people think that, like, you're lazy. Like, why don't you just go work a real job or something like that? And Why? I don't get that here. Yeah. Yeah. You know, I'm just I'm by myself. I'm with my dogs. I'm surrounded by nature, and pretty much all my neighbors are are awesome. You know? They're all foreigners or they're religious. And even if we we aren't the same religion, they're very kind people. They're open. They're willing to help each other. Like, I moved up here community. Right? Yes. Yes.
We moved up here during the when the pandemic happened the first year, and everyone was so great. Like, we didn't know anyone here. We're strangers moving in here, and people were still like, my my literal neighbors were so helpful with everything. Like, and it's not like that. Like, back where I'm from in Massachusetts, people are gonna tell you to go I don't know if you would swear on here, but that's peace do. People will tell you to go fuck yourselves. Like, they don't give a fuck. You're you're broken down on the side of the road, your car. They're just gonna stare at you. They don't they don't fucking care. Here, you could be broken down on the side of the road. Every person that drives past you is gonna stop to ask if you need help. It's just a The way it should be. Right? Yes. It's Because of a different life.
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Yes. I think we lose we lose some, some real connection to communities and nature because of this selfish kind of way that the system feeds us. You know, every so so the only thing that probably has been shared is that their Netflix account. Because in in the in the early days, you could get for $10. You could get four or five accounts on it. You know, people just like, oh, you got a Netflix. Oh, let me please binge watch this stupid shit, and they're gonna push down my approach. I wanna, you know, I wanna die miserable with minimum one Siri in my head. Just like, Oh my God. I did that too.
But, I think the thing is, when you are connected to nature as you do, when you going, because I was living in nature for for quite some time, in a trailer, only by myself, surrounded by forest, and in a really small village. But then shit hits the fan last year, and I had to go out, and I had to sell my trailer. And now I'm basically homeless. So that's why I'm gonna, you know and now I can travel somehow because I don't have anything attached to the system, like, a wife, a house, car, whatever the fuck. So just like, okay, what you gonna do? What you gonna do? Well, let's let's let's figure some stuff out. Right? So especially when you are in a community where you are very close to nature, as you said, with a few acres, that's, that's that's, that that's a dream. It's a dream. How long have you been living that right now?
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02/2019 is when we moved up here. So it's almost six years. We moved up here the February.
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Wow. Yeah. Well, what's the so so what's the normal temperature there around? So is is there really winter and summer or does it
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It's basically just winter and summer, and it's mostly winter. This winter's been a little weird, but usually, like, we'll have snow usually by the time Halloween's here. So the October, snow hits the ground, and it's on the ground until April. Like, even actively snowing in April. Wow. Yeah. Then we have mud season for about a month where it's just raining and it's all muddy. Like, everything is in mud. And then summer will start to come, and that'll last usually to September. We'll have a quick fall in between September and October, and then it's winter again.
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So cool. So cool. So it it because Maine is where is that in The United States if you if you is it in the center or
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No. So I'm on the East Coast. I'm on the Atlantic Ocean all the way at the top. I'm border Canada. So I'm an hour I'm closer to Canada than I am to any state. It's Wow. It'll take me longer to get to, like, Vermont or New Hampshire. I'm I'm an hour from from, from New Brunswick. I can get over to Montreal and Quebec. It's, Salfar.
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Oh, that's so cool. That's so cool. And you like to make art because I saw you dancing. I saw you doing crazy yoga posts as I think, like, if I would do that, first of all, I would break my back or I will I will be knotted so so people have to unknot me. But, also, you you make some beautiful art and some beautiful music I really like. Like, you call it dark jazz?
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Some of it. Yeah. It you know, even at point either the melody has a bit of a somber darkness to it or the melody might sound upbeat, but if you're really listening to my lyrics, my lyrics might have a darker tone. So it it tends to be one or the other, because at points, people like, I I have a song sirens in the city, and everyone's like, oh, I love this song. I love this song. And then a few people really listen to the lyrics, and they're like, hey. Is this song about someone murdering someone? And I'm like, yes. It is, actually. But Yes. Wow. You listen to the lyrics. And then people were so surprised by that. They're like, the song is about murder. I'm like, did you listen to the lyrics you're singing along to?
But yeah. So it tends to get people by surprise, some of the darkness that I slip in. But some of it is either, like, you know, I grew up watching horror movies, crime stuff, so I'm a big fan of, like, the noise. Crazy woman. Yeah. Kind of. A little bit. I mean, we're all a little mad. Right? It's got that balance. So, like, I'll
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Been alive.
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Yes. Yeah. Like, you can't be happy without sadness. You don't know, like, the light without the dark. It's it's that. So between, like, my morbid curiosities, I guess you could say, and therapeutic stuff, like, there's definitely darkness within me. I have trauma from my past, so it's either working that out or having fun with my fun curiosities. And I guess sometimes it goes over people's head because they don't they don't see some of the darkness in there per se, and then they're surprised when, yeah. Yeah.
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I like what you said when you say, Joe Kutik, because were you also making art and music, before it should hit the foul with, with the, with the with the disease?
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Yeah. So, basically, it seemed like I was born with with cancer, and it seemed to really kick into gear when I started menstruating. So I started menstruating at about 10, and something was wrong, like, that first time. And I tried bringing it up to my mom. She was an alcoholic and a junkie, so she was really no help when I brought it up to her. It took a few years. My father ended up getting custody, and my stepmom tried bringing me to doctors to maybe figure out what was wrong. The most I got was you have bad cysts. They rupture and it's painful. Stop being a drama queen. It's kind of they're like, here's some birth control. This will help you. And I was like, okay. But I was in so much pain. Like, it was basically I had a week of of menstruation. Like, without a doubt, it was always gonna be seven days and, like, heavy menstruation. I was on the toilet every time for the first day.
I'm bleeding profusely. It was like this my mattresses look like the scene from Hellraiser. Like, that's how much I like, something was wrong. There shouldn't have been that much blood. Right. I had diarrhea. I'm vomiting because, like, my muscles are contracting, and I have such bad cramps. Like, for the first day, I was stuck on the toilet. There was no way I couldn't be. So I was missing lots of school. I would always miss work as I got older, because that week was gonna be brutal. And then it got and then as it started to progress, then it came to so the week before my period, I would start to have symptoms. Like, the the cramps started coming early. The back pain started coming early, the nausea. And then so it got to the point where it was a week before my period, I felt like shit. The whole week of my period, I felt like shit. And then the week after was almost the recovery I needed. So I only had, like, one week a month where I felt kind of normal. Human.
Yeah. So to be able to go to school when I was young or go to work when I was older was such a hard thing. Doctor's notes were required when I was younger for school. But as I got older for work, people tended to treat me like I was a a junkie. They'd be like, you know, if you just went to AA, we couldn't fire you. And I'm like, yeah. That's great. But I'm not using or abusing any like, at that point, I didn't even use cannabis because I had it in my head. Like, my mom smoked cannabis. She did this. She did that. So I was like, oh, it's all bad. It's all bad. So I didn't start smoking until I was 18, and I wished I had used cannabis either edibles or some because it it did help a lot.
So I didn't even use cannabis. So when I'm being told, like, hey. If you just go to AA, we legally can't fire you. And I'm like but I'd be lying because I'm not using like, I don't know what's wrong with me. So kind of being told that, like, you're you're gonna make me a liar. So it was just like this vicious cycle of not being able to hold down a job, getting fired, being told that I'm a junkie, even going into to the ER, trying to be like, hey. Something's wrong with me. They'd be like, yeah. You want drugs? Like, we're not giving you drugs. It's like, I don't want drugs. I just wanna know what's wrong with me.
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Oh, fuck. That must be so so frustrating and so, what's the word? Fuck. Yeah. Frustrating, like, you don't know what's happening and everybody's pointing you down. Did you get very depressive about that stuff? Of course. I did,
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but it turns to so I'm someone I I learned that my sadness turns to anger very quick, especially when it seems I'm constantly being told something that I know isn't true, like, when I'm being told I'm a junkie or when I'm constantly seems like I'm being like it's like a condescending tone maybe or something like that that I'm being spoken to. So my sadness and depression would very much turn to anger, and then I just hate everyone. Even those that maybe have tried to help me, even though they weren't fully capable of helping me, they might have had good intentions, but I was just so, like,
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fuck all of you guys. Like Right. It's do you think it's like a mechanism? But because you you wanna shut down? Because, I see that sometimes happened to me also with some stuff that was going on health based. And I see that also with, dogs and cats. You know, if they really are struggling with, their life, they just want to fuck off and be left alone. So that's why I'm asking you, maybe that's like a coping mechanism of your, you know, just like fuck off everyone. I won't deal with it myself. Because don't you think that if you're, you you're gonna be very fast distracted and not gonna focus on your own well-being.
Let's say breath work or whatever the fuck because, you know, all the distractions. What do you think?
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No. Absolutely. Like so I came into yoga. My stepmom introduced me to it was yoga and Pilates mix at a very young age, and I found that so beneficial, more so the yoga. So I stopped the the mix of yoga, Pilates, and just delved into yoga. So I was about, like, 11, 12 years old and just going heavy into it, finding poses that were of great comfort and stuff like that. So it was a step up when my dad got custody of us, but my dad and stepmom eventually, it was like the bare minimum. Like, my stepmom did try to get me help, but once it was basically said that I'm just a baby who has cysts, they didn't wanna hear anything else of me. It was, shut up. You have a diagnosis. Like, you have a roof over your head. You have some food. Shut up.
So there wasn't much more there. So it was basically just me in my room delving into yoga. And then, like, going to school was a distraction. I genuinely wanted to learn. I was eager to learn things. And and I high school, I went to a trade school, so I was in cosmetology, so I was able to work and stuff too. So that was great. I was learning about hair and makeup. I wanted to go work on movie sets and do hair and makeup, so it was gonna help me out later in life. But I couldn't deal with all the bullshit in school, like, all the normal stuff of, like, high school with cliques and and the prom and, like, I I was in so much pain at points and just just trying to function that I was already, like, living as an adult to where not that I was above it, but, like, I I couldn't be bothered with it, and it definitely formed a disconnect even with my fellow peers. Like, unless someone had a rough life where, like, their parents happened to be an alcoholic or, you know, this or that. Like, someone went through some trauma, I couldn't get along with you, like, been on a base level because I couldn't even sit here and talk to you about, oh, how's the weather? How's this? Like, can't I fucking can't do I Shut up. Right. I'm gonna punch a hole through your face, like and you're trying to be nice, but fuck you.
That yeah. That's where I was at very much so. It was just let me get home and do some fucking yoga and listen to music. And, dude, I I was so burnt out. Like, after eight hours of being at school, I'm just like, oh my and I was having a a dilemma of, like, is the rest of my life. Like, I'm gonna have to go to work and do this. I'm gonna have and, eventually, my parents aren't gonna be even though they should have been taking care of me, I was working a job. I was paying for my clothes. I was buying groceries. I ended up basically emancipating myself at 16 and moved in with a boyfriend of mine and then was still driving to high school and stuff like that. So I was living an adult life, and I was like, this is my life. This is gonna be the rest of my and I was almost having, like, a meltdown of, like, I can't do like, I can't do this. I
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Not like in good future. Right?
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Yeah. And then at the same time, in that depression, there's not suicidal ideation. But I'm like I'm like, can whatever is killing me, can it just kill me faster? Like, I don't I can't kill myself. I'm never gonna be able to just do anything to end it myself, but I feel like I'm dying. So whatever is killing me that people are saying I'm just a drama queen about, can I just, like I remember, like, begging the universe or whatever god was out there, goddess, whoever, like, just just, like, end me already? Like, this is miserable, and I don't wanna do this. So, yeah, there was a strong, like, fuck you. Fuck everybody. Leave me alone. And can you just take me back and, like, give me a different incarnation already? Because even if I agreed to this, I didn't know what I agreed to. I don't want it. Like
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I don't want it. And at that point, you still didn't knew what you have.
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No. I didn't. I wasn't diagnosed until 02/2016.
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How far? Yeah.
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So I went my whole and I had boyfriends and part girlfriends even, because I'm bi, that were sympathetic to, yeah, to my situation. Oh, hey. I ended up getting married to someone and but before we were married, he he was like, hey. You need to go to the doctors. And I was like, hey. I've done this song and dance with almost everyone who's given a shit about me. The doctor's gonna dismiss me. Like, I'm sick of this cycle. Like, I just can't like, this is my life. If you can't handle it, that's totally fine. But, like Right. And he was like, no. No. Like, I'm not taking this for an answer. And forced me to go to the he didn't I don't wanna say, like, he did it against my will, but pretty much Right. Got me to go to the hospital while I was menstruating so that the ER doctor was like, hey. I think you actually have endometriosis, and I'm gonna recommend you to a specialist.
And then that was the start of actually getting a cancer diagnosis. Wow. And sending me the specialist and having certain scans and other other things done. So if he hadn't have insisted on bringing me to the hospital right place, right time because that doctor that happened to be working there actually gave a shit. Like, they listened to what I had to say. They did certain tests and were like, no. I don't think this is like, there's something seriously wrong here. And Mhmm. They were surprised that the amount of pain I could they were basically saying the squeaky wheel gets the grease, and you need to complain more. Your pain tolerance is here when most people's is down here. So you need to be you need to be crying, complaining, like, they're like and and we think that's part of why you weren't diagnosed sooner to where it's like, oh, cool. Like, fuck me. Right.
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Right. I just I I'm I'm wondering when I'm almost died four times, as I could remember, no sound of rub, no no complain, no nothing. When I have a little, thing on my finger, like like a what's it? A splinter? Papercut or something. Like a a finger. Like, what the fuck? My ad giver, she said, oh my god, you are such a world drama queen. There you got it, you know. If I'm dying, go south. I'm I'm I'm fine. Get in the doctor. No, I'm Fine. I'm dying. I'm fine. I'm dying. I'm going back. You know? Splintering my finger. Oh my fucking god. I'm gonna destroy the whole fucking world because I had the splinter of my finger.
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I swear it's the nerves. It's it's like the nerves are completely severed or something there. So the way yeah. I don't know. But I'm the same as you. That's right. Yeah. I get a little paper cut and I'm like, oh, that's not
[00:24:20] Unknown:
Right. But it must be so so great for for you to, to be without any, you know, pushing or whatever to get into the ER, get the right doctor that that really thinks like, okay, we gotta figure something out because something is wrong. Yeah. And and, of course, then you got a diagnose. So that is like, oh, wow. They know what I have, but fuck. Why do I have to do with this monkey? Right? Mhmm.
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Well, they they so my my PCP ended up running a bunch of different tests, and one of them I'll say this, anyone, any female, particularly, who has an issue and they're just being gaslit by the medical system, being told they're babies, ask your PCP to perform a CA one hundred and twenty five blood serum test. Usually, when you go to the doctors, they take blood anyway. They can do this while they're drawing the blood. It's not a big deal. And that'll test for markers of the likelihood of you having cancer. So I suffered for so long. They could have done this blood serum test, but because I wasn't most women don't get ovarian cancer until they hit menopause. So because I wasn't of a certain age and I was seemingly healthy Uh-huh. They didn't run that test. So I suffered for years and was told that I was basically just being a little baby when someone could have done a blood serum test and easily ended my suffering. Like, I could have had a diagnosis much sooner.
So be your own advocate, and you can ask for a blood serum test. Your PCP, you don't need a specialist to do it. Your primary care physician can do it, and it can be a good indicator. It's not gonna guarantee tell you, but it can be a good indicator if your levels are high that you have cancer. Right. But any woman that thinks that their cycle isn't right and it's something a little bit more serious, I'd say go do that.
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Because I have a bedroom
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and a and a bed, like, Carrie from the horror movie where the blood piles out, you gotta go to Yeah. Like, you shouldn't have very dark blood. It shouldn't look like blood clots. Like, if you break your nose and, like, you got, like, what like, that's not what the blood should look like. It shouldn't be so dark. There definitely shouldn't be and this is the embarrassing part. There shouldn't be any weird smells either with the blood or at other points. Like, that's the stuff too. Like, my whole life, I was basically so embarrassed of being a woman. Everything that made me a woman was torture to me, like, from Right. What gave me the gift of creating life to even, like, sexual encounters. Like, everything was just miserable from the pain to the the smells, the the just all of it was so
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Right. Gross.
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But if you know something's wrong, yeah, definitely go get help. So that blood serum test is what had my PCP be like, okay. No. Like, we're sending you to either the specialist in Boston, like, here, there. You have some options. And, Yeah. I went in for what was supposed to be exploratory surgery, like a laparoscopic. Like, we're gonna see how bad this is, what's going on because We're gonna look. Yeah. Cat stands couldn't really tell. But I guess when my oncologist who was doing that was like, oh, shit. And they did the cert like, right then and there that day, they ended up opening me opening me up. I still have a scar, though it's it's healed very well from the top of my pelvic bone all the way up through my belly button.
I had a mass that was it stretched from one ovary to the other, and it was huge. It was, like, 13 centimeters by 17 centimeters by 21 centimeters. That was a huge mass.
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I still hear you talk. Oh, now you're now you're back. So I don't know on what end this I'm sorry. No. No. No. That's fine. So you so you got 13 centimeters for from from from your belly button until your pelvis pelvis tool.
[00:28:30] Unknown:
Well, the the the the the mass that they pulled out of me was 13 centimeters by 17 centimeters by 21 centimeters. It stretched from one ovary. The ovaries were, like, combined together and congealed with this huge tumor, and, like, everything was, like, fused together. That's why I have problems with my bladder and bowels. I have fibroids. Shit was fused together. It spread up to my diaphragm. They had to scrape my diaphragm to where my diaphragm was in shock. I couldn't breathe after surgery. They're like, oh, you're gonna have to learn how to breathe again and only take shallow breaths for now. It's gonna hurt. Like, Yeah. It's Oh, it's
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So we got a solution for this, but you're gonna be job anyways. So Well, so I had a huge tumor
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that basically made my ovaries null and void. Then there was, like, a mucus y type of cancer that they said that was, like, coating all my organs and stuff. And then I had a bunch of things fused together. Like, I had a catheter for a while after my surgery. They thought I was gonna need it permanently. Luckily, I didn't, but I would still, have issues of just like, I would just randomly piss myself. Like, I'd be sitting here talking to you, and I'm just gonna piss myself for no, like Wow. Because your feet has been chop. Right? Yeah. And and a lot of people be like, oh, your pelvic floor. It's not my pelvic floor. Like, I'm recommended that I need to use a dilator, which is basically to stretch my Ureaches? Stretch out yeah. And my vagina, basically. Like, I'm so small that they're like, here. Sit here with this, and then things won't be painful. So it's not even a matter of I need to work on the muscles. The muscles are plenty tight.
It's just issues from everything else, but the Alovea has helped that. Since I started taking the Alovea, I don't randomly piss myself anymore.
[00:30:20] Unknown:
Wow. Because I wanna I wanna ask you and and especially also for the audience, how are you doing now?
[00:30:25] Unknown:
Oh, I'm I've been great. I for the most part, after my surgery, I changed my diet, which I cut out as much sugar as possible. I was still eating fruits. Like, I was getting natural sugars, and I would indulge at points and eat things I shouldn't. Yeah. Like, I'd eat some like, I love cheesecake. Cheesecake is a big weakness of mine. So Yes. Oh my god. It is. It's like it's it's orgasmic. So I I would definitely cheat and have things, but I cut way back. It's not like I was before eating an entire fucking cheesecake in a night. Like, started eating more meats and and stuff like that. Did way more yoga, and I was just like, okay. And this is it. I'm not doing radiation or chemo or what like, I'm either gonna survive this or not.
But but I did hit a wall to where I was still, like, peeing myself. My guts hurt. A bunch of different issues. Like I said, having a problem with HRT, and that was the wall I'd hit until I started the Alovea. And now my hormones are balancing out. I'm not peeing myself. I'm not having the gut issues. I cut back on cannabis. I can have an appetite now. I'm not nauseous when I eat. Right. I'm going to the bathroom regularly.
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So what was your what is your, like, normal, not key buttons and stuff like that? Wearing a diaper or Tinelini or whatever it's called. So how did you get to the product of aloe vera? Max. So a man in immune the a man in a t? It is.
[00:32:01] Unknown:
I was I was following Max, and she started posting about it. And I guess her using it, and we had gone back like, she was so patient with me. She was so patient with me because I hate all these products. They're gonna help you. They're miracle cures. It's like the snake oils, the modern day snake oils. And I didn't wanna call her a liar, but I was like, you're really gonna have to sell me on this app. Think. Yeah. So I was asking all these questions and, like, doing research, and she's sending me links. And like I said, I wasn't trying to call her a liar, but I'm like, I really wanna know.
[00:32:39] Unknown:
What's going on?
[00:32:41] Unknown:
Yeah. And and then some other people that she had already recommended it to had came out with their testimonies too, and I was like, you know what? Fuck it. I gotta try. Like, worst case, it's not gonna work. Right? Like, that's that's the worst that's gonna happen. So I made sure to to get my finances in order. I'm also a minimalist. I'm not, like, rolling in the dough. Most of my money goes towards my 13 dogs. So, like, I live off grid. You know? Like, I don't want for much, so it it's that. Like, so I made sure to have money for that, tried it, and I'm like, okay. You know what? This is my thing. Like, you know, people go and get Dunkin' Donuts. They go and get this. They go and get that. Like, this is my medicine.
This I'm gonna be using, and I'm gonna make sure I have money for it because it's fucking working. Out. Yeah. Yeah. And at first, I'm like, I'm not sure if it's a placebo effect. Right? Like, do I just want it to work? So even did stuff where I wasn't taking it, and I'm like, oh, wow. I feel my trigger finger coming back. Oh, I'm bloating like a motherfucker. Oh, I'm pissing myself again. Like Right. Like, if I was that powerful, trust I I tried to will myself to die or to heal myself before. I don't think I'm just willing this pill to work. Like Mhmm. Unless my strength is that mediocre that I can only will a pill to work kind of placebo effect thing, you
[00:34:15] Unknown:
know? But For me, the the first month in it and, my nails, I clipped my nails because I was well, as I had a home, I had a Berkeley water filter, and that, helped me immense with growing my nails and my hair and stuff like that. My skin was very good. But I well, my complete household, the taste I still possess, ovens scattered all over three or four addresses. So that's a really good bummer. So I don't have a hope to put my Berkeley water filter in. So but when I got the product, which is still I'm I'm I'm getting it to America, of course, because I'm gonna travel. My nails, I have to clip them almost twice strong. I don't have weekdays or weekends or a week. I have strongs.
So I'm a programmer myself, but also my hair. So, well, I used to have a big Afro. Well, I used to have hair, like, this little spot where there was almost no hair. It wasn't, like, not very thin. Now it grows hair back again. Really? Yes. I clipped it yesterday because I'm gonna travel. I feel a little bit better when it's a little bit but who knows? You know, when I'm coming back from America, like, all hair or something like that. I didn't know. But I do agree with you, like, the skepticism, first of all, then the placebo effect. But, do do you really gonna miss it when you're not gonna take it? Do you really have the benefits all been pointed out as Max and Bau and and and all these beautiful people say. Right?
[00:36:01] Unknown:
Yeah. And and my partner, he he got Lyme disease back when we were in Massachusetts, and it take it took a while for him to get diagnosed. So now he suffers, like, post Lyme. He's got a bunch of issues. This is gonna be a this is gonna deal with for the rest of his life. Right? Like, that's the doctor's famous words. Alright? Well, this is your life now. But he started taking the Alovea, and his brain fog dissipates. He doesn't have the narcolepsy. He doesn't have the pain in his joints. He doesn't have the the gut swelling. So because at first, we were, like, we were struggling a little bit to where he and I were basically splitting a bottle. So instead of me taking two pills a day, we each just took a pill a day, and that was making a difference for us. Like, that's that's how well this this stuff was working.
Now we both are taking our own our own stuff, but, like, it's even working for his issues and doing a, like, a blue collar job. He was based this isn't me talking shit. Like, he was just basically useless. He would do the job, come home, and crash, and, like, that like, he was just good for making the money. Like, he really couldn't do much else, and that's how just worn out he was. But this seems to genuinely help him.
[00:37:15] Unknown:
So Yeah. It's not just people doing that. Right? There's so many people getting collect their their whatever the fuck they have to get to the job, owing to pay the rent, to get some groceries, and just drop dead on a fucking couch. And that's so, that's And and you really can change your life. I think the things that would be because we never talk to each other. But if you if you're doing like create creative things like art and music, so not not everybody is an artist or musician, but if you if you find some spot like, oh, that's my my Zen moment, the the my right key moment, my energy moment. And then when you're going to change your mindset, even if you're going to scream when there's a little splinter, but you know, you you do your breathing and all that stuff and you face life as it is, and you have to deal with it on a right positive mindset, how it's going to change so tremendously.
It's not like, you know, moaning and complaining and oh, as my mom would say, like, oh, it is like it is. No, that is not like it is. I want to change that. And the only thing I can change is by doing it by myself. Like, I have strong days. I have strong end. I have, next strong and still still make some little mistakes. But it's gonna be the ripple effect that everybody has another mindset about the stuff that we are embracing every single day that's gonna fuck our system up. And when you are participating in the movement, like the, the Hope Movement or with Ally Uvea, when I was listening to Max, she she she said in one of the interviews, like, oh, you got to do what we say, like one, pill in the morning and one in the evening. And I was like, fuck that, you know. I'm gonna take two in the morning, so I don't have to worry about the night. But then I was thinking, like, we men, whatever the fuck is, we we always say to him like RTSM, you know, read the fucking manual.
So she re so she reminded me about that. I thought, oh, Rob. Oh, Rob. You gotta do the stuff that they say. So I did that. I have more energy. So I'm I'm I'm basically, like, six months ago, I could really get a nap right away just like if you're going off Zuko or probably in Zuko, like, fading away, but now energy level, oh, it's like an amp.
[00:39:46] Unknown:
I'm glad you said that. It's the same because that was part of the whole, well, you're not responding to HRT, and you've been suffering for so long. Your body's so tired. That's why you're so tired, and you sleep so much. And and I've always hated the transition from sleep to wake. Like, if you try to wake me up, I'm liable to throw a punch. So, like, you gotta wake me up like And and I've always been that way. Like, even as a kid, don't fucking wake me up. And I'm probably giving you, like, the evil eye when I wake up too. Like, why the fuck you waking me up? You'll just fuck.
Taking this stuff? Yeah. Like you're saying, like, I can wake up, and I don't wanna destroy the world. Like, I don't need to go and have a cup of coffee. I can stay up throughout the day and not nap. It's like, oh, wow. It's 10:00 at night, and I haven't napped. And I'm but, you know, like, it's amazing what it does for your for your energy. It's and it's not just me. Like, you're saying you you've you're feeling it too, a huge difference.
[00:40:46] Unknown:
Yes. So I normally, like, I I trim my hair because shaving is sometimes a little bit too bothering, but but I've I figured out just like, how long is it going? And and then I just like, like, one half month ago, I just like, I'm gonna write it down. Oh, it's gonna be Friday. Then on Thursday, like, oh, shit. You know? And I I I went out to take my clippers, like, oh, there's there's a lot of hair. Well, a lot of hair, like, that I have a lot of hair, but, just the amount is, like, amazing. It's completely different than it was because normally at my age, whatever that is, I don't know how many hundreds of years I've been roaming on this planet. But but, in normally when when you are like a middle aged guy, you're gonna lose your hair. So it it's the barber should do his job about, you know, getting yourself a Cooper or a Toupee or whatever the fuck. But now it's just like it's grown back. So may maybe I'm gonna, you know, muddle my hair or something.
[00:41:46] Unknown:
Do it. Do it. Have you noticed if your does your facial hair seem to be growing in thicker too? Yeah. Yeah.
[00:41:54] Unknown:
Yeah. Yeah. You can see it because it's on Zoom, but it's it I trimmed it a little bit. So so I'm I'm still figuring out it. But overall, we see. Yeah. No. It's it's the stupid fucking ego where you look in the mirror just like, oh, you well, everybody is nobody just participating in light of the scene. Like, oh, your beard is like but but your you're just like, oh, oh, I hate that motherfucker. I wanna destroy it. You know what? You say that I
[00:42:22] Unknown:
when I really delved into yoga, I I'd been practicing yoga since I was a young age because I found relief to my body, but I can't say I spiritually got into it, if that makes sense. Like, my whole spirit wasn't there. It wasn't until after cancer where I was like, Oh, okay. Like, I am in this. And I started practicing all aspects of it. And to practice nonattachment, I didn't go through chemo, so I didn't lose my hair. My hair was down in my ass. Long, curly, beautiful siren hair. Right? Like and I held so much value in that. I always got compliments on it from men and women, and it made me so beautiful and attractive. And, oh, my hair. Right?
I shaved it. And a lot of people thought I was going through chemo. No. No. I didn't lose my hair. I shaved my hair to practice nonattachment. And I think what really brought me was after there was a woman who came up to me at a flea market who had gone through cancer and had clearly gone through chemo. She was losing her hair. And she came up to me and was like, your hair is so beautiful. And that's basically all she had the strength to say was your hair is so beautiful, and she walked away. Like and after having cancer, like, I know where that's like it took a lot for you to even say that, and she couldn't make eye contact with me after.
And that's where I was just like, wow. I placed so much in my hair. I've even suffered the way this woman is. It basically broke her to just tell me that, And I'm over here, like, my hair makes me beautiful. I was like, I'm such a disgusting person. Like, it's like, I'm a degenerate. Like and I ended up shaving my head, and I was like, whoever likes me likes me. Like, I don't fucking give a fuck. Like, I'm I'm I'm done with all this shit.
[00:44:10] Unknown:
Right.
[00:44:11] Unknown:
Right. It's so freeing. Like and and it's amazing. I found so many people were like, oh my god. You look so beautiful. Hey. Like, Ripley like, my favorite movie is, like, aliens, and the character Ripley is so strong. And she shaves her med in aliens three, so people were comparing me to that. And I was like, oh, fuck yeah. I was like, Yeah. And I was like, but, like, there was something so freeing to shaving my head, and part of my ego was so attached to that that since I've done that and I've let my hair grow back and I've shaved it again, and I've done so many different things. And I'm like, why did I ever put so much value in who I was as a person into the length of my fucking hair? Like Right.
What the fuck was wrong with me? I don't I I don't understand. Like so shave that practice nonattachment, and it's wild because people would beat him really. You're so brave for shaving your head. And I'm like, firefighters are brave. They walk in the fire to the feet, but I shave them out your head. But that's where most not just people, but women in particular, how they put their value on their hair, where it's like, it's not brave because I shave my head. Like and, like like like, I get where the compliment's trying to come from. Like, there is some good intention there, but, like, but it just goes to show how twisted our values are and how we place our stock in our our beauty, particularly women, because you men will shave your head. And I'm not saying you aren't okay with maybe thinning hair or balding. Like, I'm sure that eats that egos too.
But it's not weird for a man to shave his head and be like, oh, you're still attractive and you're whatever. Women, it's a little especially if you're not part of a certain, like, punk rock or is that, like yeah. Most people Right legged
[00:45:53] Unknown:
call for a shot. Yeah. Yeah. It goes for me. The the thing is the thing is also when I I'm I'm still still learning. I'm still, fighting that that little motherfucker inside of me. But the ego so I drove a good car. I was car manager with a suit. Just like normal stuff for for what what society calls, like, you're a normal dude. Well, fuck you all. But then, eventually, when I I so in 02/2018, it took thirty five centimeters of my intestines out because I had for a third time an inflammation and a perforation of them, and that's not good. They told me so. So, I had to change my life.
But when it came down for, like, one and a half year ago, I was starting to wear wooden shoes. Not kidding you. We are in The Netherlands. We have wooden shoes. I paint them like NASA kind of stuff. I really like to do that. I gave me warm feet, and people will just, like, look like, what the fuck are you walking on, right? I'm wearing skirts because I make my own skirt, like a really cool fucking guilt kind of skirt. It's gonna be on the market. Very, very, cool stuff. And then I was wearing like this this, what's it? Like a big fabric, but, I I point pointed out like it's it's like a little bit of like a nomad kind of stock. Okay. Okay. Then when I walked down bare feet in a forest near where I was stationary, I was walking bare feet most of the time with the stick, with this nomadic kind of stuff on. And the people just like, What the fuck?
And I thought to myself, like, If you knew how free this is, like I got connection to nature with my barefoot in a forest, it, no, it doesn't hurt. Oh, it does, no, it's not hurt. No, it's not hurting. And I was losing the stuff that normally like, oh, you dress nice. Now I'm gonna get compliments like, hey, cool skirt. You know, stuff like that. Yeah. Although somebody said to me, not gonna name names. I will be. Not doing that. He said, When you're going down to Arizona, you're not gonna wear a fucking skirt because they're gonna kill you. Thought, Okay. I take that for granted. I will not. I'll have a car repair on a beer computer.
[00:48:22] Unknown:
Well, okay. Well, part of that, in all fairness, is because my country suffered insanity under the last administration. So now the pendulum is swinging back the like, it couldn't just find a middle ground. Right? Like, they had to take it to one extreme, so now it's gonna go back to the other extreme instead of just finding that that nice little medium area. Right? Like
[00:48:44] Unknown:
Maybe that's the reason I, feel this attraction, like, magnetism to the stage. Maybe I I'll help. I don't know.
[00:48:53] Unknown:
Or else see how you feel when you come here. You know?
[00:48:56] Unknown:
I I I was, so last year, 02/2024, I think it is. Right? Somebody, because I do podcasting set took me over to LA. I had such a great time. I love the vibe. I love the the country. I love I love America. You know, it's it's it's it's, but but, yeah, I think that, two things normally in life can really fuck things up. That's politics and that's religion. No matter where you are on this beautiful plain planet. When something like that is going to cross your mind or you have a conversation about these two topics, you are screwed no matter what you think because, oh, everyone's having a different percept perception of their belief system or their politics and, oh, the rat in the pot well, this is all fucking bullshit.
Cut it out. Cut it out. The society does not run by politics or by, by religion. It runs by connecting to people and to be nice and supportive and lovely loving to other people and treating them with respect. If they don't do that, fuck them. That's You think that's pretty much right? But, yeah. Shoot, that's world. That's my conclusion. And then I pick up my guitar and make some, so so fucking moves and then, well, that's I have to be honest with you, Ari, because you you make music. Is is it an an art? Because I see some art for the people that are maybe gonna look into that, but we're gonna share your, Instagram and stuff like that. Can you make money with it right now? Is is it is it
[00:50:37] Unknown:
that that Yeah. I mean, I so royalties from streaming services are shit. Basically, they pay all their artist shit. Unless you're a big time artist, you're really not making anything off streaming services. So if you wanna support any independent artists, myself included, I would say buy from their website if they have a website. At points, they'll have something called a Bandcamp, which at least Bandcamp is a website that gives the proceeds to the artist. They'll take a bunch of money out of it. So Mhmm. I'd I'd say use, like, either Bandcamp or go to their website directly. So you can go to my official website, and I have art for sale on there. And I have all my music where you can stream it, and you can also download it. So What what's your website? Because we're digging into that right now. K. It's it's, yeah, arimnemonic.com. So just typical wwwarimnemonic.com.
Simple, easy.
[00:51:32] Unknown:
I got a little tip for you. May maybe it's something to deep to to, dive into. I'm working with pothole.fm. Basically, you can, get paid. I have to set that up, but basically, you can get paid by fountain or or whatever cryptocurrency. So if I'm doing a live broadcast, which I never did, but if I do that, people commenting and people could send you like little bites of crypto. So the thing is, I was talking to the owner because I know the owner, he's a Dutch guy. But, he was telling me that a lot of artists are now using his platform because they can also, you know, you can listen to music and and give some, cryptocurrency, like really good I don't know what what was called, but little does of cryptos to them so the artist really makes money. Because I think if you look at Spotify and all these big platforms, you're gonna make $2.41 because you have 10,000 downloads.
We're going to the what the fuck are we going to? $2.41. 2 dollar wait a minute. We can't get a buzz to Central because that's $40. So that's it's crazy. There's also a podcast, and, you know, I do this for for because I like it. It. It's the same thing. I know that for sure for you, you make art for yourself, for your own therapeutic well-being. Superbate.
[00:53:02] Unknown:
Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Pretty much. Like, the whole I was struggling with, like, part of my issue, I was so sick before. I could never hold down a job, so my work history is spotty. Right? And I can't blame an employer for being like, hey. You all look reliable. Yeah. I fucking wasn't. I was bleeding out. But at the same time, I think I've come so far where it's like I can't just be a cog in the machine. So the best thing I can do is be a struggling artist where, like I said, I'm making the art anyway.
[00:53:36] Unknown:
Right.
[00:53:37] Unknown:
Why not just just run with that? And and I'm someone that, like I said, I don't need a bunch. Like, I I I need to eat. I need a roof over my you know, stuff like that. But, like, you know, I don't need a mansion. I don't need my own private plane. So it's like, yeah. I don't need so I can get by, especially with having a partner that you know, he's he does blue collar work, but, like, it I don't know. Like you're saying, like, I have to make the art. I don't see how I could reincorporate myself into the world. I've meditated on that so much, and I feel like I would probably end up in jail or in a mental institute. Like, one
[00:54:14] Unknown:
one or the two? I do. I I I run the That a lot. Mhmm. That's why if if you take the the artist button, everything's gonna be okay. If if if if you have to deal with people like us in normal life, you would think like, oh my god. They're gonna destroy the world. We have to be very no. No. No. They make art. Oh. Oh, look. Oh, that's cool.
[00:54:43] Unknown:
But kinda, like yeah. It's I I have so little it's not alright. It's not that I don't have patience. I don't have patience for a lot of shit, and I get that's mostly what you encounter out in the world in society is it's shit? So I have patience for things that genuinely require patience, but I can't with with all the fake stuff just out in the world and the meaningless interactions and the small like, I I can't do it. Like, I and I think that's part of the issue. Like, more people kinda need to put their foot down with stuff like that where it's like, hey. We're not we're not accepting this. Like, we're not doing this anymore. This is how we're gonna operate moving forward. Come on, guys. Like, let's get our shit together and act evolved, kinda like that. And I get some flack for it. And at first, it was almost like the same thing with, like, the medical gaslighting where I was like, oh, shit. It was like societal gaslighting where I'm like, oh, shit. Am I the crazy one? Am I the asshole? Like Mhmm. But, no, you end up finding the people that, like, it makes sense and it resonates with and fuck the rest of the noise. Right? It doesn't Right. It's usually coming from people that are miserable, that are stuck in the cycle themselves.
Like, I've never once had someone who's removed themselves from the cycle and are doing their own thing and are just happy with life. Be like, hey. I think you're fucking up here. Like, it's always miserable motherfuckers who can't get ahead themselves that are like, you know, I think you're making a big mistake here. So why am I listening to them anyway? Like and I kinda had to get that in my head a little bit. Like
[00:56:24] Unknown:
Oh, would you like to work oh, would you like to do with the with the art? Would you like to, get to an exhibition once or, gallery or maybe do do any, like, you know, touring around America, maybe Europe or whatever?
[00:56:38] Unknown:
I it would be cool if it ended up in an exhibition. I'm not gonna lie. Yeah. That'd be pretty cool. Like, that would be an honor. That'd be a great experience. I've never had that happen, but I can't create with that being the goal because I'll probably just end up crushed, you know, like, that it's not happening, that it's never happened. But it definitely I wouldn't turn down the opportunity depending on where it was. Right. But I do, like, smaller, like, art conventions and stuff like that, especially, like, horror related ones. Like, there's one that happens along New England, Monster Expo. So there's a bot Monster.
So a bunch of artists come together, different types of artists, and they sell their stuff. And there's usually some sort of no shade to them, but, like, b c less celebrities from horror movies. You know, like Bruce Campbell and Felicia Rose, stuff like that. So there's a handful of celebrities there and then all the artists. So I do stuff like that, like those sort of circuits, because they're fun and it's not I don't have to change who I am. I'm just there existing. A bunch of other people are there existing, and I've been able to network and meet some really cool plus. I, plus I'm a fan of some of the stuff. Like, last year, my table was literally right across from Felicia Rose, who I loved in sleepaway camp and the terrifier movies and officer Doofy and stuff. So the way she was lighting up the room and people like, her fans that were lining up and responding, just the energy from all of that was so wild and was such a great like, it's like, oh my god. This is an amazing experience. Like, that's what I live So cool. Yeah. That stuff was awesome. And then you have people cosplaying and people like it it was just so much fun. I'm taking photos of people dressed up as pinhead, and I it's just chillable. Like, that kind of energy, like so I think that's the only thing that makes me hesitate about, like like, museums or exhibits. It's like, yeah. I'd love for my art to be in a place like that, but usually, they're so, like, hoity toity that I would not fucking fit in there. And I don't know that the energy would be the same. Like, I've gone to museums, and I've seen the way people appreciate the art. You know? Like, it's not the same vibe as when you have all these artists together and genuine fans trying to appreciate what the moment has to offer. You know? It's Right. It's
[00:59:00] Unknown:
How do you make your art? Is it something like you, just start with something and you and it turns out, like, the thing that you made? Or or do you have some inspirations about some stuff that you think, like, I'm gonna make something like that or this?
[00:59:15] Unknown:
Yeah. I guess both. Sometimes I'll I'll be watching a movie or listening to music, and I'm like, oh, dang. Like, that's a great idea from whatever inspired me, and I'll go and do my thing. Or sometimes it's just something that, like, I don't know, something I have to get out, and I don't know what it is. Like, maybe it even just starts with a feeling like, okay. I'm fucking I'm I'm angry. Let me go Mhmm. See what happens. And maybe at that point, it tends to be more of, like, a darker art piece or whatever versus a cute little jelly monster maybe when I'm happy or something. And, yeah, at points, I don't know what's gonna come out. I'm just like, I gotta go fucking do something. Right.
[00:59:55] Unknown:
Digitally sorry to interrupt. You do it digitally, or do you do it with paint and brushes and stuff like that? Or what kind of materials do you Yeah. I mix it up.
[01:00:03] Unknown:
So I've been playing with, like, Adobe on my computer and on my phone. But at the same time, I've got in my other room a bunch of canvases, paints, markers, pencils. A lot of what I do tends to be mixed. Even the acrylic paints, I'll start with, like, a sketch on the canvas using pencils, sometimes marker, pen, and then I'll add the paints, whether it's watercolor or acrylics or something. So you're usually seeing something that's multi there's multiple tools being used. It's not just one thing. Or or I'll start off with, like, a sketch, and then I'll be like, you know what? I'm having a hard time for whatever reason and go in digitally. And then sometimes it's easier to finish it digitally as long as you don't mind the the little bit of the digital look that it it's a little bit different, I feel. You can tell when art's digitally made. Yeah. It's it's like the the the the ambifreeze and the real record.
[01:00:56] Unknown:
You know, the wolves and the the yes. I like that comparison.
[01:01:01] Unknown:
Yeah. That's a good comparison. Yeah. Yeah. The the old vinyl is so Warmer. Yeah. But no. It's like that. So, yeah, sometimes it's digital, sometimes it's Canvas, or it's mixed media. It's unless someone commissions something and it's specific where they're like, hey. Here's what I want. Mhmm. I tend to not know what the fuck's gonna happen. It's just Right. Whatever's gonna come out. Even if I'm like, oh, I wanna draw an alien. I'm usually not like, oh, the alien's gonna look like this. And then and then it's just I wanna draw an alien.
[01:01:36] Unknown:
Right. Right.
[01:01:37] Unknown:
However it turns oh, that's how the alien was supposed. Okay. Cool. Cool.
[01:01:42] Unknown:
So and and, so so you're living in in Maine now. You have some some tomatoes. So is it something that you can, process you on food that that you can use for the winter, or or is it
[01:01:55] Unknown:
or or Yeah. We're trying to get more into we're trying to figure out the land. We've got a lot of lead in the ground. So the farmers here have been teaching us some tricks because you gotta do some things to the soil to grow certain things. So we're getting used to that. And you can only dig so deep because there are a lot of lead deposits in the ground. So we're trying to learn where on our property you can put the fields of the crops, and they're gonna thrive and get the sunlight and the other try. It's been a like, to get up here has been a shift in changing. Even, like, growing indoors has been different because we have to heat the house inside differently versus when I was in Massachusetts, it wasn't as cold.
So everything is it's been a bit of a learning curve. But we got chickens, and we don't kill the chickens. We just use them for the eggs.
[01:02:43] Unknown:
Uh-huh.
[01:02:44] Unknown:
When they're older, they just they die naturally. We we can't kill them. I don't know. We've had them for so long, and I just can't kill them for the meat. So we use them for the eggs, and we help feed the dogs with eggs and stuff like that too. They eat hard boiled eggs, all that shit. So
[01:02:58] Unknown:
fresh fruits and veggies and yeah. But it's a learning curve. We're trying to, like Oh, yeah. And it takes some time, right, to get into that and to see how how crops and stuff like that. Like like a tree, it's not like, oh, I'm gonna gonna plant an apple tree, and next year, we're gonna have some apples.
[01:03:13] Unknown:
And especially in this environment too. Like, it's like, okay, what can grow with in this temperature and short season without having maybe a greenhouse or something? But I saw I saw something on YouTube. There's a woman living in Norway, and she built her actual house inside a greenhouse, like a large greenhouse. And she has all the plants outside of her house in a greenhouse, even like citrus plants. She's growing, like, orange trees in the middle of fucking winter in Norway. Yes. So I was thinking like, hey. Can I, like, somehow not, like, encompass this house or build a different property up inside a greenhouse and have all my plants in there? And this gotta take some time and energy.
[01:03:59] Unknown:
But, like It depends. It depends. Because I'm from The Netherlands. We are the, I think, the biggest producer of food in the world. That's why they wanna cut down the the farmers and stuff like that. But we are when it comes to that, we are number one when it comes to greenhouses. So we have, like, strawberries and stuff like that. They normally used to have them in in summertime, but we grow them all the fucking time because we have greenhouse with specialized and stuff like that. And I think eventually in I think it's in Japan, there's a well, Japan is crazy as shit. But I think it's in Tokyo. They have a big building. And on the on the Top Floor, there's a very big greenhouse that provides the whole building with food, like, lettuce, humor, you name it. You just have to figure out like, okay, I need a glasshouse, right? Yeah.
It's the I think that's especially when you say where you're having quite a different environment. Well, if you isolate all the things that you need and you you prepare with Dude, I I just saw the other day on Instagram a guy who made an oven in the middle of the winter with, with only with mirrors. So the the the sun's gonna mirror down on another mirror, and then he has this lasagna. And within fifteen minutes, the lasagna was down because the heat of the sun provided with some mirrors. That was like a mirror oven. Just like, what? Dude, of course.
[01:05:40] Unknown:
Yeah. That's really cool. Oh, man. Right? Yeah. Yeah. Okay. Shit. No. Yeah. Because the woman in Norway was basically she showed it in the the wintertime where they have more snow than we do, but, like, at at points, we have snowdrifts almost as tall as my First Floor of my house. I've I have a little loft in my house, but at points, the snow they can get pretty tall. They had just as tall, if not taller, snowdrifts. And the temperature inside that greenhouse with it being that cold outside without having heat running was in the sixties, where I was like, that's that's a game changer. That's Right.
That allows you to do so much.
[01:06:20] Unknown:
And the snow isolates. So when it's snowing, it's it's isolating. So you can build igloo, that isolates your body temperature and stuff like that. You don't, well, you have to be very careful. But, yeah, snow is is is and it's water, of course. So it's, what what's it called? Like a stick and water, they, energy goes through it. Mhmm. Conductor? Is it like conductor? Yes. Yes. Yes. Yes. Yes. And especially if you're looking into some stuff like, copper wiring. So that's, electoral culture. I I I used to do that with my house on my trailer. There was a lot of sun, but also, you know, when people throw away their plants like, oh, it's dead. No. It's not.
Give them some love, some good music. And, you know, I figured out my own kind of, copper wiring on a stick, you know? So you have something right and just like, okay, this is gonna work. It's gonna work for you. It's gonna be okay. It's gonna be okay. And then after one month or two months, just like, holy shit. Just like a pile of Greek And people that gave me the plants just like, is is that my plant?
[01:07:32] Unknown:
Yeah.
[01:07:33] Unknown:
Yeah. I love that.
[01:07:36] Unknown:
Some people really have a green thumb too. And then just like they naturally can just, like, they'll keep plants alive without having to research them, without having to so maybe you've got a little bit of that green thumb too.
[01:07:49] Unknown:
I think it's also energy. I think a lot of things, everything is molecules and everything will react to your frequency and vibration. I felt really, really, really at ease, especially after my disease and stuff like that after my surgery, in that trailer, you know, I was having a half year I had, neighbors that all fucked off within one or two strongs. And the other year or half year, there was no one around. Okay. You go out, and just like but you have to be so so that sounds really great, but we're living in The Netherlands, which is a very, very small country with more than 80,000,000 people. So that's basically 300 miles by 250 miles. That's that's The Netherlands.
Mhmm. So so if we say like, it's very compact. So if you are, maybe there are one or two forces that that are really big and and and vast, so you have to be very careful not to get caught or not to get lost. But, probably there's a within five miles, there will be some kind of McDonald's
[01:09:09] Unknown:
stall. See, I don't miss that. Where I live, we don't have anything like that in my village. Like, tech it's it's considered a village because we only have, like, 900 people here. We have one convenience store, and it sells, like, fresh fruits. There's a butcher shop in it so you can get fresh cut meats that usually come from local farmers. It's not like a bunch of crap meat or anything like that. Even the fruits and veggies, they buy people that go and pick lion's manes and chaga. So they buy it from people that are locally doing stuff. And they sell gas, but they close at 08:00 at night. It's not like a twenty four hour they're like, you get your your groceries and your gas before eight, and that's it. Like and they do, like, takeout. You can order, like, pizzas there. They'll make burgers, but we don't have restaurants here. We don't have McDonald's. We don't have that's it. You you want take you can drive to, like, the nearest towns, which are a good forty five minutes an hour. Like, country miles. That's what we call them. It's a country mile. If I wanted to go to Walmart or Hannaford's, I've gotta drive at least a half hour.
On and and most of the speeds on these roads are, like, 55 miles an hour on these back roads, here in America. So we can do, like, 55 to 60, but it still takes about a half hour to get to the town to go to any bigger stores. And even there, they have one McDonald's, one Subway, and it closes at 10PM. So only a couple hours later than than us.
[01:10:36] Unknown:
Who really wants who really needs that? So I think that it the the the concept is is quite cool. You know? You having a hamburger on the go. It's it's a cool concept. Or or maybe like sandwich, like sat like, Subway does. But normal living people, if you go to a farmer that's been a farmer for thirty or forty years, tell him, like, oh, we gonna we get in a car, and we're gonna drive to McDonald's where they have hamburgers. He will probably look at you like, what are you saying? I have a No. Oh. You wanna taste mainly because this is I mean, you have hamburgers that's been made by the people, the people in in in no, dude. Yeah.
[01:11:22] Unknown:
No. And there have been people, like, where we know people that have farms, and they'll be like, hey. I slaughtering a pig. Do you want some of the meat? Hey. We went hunting. We got some venison. Do you want some of the meat? Like, that's how the community like, yeah. It's so the only thing I need to find out is, like, raw milk. We don't have, like, dairy farms around here, so we can't get, like, raw milk. But if you want, like, really good beef, even pig, if if you like pork and you don't mind eating pork, like, there are good farms around here with good farmers that take care of their animals. You can get good meat. You can get good fruits and veggies. It's
[01:11:59] Unknown:
Right. I heard something from, from a from a guy who was, actually, what's it called? A shepherd? But he was a shepherd of, goats. So he said, there there are some very good things about goats considered to be, packaging like a like a like a horse, because they're cheaper. Cheaper in food. They're very strong. They are very reliable. So when something happens like, shit hits the fan, horse run away. But, sheep or goats come with you because you are part of the flock, which, like, fascinates me. But he told me also, or he well, to the Internet or to social media, Like, they're gonna give you goat meat.
Goat meat. Goat, milk. Milk. Yeah. They they are, easily your act and they are very, very strong. And they will, eventually also, you know, take care of you. So, a lot of things like, okay, wow. So that brings me to skip a bench like a squirrel right now. Brings me to, an episode in two I did with, Billy Bong from permaculture. He moved to South Carolina. He's figuring out the land also. And, he has so much food that he's gonna provide it now to the village and to the, to to other people around because he's he has so much. He really figured out, like, you know, oh, we were gonna get some berries. You know, how many berries do we have? We have so many fucking berries that we have to we're gonna give them away because to fight year round. So that's that's that's the yes. That's the attention. That's the support. That's love. That's respect to nature. I mean Yeah.
[01:13:52] Unknown:
Well, the same with the farmers here. A lot of the farmers and even hunters. So if someone goes out and and gets a deer and they've got more than they they needed, there are churches around here that have food pantries. And people from the farms and that hunt, they donate the meats, the fruits, and vegetables to the pantry. So if you go to the pantry, there'll be stuff from grocery stores too. Like, we have a Hannaford, so there'll be stuff like that. But you're getting a lot like, a lot of the fruits and veggies still have dirt on it. Like, it's from the ground right in the box, and and you're getting it. The eggs are still dirt. They haven't been washed, so that way, you know, they don't have to be refrigerated yet. Like, they're coming right from the farm. So even a lot of them are going to food pantries that are without are getting really good food, like, really good food for them and their families. And like you said, it's community.
[01:14:41] Unknown:
Yeah. Yeah. I think that Joe Rogan once pointed out, like, have you seen, like, 60 year old farmers, you know, with the hay when they stack the hay on this thing? Just, like, 60 years old in the middle of the field and not, like, oh, we're gonna do 10 of these. The whole I for me, I can do that. I can do it. My
[01:15:05] Unknown:
my Even the women out here are very rugged. It's a different kind of lifestyle. Like, back when I was in mass, like you're saying, a lot of the elderly were very frail and weak. But here, no. They're like, the farmer across the way from me, they're in their sixties and seventies, and they're doing hard work. Like, hard work. And it's the same with the women. There are rugged women out here doing stuff. Like, it's not just the men. The the main women are tough.
[01:15:35] Unknown:
But it might be so satisfying when you are waking up with the with the roostling. Remember? 04:30 in the morning. You know? You don't know your plan. You just look at the land and you probably, you know, like, okay. We have to cancel stuff. What we're gonna do is stuff like this and that. But the the the way nature and and the rhythm of the universe is gonna provide you with all the stuff, the things that you see, the what the things that you smell, touch the ground, all that stuff, that's us. We are nature. Right? If we're gonna drop that somewhere, nature's gonna take over.
We we were part we are part of the Hakuna Matata, the the circle of life. Right? So so why don't we act like it instead of, you know, being locked up in our old prisoners with our old fucking keys? Like, oh, I got a house. Oh, you got a fucking prison that you're gonna be pulling down. You're locking yourself up. Well, even that, most people don't even own a house. They live in an apartment
[01:16:33] Unknown:
and pay rent to someone else. And I think part of it living in a city, you get disillusioned, and you can be really hateful and miserable. Like, that's a big difference I noticed too moving from the city to the country. Like, you just it it's everything sucks in the city. You're congested. You're on top of one another. The noise, the sad just, like, everything is a trigger, and there's there's so many people. You can't see the stars because there's light pollution. There's no oxygen to breathe because there's no fucking trees around you. Like, even the bullshit shrubs they wanna plant are bullshit, like, you know, for Right. Beautiful like, it's it's so people get into a certain headspace versus if you live in a town like this. Like, when I moved away, you know, even some of these things that people lobby for in the cities where it's like, we want green this, we want green that. It's like, it's only you assholes that live in the city that think you want these things. And even people advocating for green energy. Like, we have windmills here. They freeze in the winter. It gets so cold here. You have to take helicopters to go dethaw them. Guess what those helicopters use? Gasoline.
Guess what people end up needing to use? Gas powered generators. It's like so you can't, like, force people to use green things because then people are suffering. People were without power during winter for longer than they should have been because you wanna force green. You can't do that in these places. Maybe you can in certain cities. You can't do that out here. So you have these people that are disillusioned with their fucked up miserable lifestyle living in a city that we don't have these issues out here. And if y'all would only, like, break away and, like, get back to nature a little bit, you wouldn't be so gung ho about these bullshit thing that don't matter. They don't matter at the end of the day. Like, this like, I can sit here and I can see the stars. I can breathe fresh air. I have fresh food. Like, our powers would like, I don't know what you guys are bitching about. Like, it
[01:18:28] Unknown:
Right. Each Right. Totally You look at demand of all this stupid stuff that we don't need is so big, and we are so reliable on that because, you know, what okay. Of course, power is something that we really need to to, for heating up things, right, and have full light. But but the other thing is if you have, like, these old stoves, you're gonna have light and you're gonna have warmth. So if you go to the old farms here in The Netherlands, there was one, like, maybe like a kitchenery, something like that. So it's it's it's a kitchen and and the, living room together, there was one stove. That one was always on. You you brew your soup on it, and everyone was gathering around it, you know, telling stories and stuff like that. And probably you because of the the the warmth and then because you were out all day, you were just like 09:00. You're just like, I'm gonna hit the fucking bed, which was in the very cold room, like, maybe 20 degrees Celsius Fahrenheit, which is like one or two Celsius or stuff like that. I mean, you go under your blanket. It's just like you heat your body heats up.
And when you're waking up, just like, oh, wow. You feel energized because you you slept in the cold. Basically, you slept to the cold. I, few times I had it when I woke up that that my my blanket was just like ice. And if I had a took water, like, a glass of water next to my next to my, what's it called? Next to my bed, it was like frozen a little bit. No. Just like, oh, love that. Now I like a little bit no. A homeless with this battery is not always the best. But I'm in a room right now, and no temperature is okay. So that you know? And you can dress up for cold. But for warmth, you can't close down. That's the stupid thing about warmth. You have to get warm clothes on to protect you from the warmth, because you you don't see nomads and stuff like that running around in the fucking, shorts. You don't do that.
Don't. You you who are these with with this with this, with the stuff on because it it's gonna be layer layer protecting you against the wall and you feel fine. That's that's so so crazy.
[01:20:47] Unknown:
So crazy. No. We're so disconnected from everything. That's partly people can't even look up at the sky in bigger cities. I don't know how many times I've been able to just look up at at the sky and appreciate the stars or whatever weird shit I see up there because it's Maine and see some weird shit up there. Yep. Also, like I said, I live not far from Baxter State Park. It's about forty five minutes, and Mount Katahdin and Baxter has a lot of, lore, not just with the Native Americans, but with others for Bigfoot and UFOs and people going missing mysteriously.
Like, all yeah. I kinda live in a valley surrounded by by mountains and trees. So where I'm at is kind of right in the valley. But you have such beautiful and people can't even take time to just disconnect and appreciate that. Like, it's I don't know. Like you're saying, it's just so it does something to your soul. I I I don't even know what it is. Like, it's beyond crush yeah. It it eats you alive. Exactly. It's You're gonna real detach
[01:21:54] Unknown:
from that what's real that really matters. The the funny thing is if you go to to camping sites, people that work, like, their ass off all fucking year and then go, like, two two, three weeks of high chores, hiking or or camping. They put their bare feet on the ground like, oh, I feel so great. You know? Relification. Now you need to connect with nature, motherfucker. Get your shoes off because you're disconnecting to the resonance of mother Earth.
[01:22:23] Unknown:
I mean, that's That's probably why older people that work farms can do it. Right? They they got their hands in the soil all day. They got their feet in the soil. They're they're really grounding themselves and exchanging energy and all sorts of things. So, like, you're saying, oh, how are these 70 year olds doing this? Well, that exchange of energy. They've put in the time and energy.
[01:22:46] Unknown:
Right. Right. Be because we got so much things that that comforts us, which is cool. I mean, I like comfort luxury too in in in a way. But, I really miss living in my trailer, and I knew that, around winter time, like, now, I didn't have water, so I had to pick my water, like, 70 meters or 100 meters away, 45 gallon oh, no. What's I don't know. 25 liters of can. I could do my, weight wash with it. I do do my dishes, but but all, like, I only take that what it's it's needed. I only have one room lighted up with with, where we're always sitting like podcasting, playing guitar and stuff like that. It was fucking cold, but I could heat it up a little bit. And if it's not like you know, you you're figuring things out and you you, you connect to the real essence of life, I think, from my perspective.
And not like, I'm gonna buy that stuff. Oh, I'm feeling like a little bit cold. Let let's get a heater or I feel like a little bit too warm. Let's get a air conditioning. No. If you adapt to the things that there are to nature, you're fine.
[01:23:54] Unknown:
The people up here alright. So Southern Maine like, we consider Portland Southern Maine. Mainers consider Portland Southern Maine, and that's a very touristy, hipster area. That's, like, the big city kind of thing. And you'll find, like, normal living there, apartments, houses, stuff like that to where you don't need extra things. Like, living up where I live, you need to have a pellet stove or a wood stove. You can't just have oil. Like, you need to be burning some sort of water pellet. If you because if you have plumbing, it's gonna freeze, pipes are gonna burst, whatever. Animals might, like, whatever. You know, Animals might, like, whatever, you know, stuff like that. So everyone around here, they're either stacking wood, bringing in wood, doing stuff with pellets. Like, it's, like, it's a certain way to heat their house, or people are off grid entirely, don't really have power, and we have a watering trough down at the bottom of my road that runs down from the mountains. It's a fresh spring. So that's where people go and get water. If you can't tap wells on your property everyone has wells around here. We don't have sewer or anything like that. Like, this water is a fresh I would never drink water from my sink before. I'll drink water from here. Like, showering and it's fine, all of that.
But people that live entirely off grid that don't tap wells, there's a watering trough right down at the end of the road, fresh spring water from the mountains running all the time. Even in the winter, it doesn't entirely freeze. You can go and get the water, and you're supplied for however much you bring down, I guess. You know? You could bring down jugs, whatever. So that's how a lot of people live up here. It's not like it it's like a mix. It's like, you have people completely off grid. Sure. But then everyone else isn't living a completely modern life. They're still using older techniques to do things or farming off the land.
[01:25:43] Unknown:
Yeah. Listen to that. No. No. I don't know what it is. But, also, you know, if I'm working around in nature, I always carry a stick normally. So I find one. I was in Peru last year, and I thought, like, because I have very steep slippery hill to go up to my, to my, my my my little, stationary do what the fuck it was like a building or with the with something. So I I want you to find the stick, and I got that one almost instantly right away when I was walking down. Just like, I I need a stick. I need a stick. I just oh, and I like to, you know, to to feel the wood and to make it, to get my energy in it. And especially when you work with the stick, you ground directly if you have a wooden stick, not not the the gel sticks. Right? So, and I brought that stick with me, from Peru to, to The Netherlands, which was, quite a challenge because on on the airplane, you normally don't walk around with a wooden stick.
[01:26:50] Unknown:
I'm glad they didn't give you a hard time. That's good.
[01:26:54] Unknown:
Well, I I think that's it. That that's the other thing. You know? If if you when we talked about support, love, and respect, and stuff like that, so the the easiest way to deal with people. Not smiley. I didn't know how to tell them the fuck off, which I normally do. But if if you are, like, open and you are, you know, treating someone with respect, it's it's very hard to get no respect back. And, of course, there are some fucking assholes in this world. But the other thing that I really like to do is to laugh. Don't laugh many maniacally if you are into, customs or through, you know, in police station, and you're like, which I think also could help because there's I think there's this one thing that really resonates with everyone on this earth, even if you do not speak the language, is when you start laughing. Everyone starts maybe to giggle or to laugh. At some, I think it's one of the highest vibrations there are. And laughing, I think got myself a healthier body after my surgery because we laugh our shit off on Phil Army and stuff like that, like stupid people.
And, something happening happens in your body. That's why people go to comedy and stuff like that. And that's why people, no matter where you are or where you're from, if if you are on a bus with several people, several cultures, bridges, whatever the fuck, and somebody starts to laugh, that's
[01:28:28] Unknown:
that's one of the only things that really connects us because that's that's the I don't know why. That that sound crazy. It's contagious. The energy is contagious. It's the same with, like, the smiles. Right? When you've got a real a genuine authentic smile that just lights up the room, it's contagious, and other people are gonna wanna smile too. It's the same thing. Like, your smile, it's bright. It takes up, like you could see your whole face lights up. It makes other if you wanna smile, I'm assuming other people would have the same reaction. It's just it's a contagious energy, but so is negativity. Like, if I come into a room, like, fuck you, fuck this, like and I'm throw like, whatever. That energy is just as contagious, maybe more so because people seem easily inclined to just go down that negativity versus the positivity seems a bit harder sometimes.
[01:29:13] Unknown:
Yeah. So it's advantageous. Yes. We we have that that the energy, that duality, all things. It is like the the love and hate or whatever the fuck you're gonna call it. Right? But it's it's same with the with the connection that we have right now with the devices and all that stupid stuff. And then all of a sudden within one storm and probably out in the desert, It's snow now. I'm meeting some cool fucking people and and be just like you know, going to America is one, but going to New York, on JFK, the the New Fucking York, New Amsterdam, like, you know, LA was a cool vibe because I know I was I I haven't planned anything now. Well, I have planned some trips to some people, but, not schedule, like, hotels and stuff. Just like that that's the other thing.
If if you're looking at the plants and the birds and the bees and the animals, they they don't fucking care about, like, oh, oh, oh, we gotta get some food. Why? Well, well, I'm a rabbit, and I need some food for tomorrow because because otherwise we're gonna die. Oh, let me go. I'm fucking about to die. You don't do that. Plans. Just like, oh, I need some water because not otherwise I'm gonna die. Really? Yeah. I'm gonna die. If you know they they don't care about that. So so with detaching the ego, I also wanna detach the the the comfort feeling of, oh, I got a house. Oh, I got a car, which is very hard for me also for everyone, you know, because you need some reliabilities.
[01:30:45] Unknown:
Yeah.
[01:30:47] Unknown:
But in what kind of way? Because if I would be a millionaire, maybe I would have a house somewhere, but I could travel more than I do now. You know? But then I have the luxury to, oh, I'm gonna check-in like, oh, this is a cool hotel with a sauna, with with the pool, stuff like that, and good food. Okay. Okay. So you need that reliability. But to to trigger that on yourself, like, okay. What the fuck is gonna happen? Let's see how how you adapt to that. Like that.
[01:31:19] Unknown:
A lot of people don't wanna put themselves in those situations. They don't wanna test themselves. It seems like, yeah, it's too much out of their comfort zone. Right? Everyone wants to be in in their comfort zone. But then how do you grow without challenges, without learning to adapt? You stay stagnant.
[01:31:36] Unknown:
Yes. Yes. You're not gonna grow, and and there's no magic happening in the comfort zone. It's not. It's the only thing you could you have is reliability. Like, oh, I'm gonna binge watch some Netflix. I gotta have food. You know, whatever the fuck. Domino's is gonna provide me pizza. All that stupid stuff. Like, do you read I mean, I like it sometimes, of course. Yeah. But do you really need it? Just like you said, if you're living in Maine, these people are connecting to they have a different way of life that that reresonates more with me than than the the the HiFi.
But the thing is we are not able to choose. No. You have to get into the system. You do you get a subscription of Amazon or Prime or Netflix or wherever the fuck or wherever the fuck wherever the fuck fuck. What are you gonna eat? You gonna eat this fuck or that fuck or whatever the fuck. You know, it's just like, no. No. And I got these nuts and hope I'm gonna bring them to America because it could be quite some challenging because of customs and stuff like that. It's just plain fucking nuts. Mhmm. But these are such a good, thing that you can use for fats and and and minerals and stuff like that. I got my Celtic sea salt packed in my bag.
I got some water. That's the other the other thing about America because I was flying in to, Las Vegas, and I wanted to fill my, my copper bubble with water. And I smell it just like, no. That's how I just like but but wait a minute, Rob. You're in the middle of the fucking desert. How did they get that water? Did they they need to subtract that on something and they have to penalize it to to make it drinkable because it's at the fucking but then I was thinking like, okay, they got the Hoover Dam, but they got a city that never rests, Las Vegas. How much is demand of energy on that? So it sucked me in for, like, two hours and then I was done.
Was I just I didn't I'm a gambler. I was a gambler. I didn't like it. It was something like nowhere in America you can smoke. Nowhere you can drink. Then you have to be very careful what you say, what you think, what you what you dress like. If you are in Vegas, nobody gives a fucking shit. You can drink, you can smoke in the fucking machine in a hotel as soon and as long as you play
[01:34:20] Unknown:
the fucking game. It's a free for all. Yeah. It's a whole what happens in Vegas stays in Vegas. No one yeah. Yeah.
[01:34:27] Unknown:
Yeah. Oh. Crazy.
[01:34:31] Unknown:
Yeah. I mean, I guess that's why maybe religious people compare it to, like, Sodom and Gomorrah. Right? It's like whatever happens there happens. It's you like, everywhere else in The States, prostitution is illegal, and prostitute to look down on, you'll be arrested for. In Las Vegas, it's legal. You can go to a brothel and legally do it. Like, you can't be arrested for it. It's it's a it's a whole profession out there. So it's even yeah. It's wild what you can do and get away with in Vegas.
[01:35:00] Unknown:
It's crazy, but but but so so we're we're on a on a brain of extension of our own society because of the stupid stuff that we're buying and that we want. Right? Yeah. Because even even even, it attracts. So if you would say, like, oh, would you, have a vacation in Maine? There's nothing. You have to, pick your own wood. Maybe there are some berries that you can pick. Maybe there's a goat or or a cow that provides you some milk. If you need some groceries like you normally use, you have to drive from forty five minutes or wherever the fuck until 08:00 because then it's everything goes. Or do you want to be like, we got prostitution, we got alcohol, we got everything that you can abuse as a human being in Las Vegas or whatever the fuck.
[01:35:44] Unknown:
It's the that's what it is. It's the extremes. Right? No one wants something in the middle. People well, maybe I'm, like, in the middle because I'm not entirely off grid. Like, I have the conveniences, but I still am removed enough for whatever. But, like, not many people find that middle space. They're either all the way off grid or they're living entirely, like you're saying, with every device and vice at your at your fingertips to just overindulge in. And people will come here for tourism and be like, oh, this is fun, like you're saying, for a vacation. I don't mind not having access to things because it's just vacation, or I don't mind camping for a week, snowboarding, whatever, going rafting. But, yeah, if it's a way of life, if you have to do it regularly, that's not something a lot of people wanna do. That's why they're fine buying a vacation home on the lakes and, you know, like, you know, they take up all the nice realty, you know, realty around here, and they're snowbirds. You know? They only come up when the weather's nice. They only do shit when we're having the festivals and this and that, and then and they take off. And, usually, they don't treat the land well. We get more littering around that time. If they bring their animals up, their animals are usually misbehaving and ask. Like, people around here, even their dogs, it's a pretty common thing that if you see someone's dog, it's people let their dogs roam around. Like, it's not a big deal. Like, they don't even have cause Is that how you collect 13 dogs?
No. Like, actually like, I got one dog after my cancer, surgery. I I can't have kids. I had a hysterectomy, and I was like, oh, I'm I'm gonna get a dog. You know? This is gonna be my baby. My friend found a few dogs in a ditch in South Carolina, and she was like, hey. Do you want one? I know you're looking for a dog. I was like, absolutely. I'll take one. So I met she found, like, seven of them. So I went, and the first one that came over and flopped in my lap and started, like, playing with me, I was like, oh, you're my buddy. So I took him home. That was fine. She kept two of them. She ended up going through a divorce and was like, hey, Ari. I don't know what to do with these dogs. You moved to Maine and have land. You have their sibling. Do you wanna take these two? I was like, yeah. I'll take them. I'll take them. With a puppy face? Yeah.
So then and and at that point, we had come up with, other dogs already. I'd already had an American bully and a pit bull and a Padango. Took in that rescue. We don't know what he is. He looks like a hot dog dog. He looks like a weird dachshund. So took him in, then took in his siblings, and everything was fine at first. Then those two males, the siblings, the litter littermates don't get along aft after a certain point. They got along fine. They would hang out, everything. And then all of a sudden, if they're they're just gonna fight. There's no if they're around each other, they will fight. So now I have to create them alternate like, you know, now you're on the crate. Now you're out of the crate.
But I feel like rehoming them would do more damage. They're attached to the other pack members. They're attached to me. They're very anxious dogs from all the trauma they've they've suffered. So even rehoming them, I feel like is I feel bad keeping some of them in crates at points, but I feel like it would just do more damage getting rid of them. So Right. Right. Like, that kinda sucks. I wish they could get along, but then it's just more like, oh, this dog needs a home? Okay. Come on. Oh, this dog needs a okay. Come on. One of the Padangos was pregnant. She had six puppies, and we tried to get rid of the puppies, but no one wanted them. So we got stuck with them. It's like, hey. We took in this Padangos. She's pregnant. Like, we can't we're not just gonna give away all the babies to, like, a shelter. They're all they're ours now, especially if no one wants them. So it's just stuff like that where
[01:39:30] Unknown:
But that should be something that you maybe, maybe you would like to do, like like a a talk center?
[01:39:37] Unknown:
We thought about maybe applying for a kennel license and seeing what else can be done. Are you of course, you need the permission and restrictions or Yeah. Which Even financially, like, we're not a millionaire. We can make do with certain things. We would have to be allowed like, kennels can get certain grants and stuff like that, and I'd be fine. If the government wants to pay me to take in dogs and be I would do that. I'm just not a millionaire, so I literally can't afford it. Things you can do to do, to do things like that, and we've thought about it.
Maybe in the future. Maybe.
[01:40:14] Unknown:
We know it because I think that what you're doing is is is we need it because I I think if you're looking at the kennels and stuff like that, we are on the same thing as society, you know. So dogs need help. A lot of dogs can survive by themselves or they have to have to be in a pack, you know, roaming down the streets and stuff like that. Cats, they're fine. You know? Cats are fucking they go out. Fuck you. I'm gonna get my own fruit.
[01:40:45] Unknown:
They're independent. They don't care.
[01:40:47] Unknown:
Yes. I think that, with the dog comes also a little bit the the same thing as as humans because if you are in the right pack and you have the the the right mama and daddy that's gonna protect you, that's fine. But all of a sudden, you could end up in the streets literally. As humans do also nowadays, I was in LA, and I think it was, like, like, 50,000 homeless people. It's LA, so so the weather is nice. You know, you live on the street, but but still, it's like what some people choose for it, but a lot of people are just in a wrong situation or or just, you know, life fucks them over or or rules fuck them over so did they end up on the streets. That's something like, what the fuck? Come on. We have to pay some money to for countries that we do not know because they're rabid of war.
[01:41:44] Unknown:
It it's everything, though, that we've allowed to happen. Like, at least in my country, you know, the founding fathers did what they wanted to and made a constitution and rules were rules about so many different things, whether it was tariffs that up until World War two, we were we were we had tariffs on nations. So the fact that my country is so disillusioned that we don't even know our own history from that, never mind, like, taxes. Like, back in the day, you found a plot of land, and if you worked it, that was your claim. That was your land. And now we pay property taxes up the ass for for what I don't know my home. If I don't pay it, they'll come and take it. Right? It's Right.
It's it's same with the car. Like, you have to pay your excise tax. If you don't, then you're not allowed to drive. They'll tow your vehicle. They'll do what up if they catch you. So it's you can own the things, but you don't own the thing. Oh, sorry. Even your land. Even if you're like me, you're lucky enough to own your own property and stuff. If I don't pay those taxes, they're coming for me. Bill Cooper he wrote this book, Behold the Pale Horse, Bill Cooper, and he was known in the UFO community and conspiracy community. And he literally died on that hill. He stopped paying his income taxes and said some shit to the Clintons when Clinton was in office, and a bunch of stateies undercover ended up coming to his home to serve a warrant, and he had a shootout with them over not paying his taxes, his property taxes. He's like, come get and he knew, like, you come on my property, you're greeted with a gun. So agents went undercover to pose as kids just playing music on his property so he'd come down with his gun to tell him to get lost, and he ended up, you know, having a standoff with them, trying to retreat back to his house, and a a shootout happened. And he shot at police. Police shot at him. He ended up dying.
But he was one that was always like, hey. Know your constitution. Keep a copy of the constitution on you. Fight the government. Do this. Fight corruption. And he literally died on that hill. Died on his
[01:43:42] Unknown:
Well, he just did a, firstly for for for, English spoken people. I did a Dutch podcast, part one of, family that was, mom, dad, and the son. Back in the days, the son was, like, seven or eight years old. Or probably well well, they they went to Spain, and they lived there for seven years, almost like, off grid. And all of a sudden, there comes a a a dust cloud of cars and with some authorities and police and and all that stuff. And, one hour later, they see their son who was 10 at the time in the back of a car, and they never saw their son again for a couple of months, which was illegally been taken by government officials.
And, well, if that is a stand alone, story, that's something like, okay. Wow. That that's very interesting. No. This happens with thousands of people that do not speak the language or do not behave like they should behave. Because when shit hits the fan, you should not do anything to provoke them so they can turn you in because that's what they want. Right?
[01:45:01] Unknown:
Yeah. Well, there was two I I can't remember what state it was, but there were a bunch of cattle ranchers that were having a hard time. I think it was the FBI. It was one it was some three letter agency here in in The States, to where their cattle were being shot, taken, all sorts of stuff. So the ranchers got together and were like, with their guns, like, hey. Fuck off. And we're having, like, a a, like, stand like, media was reporting on it and everything to where the movement grew and people from different states ended up coming in. And that's what fucked up the movement because the cattle ranchers were United Front holding their ground, telling the government to fuck off, and working on negotiations. A bunch of other people came in. The message that they were trying to get across got mixed because this person's interviewed, and they're saying, well, this is why we're protesting. This person gets interviewed. This is why we're protesting.
And then during negotiations when the main cattle rancher was gonna go and talk to the agents, he got shot in the vehicle going to go to negotiations, and that squashed everything. Now no one's sighting anymore. So it's so easy to these cattle ranchers were holding their own. People came in and thought they were helping whether or not the they were infiltrated by other, you know, agency members that helped sow disharmony and whatever. But it was so easy for once the numbers grew, people came in. They didn't have united front. They didn't have united cause, and it just broke everything up. And then someone ended up dead because of it. The person who was in the right who should have been defending his land and property. You know? Like so it's it's it's crazy too how quickly a mob of people and mob mentality can change something when you're not all on the same page. Like, it's it's wild.
[01:46:46] Unknown:
Yes. But it's the same thing that they they, whoever the fuck they are, know the system, the b system, let's say. It knows that when we get together with the right message, dude, we can do some real big stuff. But a lot of people are afraid or stuck in this this this so called, you know, oh, I'm gonna watch movie on Netflix because I don't wanna be, you know, with these people or whatever the fuck. Or this is crazy. So you you talked about Bill Cooper. Is is there, are there some, conspiracies that you really like to talk about? Yeah. But that she picked into?
[01:47:24] Unknown:
Did all of dude, everything that's been considered a conspiracy theory almost has, like, come out to be proven true at this in my life from aliens. Like, I remember how many people did we lock up in mental institutes, ashamed them for saying that they saw things. And then during the pandemic, the my government, anyway, is like, by the way, UFOs are real. No big deal. Right. Right. Right. And no one made a big deal about it. So, like, you know, there's stuff like that, the shadow people, the inter dimensionals, Bigfoot, and the cryptids, even the stuff as far as whatever you wanna call them, the Illuminati, the 13 families that rule the world.
[01:48:04] Unknown:
The 13 bloodline.
[01:48:06] Unknown:
Yeah. Yeah. All of it. And I can't say exactly what's right, but, I mean, if you do your research even, you realize, oh, this corporation owns this corporation, owns this corporation, owns this corporation. So then it's like, okay. That owns all these. And then you this owns this, owns this, owns this, and then there's maybe, like, six things that literally own everything. So you're like, okay. Maybe there are only six families that run it. Like, it yeah. Bill Cooper got me big on the conspiracy of the government going after its own people and that we've strayed so far from what the original founding fathers might have wanted. That's why he insisted on know your constitution, and if you can't memorize it, keep a copy on you.
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Right. Right.
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Yeah. Like, no. He's a anything involving overthinker.
[01:48:53] Unknown:
Yeah. I call myself finger. I'm not the first, You know, that that's also been made up by The government. The government. The government expansion. Yes. Around the chain okay. Shit. We pushed it. Yep. When we went to the moon with 230, 80 thousand miles of landline because otherwise, Nixon couldn't call. Probably that's why you have a very expensive phone bill because they're still paying off fucking, cable.
[01:49:23] Unknown:
Well, see, even some of that stuff like, I wanna believe we went to the moon because, you know, if I believe in aliens, unless they're inter dimensionals, they would have to come from someplace else in this galaxy. Right? But at the same time, if we can make it to the moon back in the day, why the fuck haven't we made it at all? Like, you know, we've tried. I keep seeing things exploding in the fucking atmosphere, but yet we can't make it back to something we did. Like so just just replicate it. That's all what science is. Right? Replicate it. Let me see it again, and I'll I'll believe it.
[01:49:54] Unknown:
Right. Yeah. But but then but then he got, of course, for example, I I love to have him on my show, journalism. He went to, with William Duffy, which I had also, William Duffy, I think this. No Duffy, I think, went to Antarctica to prove the twenty four hour sun, which they did prove, doesn't prove a flat plane Earth. And I said that in my podcast before he opt on to Antarctica, I said, you're gonna prove twenty four hour sun. That's a possibility, but you're not gonna prove with that statement. You're not gonna prove, a flat or a round globe. You're not. But what Jaronism said Jaron from Jaronism, he said, well, the things that are been pointing out right now with the flat Earth, Nat, and stuff like that do not work as what I saw with a twenty four hour sun. So we need more investigation about how does that work then if so and and I like to dig into that kind of stuff, not too much because you're gonna be, you know, ending up like, my name is Johnny. My name is Hitler. My name is Napoleon.
[01:51:04] Unknown:
I don't know. You know? I just don't know. Have to look at the stuff too that even so, like, when it comes to my government, I got intrigued by someone, admiral Richard Byrd, who had high rankings in the government. The government loved him, sent him out on trips to Antarctica as a pilot. Then he starts saying some stuff about seeing some beings and a place called either Agatha or Lemuria or whatever. Yeah. Like, within the land. And then suddenly, the government's like, yo. This dude's crazy. We gotta lock him in one of our mental institutes. So they lock him in a mental institute. Then they release him, send him back to Antarctica, send him back, then he goes home to his home. It's somewhere in Massachusetts. Maybe it was, like, Beacon Hill or something where he mysteriously dies of heart failure.
So he's so crazy. You have to lock him up, but then you take him out and send him back to Antarctica. But we're not supposed to trust anything he said. Well, that's what I'm saying. Like, something seems fit so, like, when it's stuff like that, I'm like, okay. I'm more inclined to believe whatever crazy shit came out of admiral Richard Byrd's mouth because of what y'all did to him. Like, it just makes me be like, or at least that seems more like truth. So stuff like that. Yeah. It's interesting. It's an antibiotic Yes. It It's
[01:52:23] Unknown:
it's it's not only interesting. It's it's, so okay. Let let let's say that that I have a device that that brings us to the future or the past, doesn't matter what, but I can prove what the shape of the Earth is. Right? Let's say for for example, then what? Right? So if you, you know, that that that's that's the other thing I getting my head around like, okay. So someone proves it and a lot of people will also say like when Jaren came back, just like, oh, no. It's it's it's a hoax. It's this no. No. He fucking saw it. Well, why would he lie about it? Yeah. So the the other thing I said, which could be a possibility, it's like, okay. There's a twenty four hour sun in Antarctica, but that sun will not provide The Netherlands or Australia or America with the same stuff that it does as a sun.
Maybe there are multiple suns. That's maybe a theory. So that could be. Right? Because it makes no sense when the sun is turning around in Antarctica, which is like 8,000 or 9,000 kilometers away from from from Argentina that is still providing Peru and and America like desert in Africa and stuff like that in Australia with the vast amount of 24,000
[01:53:42] Unknown:
circumstances of the of the world. The sun with all the stuff that the sun does, it makes no sense to me at all. I'd be curious about the placement of the the permanent sun in Antarctica. Like, where does it fall in relation to the ice wall that we can't seem to penetrate and that seems to heal itself supposedly from some of the things? Like, every time they dig in it, it just closes right back up. So Right. Like With the blue ice? Yeah. Like, there's a huge ice wall supposedly that's keeping us encircled in this flat earth or whatever have you. And anytime you try drilling into it, I guess it just what they're saying, heals itself, and there's videos of it of it just closing right back up. So you can't really dig in it, drill holes in it, or anything because it keeps healing itself.
So I'm curious where the sun is in even relation to that because say this ice wall is a living thing. So how I Right. I'm like, does that is that sun supposed to provide light to that part that we can't access because of the ice wall. So, like, you're saying the two suns. We have our sun that does everything on that, and what we're seeing or what he saw in Antarctica is the sun meant for the other that we can't really access because of the ice wall, and we're only seeing part of it because of his locality. I don't know if that makes sense. Like
[01:55:06] Unknown:
Well, I mean, me neither. And I think that which could be very, maybe giving a solution. I was just thinking about it. Maybe we should measure how the sun is been looked upon from some places on the land. So what is the circle? How big is it? Because Yeah. It should be bigger when you're coming, you know, ah, there's so many fucking questions. So No. Like how shadows are cast. Right? Closest like, the sun is the highest. Usually, between twelve and three. That's why the shadows are like the yeah. Like, do stuff like that to measure. But it makes no sense to me that the sun that I see coming up, like, let's say, for example, 06:00 in the morning until 06:00 in the evening, then in that twelve hours, it hits all the other continents. It makes no fucking sense to me at all.
It doesn't. Because it's 24,000 kilometers and I see it only during the day. Wow. That breaks my my my my, normal mind sometimes. And, I had a book. I don't know where where I packed it and what address. It's, thanks to, Michael Hayes. It's about, several continents, which is, several, so you just can see Asgard. I'm I'm figuring out the the title of the book right now. It's been written by a woman behind the ice ball. It's not Tertiary, but is oh, fuck. It's a blue book with all so you you basically live here in the center, but there's all, land beyond the ice walls. Yeah. Yeah.
[01:56:46] Unknown:
I've seen some old maps that that depict that. Right? Like, Tartarian bond, the ice walls and stuff. And even, like, the old maps that display certain creatures like the kraken and mermaids and stuff. Right? Which we identify the kraken now as the deep sea squid or octopus or whatever that are fucking ginormous. So when we discredit things like that, where it's like, oh, these sailors who are proficient in sailing the ancient seas and having to survive are so stupid. They don't know what animals they have to avoid in the ocean. Like Right. Just discredit everything they say. They They can use the stars to navigate. They don't have technology. They know what fish are. They know what but they can't identify these animals. Like Right. Probation sensible. And all the maps have the same shit from different societies, different countries, different cultures. So, like, they're all stupid is what you're telling me. And it's the same thing with the maps with the ice wall where it's like something happened at one point in our history where the maps have just totally fucking like, something is going on even if maybe Tartaria is not real, but something is happening. There's there's there's some reason y'all are changing the maps and trying to discredit all the ancient maps and ancient, I don't know, adventurers, fishermen Alright. Everything.
[01:57:59] Unknown:
So I don't know what your age is. I'm not gonna ask for sure, woman, and you always.
[01:58:05] Unknown:
I'm 36.
[01:58:06] Unknown:
I'm 36. Okay. So so I'm I just turned 52, Winters Young. But the thing is, when I was in school, it it was maybe like a a flip of the switch because, like, ten years before, you shouldn't ask anything to a teacher which is not in the field of their expertise because you're gonna be fucked up. You know? They they gonna hit you and stuff like that. You you just have to sit still like in a prison, you do your stuff and stuff like that. So what we're trying to say with that is, why is that same thing with history? Why is there some kind of stuff that you can't ask about and you build ridiculed or you've been thrown into prison eventually because you're asking some questions like, okay, if you have an answer to this, not like an answer, oh, it's it's just like it is, like my mom always says, like no. He's just like, no. No. No. Explain to me and and give me facts Mhmm. About the events and about why you make this statement yours and why you defend that statement.
I just wanna know because I'm curious. Well, don't be curious. Is this what they've been written out in the books? Well, I got a pen and pencil right here. So if I read some stuff down, it's gonna be the new bible? I don't know. What the fuck? No. What really interest me are, a lot of stuff like why can we you know, why don't this oh oh oh, Antarctica is so wild and so cold. You're gonna die. Okay. But if I choose to to be there
[01:59:45] Unknown:
Yeah. Because there's no different than why so I can go explore the rainforest in Colombia and go see ancient ruins there and maybe die either in the rainforest from an an animal, the cartel, anything like that, but I can't go like you're saying, I can't go to Antarctica because I might freeze to death. Like yeah. But I can go to Siberia. Like, you know, like,
[02:00:09] Unknown:
like, you know? Yes. But, also, if you see how big the country so my mom said, oh, you go to America, please be careful for the forest, the the the burns, the the the fire. I said, do you know how fucking big America is? If this is America and the the the little molecule that's here, that's probably the fires of of LA or whatever the fuck. The rest is just a big country. It's just but it's the same thing and that that's that's also what I really like about psychology. You know, like, don't go that way because you're gonna be fucked up if you go that way. Oh, oh, I'm not gonna so I I pointed out as a example as, I put a sign on the door, like, watch it freshly painted.
It's not. Don't tell anyone. But see how people react to that, oh, freshly painted door. You know, did they did they that's psychology. So that's that's also what they say about don't go to Antarctica. It's it's called blah blah. Okay. I nowadays, we got some very good clothing and stuff like that. And if you want to be so stupid or adventurous to get there, why in the fuck? I mean, it's just like, oh, because it's such a such a, a beautiful, pristine pristine continent. Well, the ones that say that it's pristine have military stuff doing their stuff. Well, is there something really polluted? It's the old cars and the old diesel trucks and the old fucking vessels that they're gonna do. That makes no sense to me. You know?
[02:01:52] Unknown:
No. That's part of I think that's why as a child, I really got into Pink Floyd, and I can appreciate him even more as an adult, like, breaking the wall. Even the videos where it shows them pumping the kids through the system. You're just you're another brick in the wall. They don't care. You don't get imagination. You're just a little fucking automaton. You're gonna do what the teacher says. Like, what do you mean? Like, yeah. Like, it it starts then. The the teachers are yeah. The teachers break your soul. I think I had maybe two teachers my entire schooling career that encouraged me to think outside the box and be creative. Where the rest, if I have questions for them, it's go to the office. You get detention or because I'm, like, back talking them or questioning them or or, like, where where it's like, I just wanna know. Like, because Right. And you had a real question. Go outside. It's like, why am I here for eight hours a day if y'all don't actually wanna fucking teach me? Like, what is the point?
But, no, they don't and, yeah, it starts I think more kids need to be homeschooled if possible. Probably be but then that goes back to parents, not the whole system. The whole system needs to be redone. That's kind of what we're looking at here.
[02:02:58] Unknown:
Or you should you you should pick and choose between the system. Like, if you wanna be on yourself or your own community, fine. But if you are fitting in this system, you have to do that perfectly. But you have a choice, a free will, whatever the fuck they're gonna call you. But in in the in the system, it doesn't matter where you are on this planet, They are sucking you in, and you have to be participating in that stupid shit.
[02:03:23] Unknown:
I know those tend to be the people that will try to break your soul and crush you to do the same. Like, that's what I'm realizing. So anytime I get confused, it'll be like, stop being an artist or you're just lazy or whatever else. It's like, okay. Like Right. Because you're you've got it so well. Right? You have it all figured out. Your life is where you want it to be. It's like, I have my moments, but I feel like, overall, I'm probably happier than most people that have to work a dead end job that they hate, be around people that they hate, like Right. Just to be able to eat or something like that where I guess I am fortunate where, yeah, I don't have to do that. Right. Like, I still have to go out in society and be around tense people, you know, people that might not really give a shit about anybody else, but at least I moved to a place where that doesn't even seem to be the majority.
And people tend to keep that victim mentality because I've had so many people be like, well, you're privileged, you know, because because of where you live. It's like, I was born in a shithole of New Bedford, Massachusetts. Like, drug I don't know how many people died of drugs there that I was growing up with as kids, adults. Like, it's a bad fucking place to live. Like, people fighting all the time, shootings. Like, I don't know how many buildings I lived in where there were shootings, drive by shootings and stuff. Like, it's it's not a good place. And then I managed to pull myself out of that, you know, with the help of a partner. We built a life together and even survived cancer, and yet I'm constantly being told, well, you're just privileged. Like, either because of my skin color or because of where I was people just assume I was born here in Maine, which I wasn't, or that I have a bunch of money that it's what it's like, I don't you know? Like Right. Right. So so their first instinct is always like, well, you're lucky because you were born there, or, oh, you're because you're white or you're because you must come from money where it's like, no. I come from none none of those things are true. Like, I had to struggle to get to where I am now, and and I'm I'm I'm in a better place, which I think goes to show anyone can do it if they put in the time, energy,
[02:05:26] Unknown:
sap which means the things. Yeah. Like, it's if you just change yeah. That's a you problem. Change it. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Exactly. And and that that's the thing. Oh, you're just so free. Well, you know how much it cost to be to to weigh I end up. Well, it's not like that's the ideal situation that I do not have a hole right now. I'm gonna work on that stuff. Right? And then that's okay because I wanna have a place to be, you know, and to to to lock my door and with my stuff and the little stuff that I own. It's your safety. That's where you can go and disconnect from all the badness too. That's your serenity and your safe place. Like Yes. The the only thing I have now, which is safety, is my mental institution right up here and my heart. You know, that's the only thing that and of course, my body, I have to take care of that.
But the the other things is just like in this society, you need something to lock up because it's, you know, to to feel safe, just just like you said. And the other thing is just like you have to choose some things early in life where you can get the fruits from later in life. So if you and and, you know okay. So so I haven't choose for kids. I love kids, but it's it's not it's like elephants. I love to see them. I love I love them, but I don't wanna have them at home. Well, there's an elephant right there. Yeah. And I no. No. Of course, that that for you, it wasn't a choice because the choice has been made for you, of course. But, the the thing is, there are so many things, geographically, the culture that you're in, the religion, the people you're gonna hang around with, the the network you're gonna build up, the way you're gonna vibrate through the world, and and and the frequency you're gonna put out is gonna all gonna manifest into that something that you are and be.
And that's all we need, you know? And if if it feels right, then why not? I mean, I like it. I I really like it. We got no place to go. Well, I got so many places to go, man.
[02:07:23] Unknown:
Yeah.
[02:07:24] Unknown:
Yeah. You're right. Right now, that's fine. That's fine. Like, that's fine. No, ma'am. The I'm not gonna walk my, wooden shoes, unfortunately. He couldn't bring them with me, but yeah. Ari, I know what's about you, but I'm flies where you were in Dzora, and I have to always say that to people. We're two hours there. I'm gonna ask you 14 questions, and I hope you have any great time. I do.
[02:07:49] Unknown:
Yeah. Yeah.
[02:07:52] Unknown:
Cool. Okay. Normally, I have the questions on my laptop, but I told you just before you uptown that I have now a little divide, like, tablet and fear out of fucking words. So I I try to do it out of my brain, which I should normally do because it's 97 fucking episodes in Rob. Come on. Okay. So what's your what's your favorite color?
[02:08:18] Unknown:
A a blue. Like, a light blue bordering on green. Like teal. Uh-huh. Yeah. K. So almost like,
[02:08:25] Unknown:
the, the real,
[02:08:27] Unknown:
a real Borealis. No. Yeah. No. Yeah. The Royal Borealis. Yes to? Everything but pop country. I can't stand pop country, but anything else I will listen to. Gangster rap, metal, Gregorian chants. I don't care. I'm listening to it. Yep.
[02:08:50] Unknown:
What's your favorite film or movie?
[02:08:58] Unknown:
It's probably tied between drop dead Fred and aliens, the second aliens movie. Ew. So horror. I really love horror as I already said. And everything about the aliens movie was perfect from the casting, the comedic relief of Bill Paxton, the special effects, just like, oh, it was a beautiful movie. And drop dead Fred, I grew up watching. I always wanted an imaginary friend. My mom sucked, so I kind of related to the character in the movie. I wanted a drop dead Fred, Rick Miles. The character was great. So that's just something that's always stuck with me.
[02:09:32] Unknown:
Right. Right. Okay. Now I have to, deep, deep dive into my, my little conscious minds. But what's your favorite, book?
[02:09:43] Unknown:
A Stranger in a Strange Land. It's by Robert Heinlein. He also wrote Starship Troopers and stuff like that. But it's about a Martian that comes to Earth and teaches Americans to expand their consciousness, and they develop telepathic powers and start fighting the government. And, oh, it's wild stuff. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. That sounds so strange of the strangest. Okay. I have to I have to notice that. Strange of the strangest lamp.
[02:10:09] Unknown:
Okay. Stranger Strange laugh. I'm just I'm just writing stuff down and and and figure out what the fucking next question would oh, yeah. What kind of clothing you like to wear the most?
[02:10:26] Unknown:
Recently, I just go for comfy stuff. So I'm probably a basic bitch wearing yoga pants or sweatpants and a hoodie. Like, I mean, taking comfort.
[02:10:38] Unknown:
Okay. Okay. And what's your favorite food?
[02:10:44] Unknown:
If we're talking desserts, cheesecake because it's just so divine. I really like stuffing for some reason. Like, if you make really good homemade stuffing and even add, like, quahogs to it, a lot of people don't add quahogs to their stuffing. Hodge. Let's switch quahogs. It's like a type of clam that you'll find in in the oceans that you dig up. Okay. Yeah. It's it's a seafood. And if you add a little bit of, like, the coo quahog to the stuffing, I feel like it just that and some chorizo, like, it it adds a certain flavor to it. It's just so good. I don't know.
[02:11:20] Unknown:
Sounds good. Sounds good. What's your favorite, drink or, beverage?
[02:11:28] Unknown:
Some kind of tea, I'm guessing. Maybe like a passion fruit or a jasmine or something. Mhmm. Yeah. I've been drinking mostly water. I kicked all that old Pepsi used to be my favorite. I used to love Pepsi. I was an addict, but got rid of all that shit. So
[02:11:43] Unknown:
Dry. Dry. Oh, a lot of people that talk about ours are pouring out water, and and, eventually, we we we work with a lot of people just like, what was the old new listening and watching and drinking and eating, and what is the new you eating, which this is gonna be another fucking conversation for us.
[02:12:04] Unknown:
Yeah. So water and tea to be healthy. That's mostly what I drink now, and I love it. I didn't at first, but now I genuinely like the taste of water. Yeah. You couldn't have paid me to drink water before.
[02:12:15] Unknown:
Oh, yeah. Well, the and the funny thing is if you have really good filtered water and stuff like that, you can you can bring gallons of it. Yes. It holds you, especially if you use your Celtic sea salt. It holds the water instead of going pee pee. Yes. Yes. So, oh, no. I have to, okay. So what's your favorite bottle?
[02:12:46] Unknown:
I don't know. I I guess it's cliche, but since cancer, I've been trying to live like it's my last. Like, I every day isn't guaranteed, and I fuck up sometimes. That's for sure. But I try to. I try to. So, yeah, each day is my last. I'm not gonna get another chance.
[02:13:05] Unknown:
Right. I like that one. What's your, favorite, quote?
[02:13:14] Unknown:
Sterling Hayden, who was an actor, and he was actually one of the first OSI agents here in America doing, like, search and rescue missions under the name John Hamilton. But Sterling Hayden was a sailor and a wanderer, and he had a quote saying, lost indeed, aren't we all? It's only when we are lost that we have any hope of ever truly finding ourselves, and that's always stuck with
[02:13:39] Unknown:
me. Nice one. No. No. Now I've got the last two questions. I think the the the last two questions. I really like to know your answer. What's your, definition? Oh, no. I got four. Four more. Now what now I remember. Four of them. What's your definition of God?
[02:14:03] Unknown:
I'm learning that definition. I'm someone that grew up, like, Catholic. I was forced you know, trying to go to communion and all that stuff and pushed it away, tried to learn as much about every religion as possible. And and Jesus. Yeah. Yeah. And now I'm almost coming back to there's a supreme creator, but I can't put a I can't put any one label on it. But there's definitely something up there doing shit with intention that's also given us free will. Yeah. Yeah. We're we're definitely a part of something. Right. I'm still meditating on it. I wish I had the I think it's gonna be a lifelong I'm kinda jealous of people that just have the answer where they're like, I'm a happy Catholic. I'm a happy Hindu. Like
[02:14:50] Unknown:
Pride. Pride.
[02:14:53] Unknown:
I wish I had that, but I don't. I feel like I'm always gonna be meditating on that possibly until the day I die.
[02:15:00] Unknown:
So so well, this is then, of course, a a bonus question. Is this something that maybe is already in you that you recognize as this, or is it still a search for something that you don't know what it is?
[02:15:15] Unknown:
I I know it's there. I think the I'm someone that just wants everything answered to, like, I wanna I want I want it. Like, give me everything so that I understand it, and it's digestible, and I could put it in categories. And that's just not how some shit works. So I think it's just the selfish part of me being like, give me all the answers so I can say with certainty, but, like, who am I to I'm also no one special. It's like, why are you gonna give me all those answers? You know? Like, I'm special. I'm not I'm not saying I'm a no one, but, like Mhmm. And that's also maybe part of the mystery of life. If you knew all the answers, what would we be doing with life?
Right. Maybe some of us would still have motivation to do shit, but I think that's part of the motivation
[02:15:58] Unknown:
of life is the mystery of it and trying to unravel. Oh, yes. For sure. I was just thinking if you have all the answers, you you you know, everything will be bored.
[02:16:07] Unknown:
I'm six year in knowing there's something there, something beautiful, but I just yeah. I don't have all the answers. I'd like to figure them out, but I probably never will.
[02:16:18] Unknown:
What's your definition of, the devil?
[02:16:24] Unknown:
I guess just evil. Right? Like, whether that's a spiritual form, if it's evil incarnate in man. Like, if you were a a degenerate person who went around hurting people, you would be the devil. Like, the devil in car incarnate. Right? Like, that's just evil. Anything that occupies and I don't mean healthy negativity. Like, anger can be good. Sadness can be good. But I mean, like, overtly evil. Like Right. Right. Being like, that kind of thing. Like, yeah, it's just a a state of being that I guess could be a spiritual thing or a very realistic thing in a human body.
[02:17:05] Unknown:
Yeah. That's impressive. Sorry. What's your definition of success?
[02:17:16] Unknown:
I guess a place where you could be happy. I you know, other people can think you're you're in a place too or, you know, be congratulated by your peers or whatever, but I think it it's gonna be personal for everybody. Some people won't think they're successful unless they are a manager of a company. Some people won't unless you own a business. So for me, I just want to be able to feed myself, be a healthy human being, and be the best person I can be, and then that's success in my eyes. I haven't hit that point yet. But I'm working on it.
So, yeah, I just wanna be the best version of me and and have what I need without taking too much. And if I can die doing that, I'm successful.
[02:18:02] Unknown:
Nice. What's your, definition of, the last one, of, value?
[02:18:13] Unknown:
Like, just in general? Someone? Whatever something can do and not even for you, what something can do for you or someone can do for you, but whatever something's special ability is. Like, if if yours is to connect with people through podcasts and get information out there and talk to people and experience things, then that seems to be your value in what you bring. And that smile, Jesus Christ, it's contagious. It's so big and yeah. So anything like that. Like, if it's a musician, like someone like myself, I've gotten so much some people I've been able to meet, some people I've looked up to, some musicians I'll never meet, but I've gotten so much from their music. They've pulled me out of the darkest times. They've gotten me through some stuff, and I got so much value out of that. And I'll never meet these people. But what they've created has done so much for me, and I'm sure Right. Other people that listen to it.
So, yeah, I place value in the things that people do or who people are, but not in a selfish way per se, but how it helps society as a whole or how it helps me as a whole.
[02:19:33] Unknown:
Right. Right.
[02:19:35] Unknown:
But not and, like, give me more. Give me more. Like, oh, you're benefit like, give me. Like, oh, I know you, so I get to hang out with these people. And, like, oh, I know you, so I get this like, not like that. Just in a, oh, I know you so I get to experience all this, and now I get to, like, up my knowledge level or now I'm adapting to this new thing. Like, that's where I find value.
[02:19:56] Unknown:
Right. Right. Love it. Love it. Oh, I love talking to you, Ari. But as as I said, time flies as, as you are always on the Dazorash productions. And, please tell, the audience where they can find you. You you mentioned your your website. Is there is there, also well, I think there is also the connections to your Spotify, Instagram,
[02:20:20] Unknown:
everything. Yeah. I'm on any like, if you're trying to listen to my music, I'm on any streaming platform. You can find me there, Ari Mnemonic, and the official website, AriMnemonic.com. I have Instagram, Facebook, though I'm more active on Instagram. Ari Mnemonic. Just type it in. You'll find me. Yeah. I'm I'm usually pretty active on LG. I try try to respond to people who reach out to me and stuff. So, but I'm also human. Like I said, I have 13 dogs. Get you me. Good. But yeah. Just Ari mnemonic everywhere you can find me.
[02:20:53] Unknown:
Cool. Thank you for your time, man, JIari. And, for all listeners back home, this is the last episode that I'm gonna do, on on the vast land of Europe because tomorrow, I'll be traveling to, The States. So let's see how the Internet connection and stuff like that goes. I have some people lined up for podcasting, but, you know, just like my trip, I don't know where it's gonna going to end. I'm not gonna know where it's going to, to start. I'm just gonna leave it. I'm just gonna embrace it and, figure things out for myself and, hopefully, for you to, by having good conversation with everyone.
And, for all of our listeners back home, have a beautiful I hope you enjoyed this episode and have a beautiful grand rising, a beautiful day, or a beautiful evening no matter where you are on this beautiful plain planet. Thank you. And then I should say namaste. Of course.
[02:21:53] Unknown:
Well, namaste. But, also, thank you for having me on. This was fun. I liked our conversation. Wasn't sure what to expect or how it was gonna go, and it it was it was fun. It was entertaining. Thought about some series. So was like a
[02:22:07] Unknown:
I like your weight flows like a flows because, you know, if you're going to be prepared for whatever, you're gonna try to prepare, you're going to be disappointed most of the times even if you are into business like, oh, I'll prepare for this client. No. Go into it. You know you you know what you're gonna talk about. You're gonna talk about a product or a service or whatever the fuck and just be there. That's it. And just like what kind of, questions he gonna ask you or whatever the fuck and then just answer them. But if you be prepared and they're not gonna talk about the subject, you will be just like, oh my god. Oh my god. I never ever prepare. Well, I Okay. Yes. I I wrote down on your Instagram, like, you know, chaos just just face of chaos and all that stuff. Yeah. But that's it, you know? Okay. You do art, you do this, you that, and just have a conversation. Just be a human guts god's sake.
[02:23:04] Unknown:
Well, that that was awesome. I had fun. If you ever wanna talk again in the future, I'm down. I hope you have fun coming over to The US, not only just seeing Max and Joel and Ben and everybody, but just in general, just experiencing whatever the whatever you're gonna get into, dude.
[02:23:19] Unknown:
Yes. I'm I'm gonna have a great time for sure. K. Thank you, Ari. You're welcome. Have a good night. You too. Bye.
[02:23:44] Unknown:
We're running for all my life with a devil on my heels. He wasn't always kind, and he couldn't fulfill my dreams. I've been running for all my life with a devil on my heels. He wasn't always kind, and he couldn't fulfill my dreams. He's a pain in the ass, black as a night. God show me light. There's a plane in the ass, black as a night. God show me light, and he'll be tight. Where I'll be running for all my life with the devil on my heels. He wasn't always kind, and he couldn't fulfill my dreams. He's a pain in the ass. Black as a night, God's swimming light and he'll be tight.
Skip me branch like squirrel, baby. What we're dealing with here is a total lack of respect for the law. Welcome fellow human to the disorganized productionist podcast. The show that fuels your spirit, ignites your potential, and helps you become the best version of yourself. I'm your host, Rob, and each episode will embark you on a journey to unlock the power within you, tap into your limitless potential and conquer life's challenges.
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Okay.
[00:01:35] Unknown:
Okay. According to progress. Ladies and gentlemen, fellow human, welcome to another episode of Disorganized Productions. And today, we have a special guest. I think it's episode 97, I think. Oh, my disorganized prank. But we have an artist, in the room. I I really like it when when she said, on her Instagram page, a space of chaos, which really resonates with me. She's a musician, artist, and a registered yoga teacher, so IT. Welcome to Disorganized Productions' Ari mnemonic.
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Thank you for having me.
[00:02:22] Unknown:
I'm going to record it anyways, but I don't know if the video is also available because of the rendering and the data and stuff like that. Because, hello, Eunze, today, I'm in the, in in Germany, cross border, from my place, like, one hour, because tonight I'm gonna fly to Dior, baby. Star spreading anew. I'm glad I know. Well, how you doing, Harry?
[00:02:50] Unknown:
Very good. You seem to be in well spirits too. You're excited about traveling. Like, your energy overall is amazing. Meeting you for the first time, it's great. Like
[00:03:03] Unknown:
Yeah. Well, I'm trying to do my best. Sometimes I'm, but when I'm not in the mood, I just close everything, and I don't wanna shut off from people. But I think we we all have that, color. Right? But you gotta pick you up. Yeah. I'm I'm a positive guy, to be honest with you. And I'm very excited. Maybe I'm too nervous. He's he was standing there with my suitcase like, I did you let me in? Well, you got a ticket, sir. Well, I got one ticket, which is one way. I don't know if they're gonna
[00:03:33] Unknown:
if Yeah. It's gonna be fine. People do it all the time.
[00:03:37] Unknown:
Right? Yeah. Yeah. A lot of them don't go back, and they want me to go back. Chewy.
[00:03:45] Unknown:
The the you could cob travel, have fun, go within all the states, and then yeah. It's no. We want tourism. We do. We want tourism here.
[00:03:55] Unknown:
Right. So, great. If if if you would please introduce yourself a little bit to the or to the audience, what you're doing, and what's up, and maybe some stuff that you wanna talk.
[00:04:07] Unknown:
Okay. Well, I'm Ari Mnemonic, as he said. I'm also a yoga teacher. I go by Ari Mac in my yoga teachings. Mnemonic is a tongue twister. Right? It's kinda hard to say for some. Yes. Definitely. And, but I use that as a stage name. Mnemonic devices is a way I've always remembered things. And if anyone's seen the movie Johnny Mnemonic, it's a little, like, pop culture reference as well. Yeah. Keanu Reeves is great. I teach yoga, and I basically I don't wanna say I live off grid, but I live in a village of basically 900 people in the middle of nowhere in Maine. I'm not far from Baxter State Park. It's just a bunch of farms around me. I have a few acres of land. I have 13 dogs, some chickens. I got a garage cat. Huge.
13 dogs. Yes.
[00:04:59] Unknown:
Oh, baby.
[00:05:01] Unknown:
Mostly all rescues. I didn't plan on having 13 dogs. It just hap you know, it just Just happens. It just happens. I've I've got the space in the land, so why not? So I basically stay home. I make art. I create. I teach yoga, and I just hang out in nature because, yeah, I I grew up in a big city, was born in a big city, and I can't do it. Like, I it was it it was eating me alive. Like, I I so after my cancer diagnosis, I left Massachusetts, left the big cities like New Bedford and Boston, and came up here, and it's been so peaceful. It's it's definitely aided in the healing process. It's allowed me to a degree to kind of disconnect in a peaceful way because when you don't wanna be a cog in the machine and do, like, the struggling artist thing, you can be looked down on, and people just seem to like like, people think that, like, you're lazy. Like, why don't you just go work a real job or something like that? And Why? I don't get that here. Yeah. Yeah. You know, I'm just I'm by myself. I'm with my dogs. I'm surrounded by nature, and pretty much all my neighbors are are awesome. You know? They're all foreigners or they're religious. And even if we we aren't the same religion, they're very kind people. They're open. They're willing to help each other. Like, I moved up here community. Right? Yes. Yes.
We moved up here during the when the pandemic happened the first year, and everyone was so great. Like, we didn't know anyone here. We're strangers moving in here, and people were still like, my my literal neighbors were so helpful with everything. Like, and it's not like that. Like, back where I'm from in Massachusetts, people are gonna tell you to go I don't know if you would swear on here, but that's peace do. People will tell you to go fuck yourselves. Like, they don't give a fuck. You're you're broken down on the side of the road, your car. They're just gonna stare at you. They don't they don't fucking care. Here, you could be broken down on the side of the road. Every person that drives past you is gonna stop to ask if you need help. It's just a The way it should be. Right? Yes. It's Because of a different life.
[00:07:10] Unknown:
Yes. I think we lose we lose some, some real connection to communities and nature because of this selfish kind of way that the system feeds us. You know, every so so the only thing that probably has been shared is that their Netflix account. Because in in the in the early days, you could get for $10. You could get four or five accounts on it. You know, people just like, oh, you got a Netflix. Oh, let me please binge watch this stupid shit, and they're gonna push down my approach. I wanna, you know, I wanna die miserable with minimum one Siri in my head. Just like, Oh my God. I did that too.
But, I think the thing is, when you are connected to nature as you do, when you going, because I was living in nature for for quite some time, in a trailer, only by myself, surrounded by forest, and in a really small village. But then shit hits the fan last year, and I had to go out, and I had to sell my trailer. And now I'm basically homeless. So that's why I'm gonna, you know and now I can travel somehow because I don't have anything attached to the system, like, a wife, a house, car, whatever the fuck. So just like, okay, what you gonna do? What you gonna do? Well, let's let's let's figure some stuff out. Right? So especially when you are in a community where you are very close to nature, as you said, with a few acres, that's, that's that's, that that's a dream. It's a dream. How long have you been living that right now?
[00:08:46] Unknown:
02/2019 is when we moved up here. So it's almost six years. We moved up here the February.
[00:08:54] Unknown:
Wow. Yeah. Well, what's the so so what's the normal temperature there around? So is is there really winter and summer or does it
[00:09:01] Unknown:
It's basically just winter and summer, and it's mostly winter. This winter's been a little weird, but usually, like, we'll have snow usually by the time Halloween's here. So the October, snow hits the ground, and it's on the ground until April. Like, even actively snowing in April. Wow. Yeah. Then we have mud season for about a month where it's just raining and it's all muddy. Like, everything is in mud. And then summer will start to come, and that'll last usually to September. We'll have a quick fall in between September and October, and then it's winter again.
[00:09:40] Unknown:
So cool. So cool. So it it because Maine is where is that in The United States if you if you is it in the center or
[00:09:49] Unknown:
No. So I'm on the East Coast. I'm on the Atlantic Ocean all the way at the top. I'm border Canada. So I'm an hour I'm closer to Canada than I am to any state. It's Wow. It'll take me longer to get to, like, Vermont or New Hampshire. I'm I'm an hour from from, from New Brunswick. I can get over to Montreal and Quebec. It's, Salfar.
[00:10:10] Unknown:
Oh, that's so cool. That's so cool. And you like to make art because I saw you dancing. I saw you doing crazy yoga posts as I think, like, if I would do that, first of all, I would break my back or I will I will be knotted so so people have to unknot me. But, also, you you make some beautiful art and some beautiful music I really like. Like, you call it dark jazz?
[00:10:37] Unknown:
Some of it. Yeah. It you know, even at point either the melody has a bit of a somber darkness to it or the melody might sound upbeat, but if you're really listening to my lyrics, my lyrics might have a darker tone. So it it tends to be one or the other, because at points, people like, I I have a song sirens in the city, and everyone's like, oh, I love this song. I love this song. And then a few people really listen to the lyrics, and they're like, hey. Is this song about someone murdering someone? And I'm like, yes. It is, actually. But Yes. Wow. You listen to the lyrics. And then people were so surprised by that. They're like, the song is about murder. I'm like, did you listen to the lyrics you're singing along to?
But yeah. So it tends to get people by surprise, some of the darkness that I slip in. But some of it is either, like, you know, I grew up watching horror movies, crime stuff, so I'm a big fan of, like, the noise. Crazy woman. Yeah. Kind of. A little bit. I mean, we're all a little mad. Right? It's got that balance. So, like, I'll
[00:11:44] Unknown:
Been alive.
[00:11:45] Unknown:
Yes. Yeah. Like, you can't be happy without sadness. You don't know, like, the light without the dark. It's it's that. So between, like, my morbid curiosities, I guess you could say, and therapeutic stuff, like, there's definitely darkness within me. I have trauma from my past, so it's either working that out or having fun with my fun curiosities. And I guess sometimes it goes over people's head because they don't they don't see some of the darkness in there per se, and then they're surprised when, yeah. Yeah.
[00:12:19] Unknown:
I like what you said when you say, Joe Kutik, because were you also making art and music, before it should hit the foul with, with the, with the with the disease?
[00:12:32] Unknown:
Yeah. So, basically, it seemed like I was born with with cancer, and it seemed to really kick into gear when I started menstruating. So I started menstruating at about 10, and something was wrong, like, that first time. And I tried bringing it up to my mom. She was an alcoholic and a junkie, so she was really no help when I brought it up to her. It took a few years. My father ended up getting custody, and my stepmom tried bringing me to doctors to maybe figure out what was wrong. The most I got was you have bad cysts. They rupture and it's painful. Stop being a drama queen. It's kind of they're like, here's some birth control. This will help you. And I was like, okay. But I was in so much pain. Like, it was basically I had a week of of menstruation. Like, without a doubt, it was always gonna be seven days and, like, heavy menstruation. I was on the toilet every time for the first day.
I'm bleeding profusely. It was like this my mattresses look like the scene from Hellraiser. Like, that's how much I like, something was wrong. There shouldn't have been that much blood. Right. I had diarrhea. I'm vomiting because, like, my muscles are contracting, and I have such bad cramps. Like, for the first day, I was stuck on the toilet. There was no way I couldn't be. So I was missing lots of school. I would always miss work as I got older, because that week was gonna be brutal. And then it got and then as it started to progress, then it came to so the week before my period, I would start to have symptoms. Like, the the cramps started coming early. The back pain started coming early, the nausea. And then so it got to the point where it was a week before my period, I felt like shit. The whole week of my period, I felt like shit. And then the week after was almost the recovery I needed. So I only had, like, one week a month where I felt kind of normal. Human.
Yeah. So to be able to go to school when I was young or go to work when I was older was such a hard thing. Doctor's notes were required when I was younger for school. But as I got older for work, people tended to treat me like I was a a junkie. They'd be like, you know, if you just went to AA, we couldn't fire you. And I'm like, yeah. That's great. But I'm not using or abusing any like, at that point, I didn't even use cannabis because I had it in my head. Like, my mom smoked cannabis. She did this. She did that. So I was like, oh, it's all bad. It's all bad. So I didn't start smoking until I was 18, and I wished I had used cannabis either edibles or some because it it did help a lot.
So I didn't even use cannabis. So when I'm being told, like, hey. If you just go to AA, we legally can't fire you. And I'm like but I'd be lying because I'm not using like, I don't know what's wrong with me. So kind of being told that, like, you're you're gonna make me a liar. So it was just like this vicious cycle of not being able to hold down a job, getting fired, being told that I'm a junkie, even going into to the ER, trying to be like, hey. Something's wrong with me. They'd be like, yeah. You want drugs? Like, we're not giving you drugs. It's like, I don't want drugs. I just wanna know what's wrong with me.
[00:15:48] Unknown:
Oh, fuck. That must be so so frustrating and so, what's the word? Fuck. Yeah. Frustrating, like, you don't know what's happening and everybody's pointing you down. Did you get very depressive about that stuff? Of course. I did,
[00:16:06] Unknown:
but it turns to so I'm someone I I learned that my sadness turns to anger very quick, especially when it seems I'm constantly being told something that I know isn't true, like, when I'm being told I'm a junkie or when I'm constantly seems like I'm being like it's like a condescending tone maybe or something like that that I'm being spoken to. So my sadness and depression would very much turn to anger, and then I just hate everyone. Even those that maybe have tried to help me, even though they weren't fully capable of helping me, they might have had good intentions, but I was just so, like,
[00:16:47] Unknown:
fuck all of you guys. Like Right. It's do you think it's like a mechanism? But because you you wanna shut down? Because, I see that sometimes happened to me also with some stuff that was going on health based. And I see that also with, dogs and cats. You know, if they really are struggling with, their life, they just want to fuck off and be left alone. So that's why I'm asking you, maybe that's like a coping mechanism of your, you know, just like fuck off everyone. I won't deal with it myself. Because don't you think that if you're, you you're gonna be very fast distracted and not gonna focus on your own well-being.
Let's say breath work or whatever the fuck because, you know, all the distractions. What do you think?
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No. Absolutely. Like so I came into yoga. My stepmom introduced me to it was yoga and Pilates mix at a very young age, and I found that so beneficial, more so the yoga. So I stopped the the mix of yoga, Pilates, and just delved into yoga. So I was about, like, 11, 12 years old and just going heavy into it, finding poses that were of great comfort and stuff like that. So it was a step up when my dad got custody of us, but my dad and stepmom eventually, it was like the bare minimum. Like, my stepmom did try to get me help, but once it was basically said that I'm just a baby who has cysts, they didn't wanna hear anything else of me. It was, shut up. You have a diagnosis. Like, you have a roof over your head. You have some food. Shut up.
So there wasn't much more there. So it was basically just me in my room delving into yoga. And then, like, going to school was a distraction. I genuinely wanted to learn. I was eager to learn things. And and I high school, I went to a trade school, so I was in cosmetology, so I was able to work and stuff too. So that was great. I was learning about hair and makeup. I wanted to go work on movie sets and do hair and makeup, so it was gonna help me out later in life. But I couldn't deal with all the bullshit in school, like, all the normal stuff of, like, high school with cliques and and the prom and, like, I I was in so much pain at points and just just trying to function that I was already, like, living as an adult to where not that I was above it, but, like, I I couldn't be bothered with it, and it definitely formed a disconnect even with my fellow peers. Like, unless someone had a rough life where, like, their parents happened to be an alcoholic or, you know, this or that. Like, someone went through some trauma, I couldn't get along with you, like, been on a base level because I couldn't even sit here and talk to you about, oh, how's the weather? How's this? Like, can't I fucking can't do I Shut up. Right. I'm gonna punch a hole through your face, like and you're trying to be nice, but fuck you.
That yeah. That's where I was at very much so. It was just let me get home and do some fucking yoga and listen to music. And, dude, I I was so burnt out. Like, after eight hours of being at school, I'm just like, oh my and I was having a a dilemma of, like, is the rest of my life. Like, I'm gonna have to go to work and do this. I'm gonna have and, eventually, my parents aren't gonna be even though they should have been taking care of me, I was working a job. I was paying for my clothes. I was buying groceries. I ended up basically emancipating myself at 16 and moved in with a boyfriend of mine and then was still driving to high school and stuff like that. So I was living an adult life, and I was like, this is my life. This is gonna be the rest of my and I was almost having, like, a meltdown of, like, I can't do like, I can't do this. I
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Not like in good future. Right?
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Yeah. And then at the same time, in that depression, there's not suicidal ideation. But I'm like I'm like, can whatever is killing me, can it just kill me faster? Like, I don't I can't kill myself. I'm never gonna be able to just do anything to end it myself, but I feel like I'm dying. So whatever is killing me that people are saying I'm just a drama queen about, can I just, like I remember, like, begging the universe or whatever god was out there, goddess, whoever, like, just just, like, end me already? Like, this is miserable, and I don't wanna do this. So, yeah, there was a strong, like, fuck you. Fuck everybody. Leave me alone. And can you just take me back and, like, give me a different incarnation already? Because even if I agreed to this, I didn't know what I agreed to. I don't want it. Like
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I don't want it. And at that point, you still didn't knew what you have.
[00:21:22] Unknown:
No. I didn't. I wasn't diagnosed until 02/2016.
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How far? Yeah.
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So I went my whole and I had boyfriends and part girlfriends even, because I'm bi, that were sympathetic to, yeah, to my situation. Oh, hey. I ended up getting married to someone and but before we were married, he he was like, hey. You need to go to the doctors. And I was like, hey. I've done this song and dance with almost everyone who's given a shit about me. The doctor's gonna dismiss me. Like, I'm sick of this cycle. Like, I just can't like, this is my life. If you can't handle it, that's totally fine. But, like Right. And he was like, no. No. Like, I'm not taking this for an answer. And forced me to go to the he didn't I don't wanna say, like, he did it against my will, but pretty much Right. Got me to go to the hospital while I was menstruating so that the ER doctor was like, hey. I think you actually have endometriosis, and I'm gonna recommend you to a specialist.
And then that was the start of actually getting a cancer diagnosis. Wow. And sending me the specialist and having certain scans and other other things done. So if he hadn't have insisted on bringing me to the hospital right place, right time because that doctor that happened to be working there actually gave a shit. Like, they listened to what I had to say. They did certain tests and were like, no. I don't think this is like, there's something seriously wrong here. And Mhmm. They were surprised that the amount of pain I could they were basically saying the squeaky wheel gets the grease, and you need to complain more. Your pain tolerance is here when most people's is down here. So you need to be you need to be crying, complaining, like, they're like and and we think that's part of why you weren't diagnosed sooner to where it's like, oh, cool. Like, fuck me. Right.
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Right. I just I I'm I'm wondering when I'm almost died four times, as I could remember, no sound of rub, no no complain, no nothing. When I have a little, thing on my finger, like like a what's it? A splinter? Papercut or something. Like a a finger. Like, what the fuck? My ad giver, she said, oh my god, you are such a world drama queen. There you got it, you know. If I'm dying, go south. I'm I'm I'm fine. Get in the doctor. No, I'm Fine. I'm dying. I'm fine. I'm dying. I'm going back. You know? Splintering my finger. Oh my fucking god. I'm gonna destroy the whole fucking world because I had the splinter of my finger.
[00:24:09] Unknown:
I swear it's the nerves. It's it's like the nerves are completely severed or something there. So the way yeah. I don't know. But I'm the same as you. That's right. Yeah. I get a little paper cut and I'm like, oh, that's not
[00:24:20] Unknown:
Right. But it must be so so great for for you to, to be without any, you know, pushing or whatever to get into the ER, get the right doctor that that really thinks like, okay, we gotta figure something out because something is wrong. Yeah. And and, of course, then you got a diagnose. So that is like, oh, wow. They know what I have, but fuck. Why do I have to do with this monkey? Right? Mhmm.
[00:24:51] Unknown:
Well, they they so my my PCP ended up running a bunch of different tests, and one of them I'll say this, anyone, any female, particularly, who has an issue and they're just being gaslit by the medical system, being told they're babies, ask your PCP to perform a CA one hundred and twenty five blood serum test. Usually, when you go to the doctors, they take blood anyway. They can do this while they're drawing the blood. It's not a big deal. And that'll test for markers of the likelihood of you having cancer. So I suffered for so long. They could have done this blood serum test, but because I wasn't most women don't get ovarian cancer until they hit menopause. So because I wasn't of a certain age and I was seemingly healthy Uh-huh. They didn't run that test. So I suffered for years and was told that I was basically just being a little baby when someone could have done a blood serum test and easily ended my suffering. Like, I could have had a diagnosis much sooner.
So be your own advocate, and you can ask for a blood serum test. Your PCP, you don't need a specialist to do it. Your primary care physician can do it, and it can be a good indicator. It's not gonna guarantee tell you, but it can be a good indicator if your levels are high that you have cancer. Right. But any woman that thinks that their cycle isn't right and it's something a little bit more serious, I'd say go do that.
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Because I have a bedroom
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and a and a bed, like, Carrie from the horror movie where the blood piles out, you gotta go to Yeah. Like, you shouldn't have very dark blood. It shouldn't look like blood clots. Like, if you break your nose and, like, you got, like, what like, that's not what the blood should look like. It shouldn't be so dark. There definitely shouldn't be and this is the embarrassing part. There shouldn't be any weird smells either with the blood or at other points. Like, that's the stuff too. Like, my whole life, I was basically so embarrassed of being a woman. Everything that made me a woman was torture to me, like, from Right. What gave me the gift of creating life to even, like, sexual encounters. Like, everything was just miserable from the pain to the the smells, the the just all of it was so
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Right. Gross.
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But if you know something's wrong, yeah, definitely go get help. So that blood serum test is what had my PCP be like, okay. No. Like, we're sending you to either the specialist in Boston, like, here, there. You have some options. And, Yeah. I went in for what was supposed to be exploratory surgery, like a laparoscopic. Like, we're gonna see how bad this is, what's going on because We're gonna look. Yeah. Cat stands couldn't really tell. But I guess when my oncologist who was doing that was like, oh, shit. And they did the cert like, right then and there that day, they ended up opening me opening me up. I still have a scar, though it's it's healed very well from the top of my pelvic bone all the way up through my belly button.
I had a mass that was it stretched from one ovary to the other, and it was huge. It was, like, 13 centimeters by 17 centimeters by 21 centimeters. That was a huge mass.
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I still hear you talk. Oh, now you're now you're back. So I don't know on what end this I'm sorry. No. No. No. That's fine. So you so you got 13 centimeters for from from from your belly button until your pelvis pelvis tool.
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Well, the the the the the mass that they pulled out of me was 13 centimeters by 17 centimeters by 21 centimeters. It stretched from one ovary. The ovaries were, like, combined together and congealed with this huge tumor, and, like, everything was, like, fused together. That's why I have problems with my bladder and bowels. I have fibroids. Shit was fused together. It spread up to my diaphragm. They had to scrape my diaphragm to where my diaphragm was in shock. I couldn't breathe after surgery. They're like, oh, you're gonna have to learn how to breathe again and only take shallow breaths for now. It's gonna hurt. Like, Yeah. It's Oh, it's
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So we got a solution for this, but you're gonna be job anyways. So Well, so I had a huge tumor
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that basically made my ovaries null and void. Then there was, like, a mucus y type of cancer that they said that was, like, coating all my organs and stuff. And then I had a bunch of things fused together. Like, I had a catheter for a while after my surgery. They thought I was gonna need it permanently. Luckily, I didn't, but I would still, have issues of just like, I would just randomly piss myself. Like, I'd be sitting here talking to you, and I'm just gonna piss myself for no, like Wow. Because your feet has been chop. Right? Yeah. And and a lot of people be like, oh, your pelvic floor. It's not my pelvic floor. Like, I'm recommended that I need to use a dilator, which is basically to stretch my Ureaches? Stretch out yeah. And my vagina, basically. Like, I'm so small that they're like, here. Sit here with this, and then things won't be painful. So it's not even a matter of I need to work on the muscles. The muscles are plenty tight.
It's just issues from everything else, but the Alovea has helped that. Since I started taking the Alovea, I don't randomly piss myself anymore.
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Wow. Because I wanna I wanna ask you and and especially also for the audience, how are you doing now?
[00:30:25] Unknown:
Oh, I'm I've been great. I for the most part, after my surgery, I changed my diet, which I cut out as much sugar as possible. I was still eating fruits. Like, I was getting natural sugars, and I would indulge at points and eat things I shouldn't. Yeah. Like, I'd eat some like, I love cheesecake. Cheesecake is a big weakness of mine. So Yes. Oh my god. It is. It's like it's it's orgasmic. So I I would definitely cheat and have things, but I cut way back. It's not like I was before eating an entire fucking cheesecake in a night. Like, started eating more meats and and stuff like that. Did way more yoga, and I was just like, okay. And this is it. I'm not doing radiation or chemo or what like, I'm either gonna survive this or not.
But but I did hit a wall to where I was still, like, peeing myself. My guts hurt. A bunch of different issues. Like I said, having a problem with HRT, and that was the wall I'd hit until I started the Alovea. And now my hormones are balancing out. I'm not peeing myself. I'm not having the gut issues. I cut back on cannabis. I can have an appetite now. I'm not nauseous when I eat. Right. I'm going to the bathroom regularly.
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So what was your what is your, like, normal, not key buttons and stuff like that? Wearing a diaper or Tinelini or whatever it's called. So how did you get to the product of aloe vera? Max. So a man in immune the a man in a t? It is.
[00:32:01] Unknown:
I was I was following Max, and she started posting about it. And I guess her using it, and we had gone back like, she was so patient with me. She was so patient with me because I hate all these products. They're gonna help you. They're miracle cures. It's like the snake oils, the modern day snake oils. And I didn't wanna call her a liar, but I was like, you're really gonna have to sell me on this app. Think. Yeah. So I was asking all these questions and, like, doing research, and she's sending me links. And like I said, I wasn't trying to call her a liar, but I'm like, I really wanna know.
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What's going on?
[00:32:41] Unknown:
Yeah. And and then some other people that she had already recommended it to had came out with their testimonies too, and I was like, you know what? Fuck it. I gotta try. Like, worst case, it's not gonna work. Right? Like, that's that's the worst that's gonna happen. So I made sure to to get my finances in order. I'm also a minimalist. I'm not, like, rolling in the dough. Most of my money goes towards my 13 dogs. So, like, I live off grid. You know? Like, I don't want for much, so it it's that. Like, so I made sure to have money for that, tried it, and I'm like, okay. You know what? This is my thing. Like, you know, people go and get Dunkin' Donuts. They go and get this. They go and get that. Like, this is my medicine.
This I'm gonna be using, and I'm gonna make sure I have money for it because it's fucking working. Out. Yeah. Yeah. And at first, I'm like, I'm not sure if it's a placebo effect. Right? Like, do I just want it to work? So even did stuff where I wasn't taking it, and I'm like, oh, wow. I feel my trigger finger coming back. Oh, I'm bloating like a motherfucker. Oh, I'm pissing myself again. Like Right. Like, if I was that powerful, trust I I tried to will myself to die or to heal myself before. I don't think I'm just willing this pill to work. Like Mhmm. Unless my strength is that mediocre that I can only will a pill to work kind of placebo effect thing, you
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know? But For me, the the first month in it and, my nails, I clipped my nails because I was well, as I had a home, I had a Berkeley water filter, and that, helped me immense with growing my nails and my hair and stuff like that. My skin was very good. But I well, my complete household, the taste I still possess, ovens scattered all over three or four addresses. So that's a really good bummer. So I don't have a hope to put my Berkeley water filter in. So but when I got the product, which is still I'm I'm I'm getting it to America, of course, because I'm gonna travel. My nails, I have to clip them almost twice strong. I don't have weekdays or weekends or a week. I have strongs.
So I'm a programmer myself, but also my hair. So, well, I used to have a big Afro. Well, I used to have hair, like, this little spot where there was almost no hair. It wasn't, like, not very thin. Now it grows hair back again. Really? Yes. I clipped it yesterday because I'm gonna travel. I feel a little bit better when it's a little bit but who knows? You know, when I'm coming back from America, like, all hair or something like that. I didn't know. But I do agree with you, like, the skepticism, first of all, then the placebo effect. But, do do you really gonna miss it when you're not gonna take it? Do you really have the benefits all been pointed out as Max and Bau and and and all these beautiful people say. Right?
[00:36:01] Unknown:
Yeah. And and my partner, he he got Lyme disease back when we were in Massachusetts, and it take it took a while for him to get diagnosed. So now he suffers, like, post Lyme. He's got a bunch of issues. This is gonna be a this is gonna deal with for the rest of his life. Right? Like, that's the doctor's famous words. Alright? Well, this is your life now. But he started taking the Alovea, and his brain fog dissipates. He doesn't have the narcolepsy. He doesn't have the pain in his joints. He doesn't have the the gut swelling. So because at first, we were, like, we were struggling a little bit to where he and I were basically splitting a bottle. So instead of me taking two pills a day, we each just took a pill a day, and that was making a difference for us. Like, that's that's how well this this stuff was working.
Now we both are taking our own our own stuff, but, like, it's even working for his issues and doing a, like, a blue collar job. He was based this isn't me talking shit. Like, he was just basically useless. He would do the job, come home, and crash, and, like, that like, he was just good for making the money. Like, he really couldn't do much else, and that's how just worn out he was. But this seems to genuinely help him.
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So Yeah. It's not just people doing that. Right? There's so many people getting collect their their whatever the fuck they have to get to the job, owing to pay the rent, to get some groceries, and just drop dead on a fucking couch. And that's so, that's And and you really can change your life. I think the things that would be because we never talk to each other. But if you if you're doing like create creative things like art and music, so not not everybody is an artist or musician, but if you if you find some spot like, oh, that's my my Zen moment, the the my right key moment, my energy moment. And then when you're going to change your mindset, even if you're going to scream when there's a little splinter, but you know, you you do your breathing and all that stuff and you face life as it is, and you have to deal with it on a right positive mindset, how it's going to change so tremendously.
It's not like, you know, moaning and complaining and oh, as my mom would say, like, oh, it is like it is. No, that is not like it is. I want to change that. And the only thing I can change is by doing it by myself. Like, I have strong days. I have strong end. I have, next strong and still still make some little mistakes. But it's gonna be the ripple effect that everybody has another mindset about the stuff that we are embracing every single day that's gonna fuck our system up. And when you are participating in the movement, like the, the Hope Movement or with Ally Uvea, when I was listening to Max, she she she said in one of the interviews, like, oh, you got to do what we say, like one, pill in the morning and one in the evening. And I was like, fuck that, you know. I'm gonna take two in the morning, so I don't have to worry about the night. But then I was thinking, like, we men, whatever the fuck is, we we always say to him like RTSM, you know, read the fucking manual.
So she re so she reminded me about that. I thought, oh, Rob. Oh, Rob. You gotta do the stuff that they say. So I did that. I have more energy. So I'm I'm I'm basically, like, six months ago, I could really get a nap right away just like if you're going off Zuko or probably in Zuko, like, fading away, but now energy level, oh, it's like an amp.
[00:39:46] Unknown:
I'm glad you said that. It's the same because that was part of the whole, well, you're not responding to HRT, and you've been suffering for so long. Your body's so tired. That's why you're so tired, and you sleep so much. And and I've always hated the transition from sleep to wake. Like, if you try to wake me up, I'm liable to throw a punch. So, like, you gotta wake me up like And and I've always been that way. Like, even as a kid, don't fucking wake me up. And I'm probably giving you, like, the evil eye when I wake up too. Like, why the fuck you waking me up? You'll just fuck.
Taking this stuff? Yeah. Like you're saying, like, I can wake up, and I don't wanna destroy the world. Like, I don't need to go and have a cup of coffee. I can stay up throughout the day and not nap. It's like, oh, wow. It's 10:00 at night, and I haven't napped. And I'm but, you know, like, it's amazing what it does for your for your energy. It's and it's not just me. Like, you're saying you you've you're feeling it too, a huge difference.
[00:40:46] Unknown:
Yes. So I normally, like, I I trim my hair because shaving is sometimes a little bit too bothering, but but I've I figured out just like, how long is it going? And and then I just like, like, one half month ago, I just like, I'm gonna write it down. Oh, it's gonna be Friday. Then on Thursday, like, oh, shit. You know? And I I I went out to take my clippers, like, oh, there's there's a lot of hair. Well, a lot of hair, like, that I have a lot of hair, but, just the amount is, like, amazing. It's completely different than it was because normally at my age, whatever that is, I don't know how many hundreds of years I've been roaming on this planet. But but, in normally when when you are like a middle aged guy, you're gonna lose your hair. So it it's the barber should do his job about, you know, getting yourself a Cooper or a Toupee or whatever the fuck. But now it's just like it's grown back. So may maybe I'm gonna, you know, muddle my hair or something.
[00:41:46] Unknown:
Do it. Do it. Have you noticed if your does your facial hair seem to be growing in thicker too? Yeah. Yeah.
[00:41:54] Unknown:
Yeah. Yeah. You can see it because it's on Zoom, but it's it I trimmed it a little bit. So so I'm I'm still figuring out it. But overall, we see. Yeah. No. It's it's the stupid fucking ego where you look in the mirror just like, oh, you well, everybody is nobody just participating in light of the scene. Like, oh, your beard is like but but your you're just like, oh, oh, I hate that motherfucker. I wanna destroy it. You know what? You say that I
[00:42:22] Unknown:
when I really delved into yoga, I I'd been practicing yoga since I was a young age because I found relief to my body, but I can't say I spiritually got into it, if that makes sense. Like, my whole spirit wasn't there. It wasn't until after cancer where I was like, Oh, okay. Like, I am in this. And I started practicing all aspects of it. And to practice nonattachment, I didn't go through chemo, so I didn't lose my hair. My hair was down in my ass. Long, curly, beautiful siren hair. Right? Like and I held so much value in that. I always got compliments on it from men and women, and it made me so beautiful and attractive. And, oh, my hair. Right?
I shaved it. And a lot of people thought I was going through chemo. No. No. I didn't lose my hair. I shaved my hair to practice nonattachment. And I think what really brought me was after there was a woman who came up to me at a flea market who had gone through cancer and had clearly gone through chemo. She was losing her hair. And she came up to me and was like, your hair is so beautiful. And that's basically all she had the strength to say was your hair is so beautiful, and she walked away. Like and after having cancer, like, I know where that's like it took a lot for you to even say that, and she couldn't make eye contact with me after.
And that's where I was just like, wow. I placed so much in my hair. I've even suffered the way this woman is. It basically broke her to just tell me that, And I'm over here, like, my hair makes me beautiful. I was like, I'm such a disgusting person. Like, it's like, I'm a degenerate. Like and I ended up shaving my head, and I was like, whoever likes me likes me. Like, I don't fucking give a fuck. Like, I'm I'm I'm done with all this shit.
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Right.
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Right. It's so freeing. Like and and it's amazing. I found so many people were like, oh my god. You look so beautiful. Hey. Like, Ripley like, my favorite movie is, like, aliens, and the character Ripley is so strong. And she shaves her med in aliens three, so people were comparing me to that. And I was like, oh, fuck yeah. I was like, Yeah. And I was like, but, like, there was something so freeing to shaving my head, and part of my ego was so attached to that that since I've done that and I've let my hair grow back and I've shaved it again, and I've done so many different things. And I'm like, why did I ever put so much value in who I was as a person into the length of my fucking hair? Like Right.
What the fuck was wrong with me? I don't I I don't understand. Like so shave that practice nonattachment, and it's wild because people would beat him really. You're so brave for shaving your head. And I'm like, firefighters are brave. They walk in the fire to the feet, but I shave them out your head. But that's where most not just people, but women in particular, how they put their value on their hair, where it's like, it's not brave because I shave my head. Like and, like like like, I get where the compliment's trying to come from. Like, there is some good intention there, but, like, but it just goes to show how twisted our values are and how we place our stock in our our beauty, particularly women, because you men will shave your head. And I'm not saying you aren't okay with maybe thinning hair or balding. Like, I'm sure that eats that egos too.
But it's not weird for a man to shave his head and be like, oh, you're still attractive and you're whatever. Women, it's a little especially if you're not part of a certain, like, punk rock or is that, like yeah. Most people Right legged
[00:45:53] Unknown:
call for a shot. Yeah. Yeah. It goes for me. The the thing is the thing is also when I I'm I'm still still learning. I'm still, fighting that that little motherfucker inside of me. But the ego so I drove a good car. I was car manager with a suit. Just like normal stuff for for what what society calls, like, you're a normal dude. Well, fuck you all. But then, eventually, when I I so in 02/2018, it took thirty five centimeters of my intestines out because I had for a third time an inflammation and a perforation of them, and that's not good. They told me so. So, I had to change my life.
But when it came down for, like, one and a half year ago, I was starting to wear wooden shoes. Not kidding you. We are in The Netherlands. We have wooden shoes. I paint them like NASA kind of stuff. I really like to do that. I gave me warm feet, and people will just, like, look like, what the fuck are you walking on, right? I'm wearing skirts because I make my own skirt, like a really cool fucking guilt kind of skirt. It's gonna be on the market. Very, very, cool stuff. And then I was wearing like this this, what's it? Like a big fabric, but, I I point pointed out like it's it's like a little bit of like a nomad kind of stock. Okay. Okay. Then when I walked down bare feet in a forest near where I was stationary, I was walking bare feet most of the time with the stick, with this nomadic kind of stuff on. And the people just like, What the fuck?
And I thought to myself, like, If you knew how free this is, like I got connection to nature with my barefoot in a forest, it, no, it doesn't hurt. Oh, it does, no, it's not hurt. No, it's not hurting. And I was losing the stuff that normally like, oh, you dress nice. Now I'm gonna get compliments like, hey, cool skirt. You know, stuff like that. Yeah. Although somebody said to me, not gonna name names. I will be. Not doing that. He said, When you're going down to Arizona, you're not gonna wear a fucking skirt because they're gonna kill you. Thought, Okay. I take that for granted. I will not. I'll have a car repair on a beer computer.
[00:48:22] Unknown:
Well, okay. Well, part of that, in all fairness, is because my country suffered insanity under the last administration. So now the pendulum is swinging back the like, it couldn't just find a middle ground. Right? Like, they had to take it to one extreme, so now it's gonna go back to the other extreme instead of just finding that that nice little medium area. Right? Like
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Maybe that's the reason I, feel this attraction, like, magnetism to the stage. Maybe I I'll help. I don't know.
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Or else see how you feel when you come here. You know?
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I I I was, so last year, 02/2024, I think it is. Right? Somebody, because I do podcasting set took me over to LA. I had such a great time. I love the vibe. I love the the country. I love I love America. You know, it's it's it's it's, but but, yeah, I think that, two things normally in life can really fuck things up. That's politics and that's religion. No matter where you are on this beautiful plain planet. When something like that is going to cross your mind or you have a conversation about these two topics, you are screwed no matter what you think because, oh, everyone's having a different percept perception of their belief system or their politics and, oh, the rat in the pot well, this is all fucking bullshit.
Cut it out. Cut it out. The society does not run by politics or by, by religion. It runs by connecting to people and to be nice and supportive and lovely loving to other people and treating them with respect. If they don't do that, fuck them. That's You think that's pretty much right? But, yeah. Shoot, that's world. That's my conclusion. And then I pick up my guitar and make some, so so fucking moves and then, well, that's I have to be honest with you, Ari, because you you make music. Is is it an an art? Because I see some art for the people that are maybe gonna look into that, but we're gonna share your, Instagram and stuff like that. Can you make money with it right now? Is is it is it
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that that Yeah. I mean, I so royalties from streaming services are shit. Basically, they pay all their artist shit. Unless you're a big time artist, you're really not making anything off streaming services. So if you wanna support any independent artists, myself included, I would say buy from their website if they have a website. At points, they'll have something called a Bandcamp, which at least Bandcamp is a website that gives the proceeds to the artist. They'll take a bunch of money out of it. So Mhmm. I'd I'd say use, like, either Bandcamp or go to their website directly. So you can go to my official website, and I have art for sale on there. And I have all my music where you can stream it, and you can also download it. So What what's your website? Because we're digging into that right now. K. It's it's, yeah, arimnemonic.com. So just typical wwwarimnemonic.com.
Simple, easy.
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I got a little tip for you. May maybe it's something to deep to to, dive into. I'm working with pothole.fm. Basically, you can, get paid. I have to set that up, but basically, you can get paid by fountain or or whatever cryptocurrency. So if I'm doing a live broadcast, which I never did, but if I do that, people commenting and people could send you like little bites of crypto. So the thing is, I was talking to the owner because I know the owner, he's a Dutch guy. But, he was telling me that a lot of artists are now using his platform because they can also, you know, you can listen to music and and give some, cryptocurrency, like really good I don't know what what was called, but little does of cryptos to them so the artist really makes money. Because I think if you look at Spotify and all these big platforms, you're gonna make $2.41 because you have 10,000 downloads.
We're going to the what the fuck are we going to? $2.41. 2 dollar wait a minute. We can't get a buzz to Central because that's $40. So that's it's crazy. There's also a podcast, and, you know, I do this for for because I like it. It. It's the same thing. I know that for sure for you, you make art for yourself, for your own therapeutic well-being. Superbate.
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Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Pretty much. Like, the whole I was struggling with, like, part of my issue, I was so sick before. I could never hold down a job, so my work history is spotty. Right? And I can't blame an employer for being like, hey. You all look reliable. Yeah. I fucking wasn't. I was bleeding out. But at the same time, I think I've come so far where it's like I can't just be a cog in the machine. So the best thing I can do is be a struggling artist where, like I said, I'm making the art anyway.
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Right.
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Why not just just run with that? And and I'm someone that, like I said, I don't need a bunch. Like, I I I need to eat. I need a roof over my you know, stuff like that. But, like, you know, I don't need a mansion. I don't need my own private plane. So it's like, yeah. I don't need so I can get by, especially with having a partner that you know, he's he does blue collar work, but, like, it I don't know. Like you're saying, like, I have to make the art. I don't see how I could reincorporate myself into the world. I've meditated on that so much, and I feel like I would probably end up in jail or in a mental institute. Like, one
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one or the two? I do. I I I run the That a lot. Mhmm. That's why if if you take the the artist button, everything's gonna be okay. If if if if you have to deal with people like us in normal life, you would think like, oh my god. They're gonna destroy the world. We have to be very no. No. No. They make art. Oh. Oh, look. Oh, that's cool.
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But kinda, like yeah. It's I I have so little it's not alright. It's not that I don't have patience. I don't have patience for a lot of shit, and I get that's mostly what you encounter out in the world in society is it's shit? So I have patience for things that genuinely require patience, but I can't with with all the fake stuff just out in the world and the meaningless interactions and the small like, I I can't do it. Like, I and I think that's part of the issue. Like, more people kinda need to put their foot down with stuff like that where it's like, hey. We're not we're not accepting this. Like, we're not doing this anymore. This is how we're gonna operate moving forward. Come on, guys. Like, let's get our shit together and act evolved, kinda like that. And I get some flack for it. And at first, it was almost like the same thing with, like, the medical gaslighting where I was like, oh, shit. It was like societal gaslighting where I'm like, oh, shit. Am I the crazy one? Am I the asshole? Like Mhmm. But, no, you end up finding the people that, like, it makes sense and it resonates with and fuck the rest of the noise. Right? It doesn't Right. It's usually coming from people that are miserable, that are stuck in the cycle themselves.
Like, I've never once had someone who's removed themselves from the cycle and are doing their own thing and are just happy with life. Be like, hey. I think you're fucking up here. Like, it's always miserable motherfuckers who can't get ahead themselves that are like, you know, I think you're making a big mistake here. So why am I listening to them anyway? Like and I kinda had to get that in my head a little bit. Like
[00:56:24] Unknown:
Oh, would you like to work oh, would you like to do with the with the art? Would you like to, get to an exhibition once or, gallery or maybe do do any, like, you know, touring around America, maybe Europe or whatever?
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I it would be cool if it ended up in an exhibition. I'm not gonna lie. Yeah. That'd be pretty cool. Like, that would be an honor. That'd be a great experience. I've never had that happen, but I can't create with that being the goal because I'll probably just end up crushed, you know, like, that it's not happening, that it's never happened. But it definitely I wouldn't turn down the opportunity depending on where it was. Right. But I do, like, smaller, like, art conventions and stuff like that, especially, like, horror related ones. Like, there's one that happens along New England, Monster Expo. So there's a bot Monster.
So a bunch of artists come together, different types of artists, and they sell their stuff. And there's usually some sort of no shade to them, but, like, b c less celebrities from horror movies. You know, like Bruce Campbell and Felicia Rose, stuff like that. So there's a handful of celebrities there and then all the artists. So I do stuff like that, like those sort of circuits, because they're fun and it's not I don't have to change who I am. I'm just there existing. A bunch of other people are there existing, and I've been able to network and meet some really cool plus. I, plus I'm a fan of some of the stuff. Like, last year, my table was literally right across from Felicia Rose, who I loved in sleepaway camp and the terrifier movies and officer Doofy and stuff. So the way she was lighting up the room and people like, her fans that were lining up and responding, just the energy from all of that was so wild and was such a great like, it's like, oh my god. This is an amazing experience. Like, that's what I live So cool. Yeah. That stuff was awesome. And then you have people cosplaying and people like it it was just so much fun. I'm taking photos of people dressed up as pinhead, and I it's just chillable. Like, that kind of energy, like so I think that's the only thing that makes me hesitate about, like like, museums or exhibits. It's like, yeah. I'd love for my art to be in a place like that, but usually, they're so, like, hoity toity that I would not fucking fit in there. And I don't know that the energy would be the same. Like, I've gone to museums, and I've seen the way people appreciate the art. You know? Like, it's not the same vibe as when you have all these artists together and genuine fans trying to appreciate what the moment has to offer. You know? It's Right. It's
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How do you make your art? Is it something like you, just start with something and you and it turns out, like, the thing that you made? Or or do you have some inspirations about some stuff that you think, like, I'm gonna make something like that or this?
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Yeah. I guess both. Sometimes I'll I'll be watching a movie or listening to music, and I'm like, oh, dang. Like, that's a great idea from whatever inspired me, and I'll go and do my thing. Or sometimes it's just something that, like, I don't know, something I have to get out, and I don't know what it is. Like, maybe it even just starts with a feeling like, okay. I'm fucking I'm I'm angry. Let me go Mhmm. See what happens. And maybe at that point, it tends to be more of, like, a darker art piece or whatever versus a cute little jelly monster maybe when I'm happy or something. And, yeah, at points, I don't know what's gonna come out. I'm just like, I gotta go fucking do something. Right.
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Digitally sorry to interrupt. You do it digitally, or do you do it with paint and brushes and stuff like that? Or what kind of materials do you Yeah. I mix it up.
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So I've been playing with, like, Adobe on my computer and on my phone. But at the same time, I've got in my other room a bunch of canvases, paints, markers, pencils. A lot of what I do tends to be mixed. Even the acrylic paints, I'll start with, like, a sketch on the canvas using pencils, sometimes marker, pen, and then I'll add the paints, whether it's watercolor or acrylics or something. So you're usually seeing something that's multi there's multiple tools being used. It's not just one thing. Or or I'll start off with, like, a sketch, and then I'll be like, you know what? I'm having a hard time for whatever reason and go in digitally. And then sometimes it's easier to finish it digitally as long as you don't mind the the little bit of the digital look that it it's a little bit different, I feel. You can tell when art's digitally made. Yeah. It's it's like the the the the ambifreeze and the real record.
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You know, the wolves and the the yes. I like that comparison.
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Yeah. That's a good comparison. Yeah. Yeah. The the old vinyl is so Warmer. Yeah. But no. It's like that. So, yeah, sometimes it's digital, sometimes it's Canvas, or it's mixed media. It's unless someone commissions something and it's specific where they're like, hey. Here's what I want. Mhmm. I tend to not know what the fuck's gonna happen. It's just Right. Whatever's gonna come out. Even if I'm like, oh, I wanna draw an alien. I'm usually not like, oh, the alien's gonna look like this. And then and then it's just I wanna draw an alien.
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Right. Right.
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However it turns oh, that's how the alien was supposed. Okay. Cool. Cool.
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So and and, so so you're living in in Maine now. You have some some tomatoes. So is it something that you can, process you on food that that you can use for the winter, or or is it
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or or Yeah. We're trying to get more into we're trying to figure out the land. We've got a lot of lead in the ground. So the farmers here have been teaching us some tricks because you gotta do some things to the soil to grow certain things. So we're getting used to that. And you can only dig so deep because there are a lot of lead deposits in the ground. So we're trying to learn where on our property you can put the fields of the crops, and they're gonna thrive and get the sunlight and the other try. It's been a like, to get up here has been a shift in changing. Even, like, growing indoors has been different because we have to heat the house inside differently versus when I was in Massachusetts, it wasn't as cold.
So everything is it's been a bit of a learning curve. But we got chickens, and we don't kill the chickens. We just use them for the eggs.
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Uh-huh.
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When they're older, they just they die naturally. We we can't kill them. I don't know. We've had them for so long, and I just can't kill them for the meat. So we use them for the eggs, and we help feed the dogs with eggs and stuff like that too. They eat hard boiled eggs, all that shit. So
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fresh fruits and veggies and yeah. But it's a learning curve. We're trying to, like Oh, yeah. And it takes some time, right, to get into that and to see how how crops and stuff like that. Like like a tree, it's not like, oh, I'm gonna gonna plant an apple tree, and next year, we're gonna have some apples.
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And especially in this environment too. Like, it's like, okay, what can grow with in this temperature and short season without having maybe a greenhouse or something? But I saw I saw something on YouTube. There's a woman living in Norway, and she built her actual house inside a greenhouse, like a large greenhouse. And she has all the plants outside of her house in a greenhouse, even like citrus plants. She's growing, like, orange trees in the middle of fucking winter in Norway. Yes. So I was thinking like, hey. Can I, like, somehow not, like, encompass this house or build a different property up inside a greenhouse and have all my plants in there? And this gotta take some time and energy.
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But, like It depends. It depends. Because I'm from The Netherlands. We are the, I think, the biggest producer of food in the world. That's why they wanna cut down the the farmers and stuff like that. But we are when it comes to that, we are number one when it comes to greenhouses. So we have, like, strawberries and stuff like that. They normally used to have them in in summertime, but we grow them all the fucking time because we have greenhouse with specialized and stuff like that. And I think eventually in I think it's in Japan, there's a well, Japan is crazy as shit. But I think it's in Tokyo. They have a big building. And on the on the Top Floor, there's a very big greenhouse that provides the whole building with food, like, lettuce, humor, you name it. You just have to figure out like, okay, I need a glasshouse, right? Yeah.
It's the I think that's especially when you say where you're having quite a different environment. Well, if you isolate all the things that you need and you you prepare with Dude, I I just saw the other day on Instagram a guy who made an oven in the middle of the winter with, with only with mirrors. So the the the sun's gonna mirror down on another mirror, and then he has this lasagna. And within fifteen minutes, the lasagna was down because the heat of the sun provided with some mirrors. That was like a mirror oven. Just like, what? Dude, of course.
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Yeah. That's really cool. Oh, man. Right? Yeah. Yeah. Okay. Shit. No. Yeah. Because the woman in Norway was basically she showed it in the the wintertime where they have more snow than we do, but, like, at at points, we have snowdrifts almost as tall as my First Floor of my house. I've I have a little loft in my house, but at points, the snow they can get pretty tall. They had just as tall, if not taller, snowdrifts. And the temperature inside that greenhouse with it being that cold outside without having heat running was in the sixties, where I was like, that's that's a game changer. That's Right.
That allows you to do so much.
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And the snow isolates. So when it's snowing, it's it's isolating. So you can build igloo, that isolates your body temperature and stuff like that. You don't, well, you have to be very careful. But, yeah, snow is is is and it's water, of course. So it's, what what's it called? Like a stick and water, they, energy goes through it. Mhmm. Conductor? Is it like conductor? Yes. Yes. Yes. Yes. Yes. And especially if you're looking into some stuff like, copper wiring. So that's, electoral culture. I I I used to do that with my house on my trailer. There was a lot of sun, but also, you know, when people throw away their plants like, oh, it's dead. No. It's not.
Give them some love, some good music. And, you know, I figured out my own kind of, copper wiring on a stick, you know? So you have something right and just like, okay, this is gonna work. It's gonna work for you. It's gonna be okay. It's gonna be okay. And then after one month or two months, just like, holy shit. Just like a pile of Greek And people that gave me the plants just like, is is that my plant?
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Yeah.
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Yeah. I love that.
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Some people really have a green thumb too. And then just like they naturally can just, like, they'll keep plants alive without having to research them, without having to so maybe you've got a little bit of that green thumb too.
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I think it's also energy. I think a lot of things, everything is molecules and everything will react to your frequency and vibration. I felt really, really, really at ease, especially after my disease and stuff like that after my surgery, in that trailer, you know, I was having a half year I had, neighbors that all fucked off within one or two strongs. And the other year or half year, there was no one around. Okay. You go out, and just like but you have to be so so that sounds really great, but we're living in The Netherlands, which is a very, very small country with more than 80,000,000 people. So that's basically 300 miles by 250 miles. That's that's The Netherlands.
Mhmm. So so if we say like, it's very compact. So if you are, maybe there are one or two forces that that are really big and and and vast, so you have to be very careful not to get caught or not to get lost. But, probably there's a within five miles, there will be some kind of McDonald's
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stall. See, I don't miss that. Where I live, we don't have anything like that in my village. Like, tech it's it's considered a village because we only have, like, 900 people here. We have one convenience store, and it sells, like, fresh fruits. There's a butcher shop in it so you can get fresh cut meats that usually come from local farmers. It's not like a bunch of crap meat or anything like that. Even the fruits and veggies, they buy people that go and pick lion's manes and chaga. So they buy it from people that are locally doing stuff. And they sell gas, but they close at 08:00 at night. It's not like a twenty four hour they're like, you get your your groceries and your gas before eight, and that's it. Like and they do, like, takeout. You can order, like, pizzas there. They'll make burgers, but we don't have restaurants here. We don't have McDonald's. We don't have that's it. You you want take you can drive to, like, the nearest towns, which are a good forty five minutes an hour. Like, country miles. That's what we call them. It's a country mile. If I wanted to go to Walmart or Hannaford's, I've gotta drive at least a half hour.
On and and most of the speeds on these roads are, like, 55 miles an hour on these back roads, here in America. So we can do, like, 55 to 60, but it still takes about a half hour to get to the town to go to any bigger stores. And even there, they have one McDonald's, one Subway, and it closes at 10PM. So only a couple hours later than than us.
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Who really wants who really needs that? So I think that it the the the concept is is quite cool. You know? You having a hamburger on the go. It's it's a cool concept. Or or maybe like sandwich, like sat like, Subway does. But normal living people, if you go to a farmer that's been a farmer for thirty or forty years, tell him, like, oh, we gonna we get in a car, and we're gonna drive to McDonald's where they have hamburgers. He will probably look at you like, what are you saying? I have a No. Oh. You wanna taste mainly because this is I mean, you have hamburgers that's been made by the people, the people in in in no, dude. Yeah.
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No. And there have been people, like, where we know people that have farms, and they'll be like, hey. I slaughtering a pig. Do you want some of the meat? Hey. We went hunting. We got some venison. Do you want some of the meat? Like, that's how the community like, yeah. It's so the only thing I need to find out is, like, raw milk. We don't have, like, dairy farms around here, so we can't get, like, raw milk. But if you want, like, really good beef, even pig, if if you like pork and you don't mind eating pork, like, there are good farms around here with good farmers that take care of their animals. You can get good meat. You can get good fruits and veggies. It's
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Right. I heard something from, from a from a guy who was, actually, what's it called? A shepherd? But he was a shepherd of, goats. So he said, there there are some very good things about goats considered to be, packaging like a like a like a horse, because they're cheaper. Cheaper in food. They're very strong. They are very reliable. So when something happens like, shit hits the fan, horse run away. But, sheep or goats come with you because you are part of the flock, which, like, fascinates me. But he told me also, or he well, to the Internet or to social media, Like, they're gonna give you goat meat.
Goat meat. Goat, milk. Milk. Yeah. They they are, easily your act and they are very, very strong. And they will, eventually also, you know, take care of you. So, a lot of things like, okay, wow. So that brings me to skip a bench like a squirrel right now. Brings me to, an episode in two I did with, Billy Bong from permaculture. He moved to South Carolina. He's figuring out the land also. And, he has so much food that he's gonna provide it now to the village and to the, to to other people around because he's he has so much. He really figured out, like, you know, oh, we were gonna get some berries. You know, how many berries do we have? We have so many fucking berries that we have to we're gonna give them away because to fight year round. So that's that's that's the yes. That's the attention. That's the support. That's love. That's respect to nature. I mean Yeah.
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Well, the same with the farmers here. A lot of the farmers and even hunters. So if someone goes out and and gets a deer and they've got more than they they needed, there are churches around here that have food pantries. And people from the farms and that hunt, they donate the meats, the fruits, and vegetables to the pantry. So if you go to the pantry, there'll be stuff from grocery stores too. Like, we have a Hannaford, so there'll be stuff like that. But you're getting a lot like, a lot of the fruits and veggies still have dirt on it. Like, it's from the ground right in the box, and and you're getting it. The eggs are still dirt. They haven't been washed, so that way, you know, they don't have to be refrigerated yet. Like, they're coming right from the farm. So even a lot of them are going to food pantries that are without are getting really good food, like, really good food for them and their families. And like you said, it's community.
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Yeah. Yeah. I think that Joe Rogan once pointed out, like, have you seen, like, 60 year old farmers, you know, with the hay when they stack the hay on this thing? Just, like, 60 years old in the middle of the field and not, like, oh, we're gonna do 10 of these. The whole I for me, I can do that. I can do it. My
[01:15:05] Unknown:
my Even the women out here are very rugged. It's a different kind of lifestyle. Like, back when I was in mass, like you're saying, a lot of the elderly were very frail and weak. But here, no. They're like, the farmer across the way from me, they're in their sixties and seventies, and they're doing hard work. Like, hard work. And it's the same with the women. There are rugged women out here doing stuff. Like, it's not just the men. The the main women are tough.
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But it might be so satisfying when you are waking up with the with the roostling. Remember? 04:30 in the morning. You know? You don't know your plan. You just look at the land and you probably, you know, like, okay. We have to cancel stuff. What we're gonna do is stuff like this and that. But the the the way nature and and the rhythm of the universe is gonna provide you with all the stuff, the things that you see, the what the things that you smell, touch the ground, all that stuff, that's us. We are nature. Right? If we're gonna drop that somewhere, nature's gonna take over.
We we were part we are part of the Hakuna Matata, the the circle of life. Right? So so why don't we act like it instead of, you know, being locked up in our old prisoners with our old fucking keys? Like, oh, I got a house. Oh, you got a fucking prison that you're gonna be pulling down. You're locking yourself up. Well, even that, most people don't even own a house. They live in an apartment
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and pay rent to someone else. And I think part of it living in a city, you get disillusioned, and you can be really hateful and miserable. Like, that's a big difference I noticed too moving from the city to the country. Like, you just it it's everything sucks in the city. You're congested. You're on top of one another. The noise, the sad just, like, everything is a trigger, and there's there's so many people. You can't see the stars because there's light pollution. There's no oxygen to breathe because there's no fucking trees around you. Like, even the bullshit shrubs they wanna plant are bullshit, like, you know, for Right. Beautiful like, it's it's so people get into a certain headspace versus if you live in a town like this. Like, when I moved away, you know, even some of these things that people lobby for in the cities where it's like, we want green this, we want green that. It's like, it's only you assholes that live in the city that think you want these things. And even people advocating for green energy. Like, we have windmills here. They freeze in the winter. It gets so cold here. You have to take helicopters to go dethaw them. Guess what those helicopters use? Gasoline.
Guess what people end up needing to use? Gas powered generators. It's like so you can't, like, force people to use green things because then people are suffering. People were without power during winter for longer than they should have been because you wanna force green. You can't do that in these places. Maybe you can in certain cities. You can't do that out here. So you have these people that are disillusioned with their fucked up miserable lifestyle living in a city that we don't have these issues out here. And if y'all would only, like, break away and, like, get back to nature a little bit, you wouldn't be so gung ho about these bullshit thing that don't matter. They don't matter at the end of the day. Like, this like, I can sit here and I can see the stars. I can breathe fresh air. I have fresh food. Like, our powers would like, I don't know what you guys are bitching about. Like, it
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Right. Each Right. Totally You look at demand of all this stupid stuff that we don't need is so big, and we are so reliable on that because, you know, what okay. Of course, power is something that we really need to to, for heating up things, right, and have full light. But but the other thing is if you have, like, these old stoves, you're gonna have light and you're gonna have warmth. So if you go to the old farms here in The Netherlands, there was one, like, maybe like a kitchenery, something like that. So it's it's it's a kitchen and and the, living room together, there was one stove. That one was always on. You you brew your soup on it, and everyone was gathering around it, you know, telling stories and stuff like that. And probably you because of the the the warmth and then because you were out all day, you were just like 09:00. You're just like, I'm gonna hit the fucking bed, which was in the very cold room, like, maybe 20 degrees Celsius Fahrenheit, which is like one or two Celsius or stuff like that. I mean, you go under your blanket. It's just like you heat your body heats up.
And when you're waking up, just like, oh, wow. You feel energized because you you slept in the cold. Basically, you slept to the cold. I, few times I had it when I woke up that that my my blanket was just like ice. And if I had a took water, like, a glass of water next to my next to my, what's it called? Next to my bed, it was like frozen a little bit. No. Just like, oh, love that. Now I like a little bit no. A homeless with this battery is not always the best. But I'm in a room right now, and no temperature is okay. So that you know? And you can dress up for cold. But for warmth, you can't close down. That's the stupid thing about warmth. You have to get warm clothes on to protect you from the warmth, because you you don't see nomads and stuff like that running around in the fucking, shorts. You don't do that.
Don't. You you who are these with with this with this, with the stuff on because it it's gonna be layer layer protecting you against the wall and you feel fine. That's that's so so crazy.
[01:20:47] Unknown:
So crazy. No. We're so disconnected from everything. That's partly people can't even look up at the sky in bigger cities. I don't know how many times I've been able to just look up at at the sky and appreciate the stars or whatever weird shit I see up there because it's Maine and see some weird shit up there. Yep. Also, like I said, I live not far from Baxter State Park. It's about forty five minutes, and Mount Katahdin and Baxter has a lot of, lore, not just with the Native Americans, but with others for Bigfoot and UFOs and people going missing mysteriously.
Like, all yeah. I kinda live in a valley surrounded by by mountains and trees. So where I'm at is kind of right in the valley. But you have such beautiful and people can't even take time to just disconnect and appreciate that. Like, it's I don't know. Like you're saying, it's just so it does something to your soul. I I I don't even know what it is. Like, it's beyond crush yeah. It it eats you alive. Exactly. It's You're gonna real detach
[01:21:54] Unknown:
from that what's real that really matters. The the funny thing is if you go to to camping sites, people that work, like, their ass off all fucking year and then go, like, two two, three weeks of high chores, hiking or or camping. They put their bare feet on the ground like, oh, I feel so great. You know? Relification. Now you need to connect with nature, motherfucker. Get your shoes off because you're disconnecting to the resonance of mother Earth.
[01:22:23] Unknown:
I mean, that's That's probably why older people that work farms can do it. Right? They they got their hands in the soil all day. They got their feet in the soil. They're they're really grounding themselves and exchanging energy and all sorts of things. So, like, you're saying, oh, how are these 70 year olds doing this? Well, that exchange of energy. They've put in the time and energy.
[01:22:46] Unknown:
Right. Right. Be because we got so much things that that comforts us, which is cool. I mean, I like comfort luxury too in in in a way. But, I really miss living in my trailer, and I knew that, around winter time, like, now, I didn't have water, so I had to pick my water, like, 70 meters or 100 meters away, 45 gallon oh, no. What's I don't know. 25 liters of can. I could do my, weight wash with it. I do do my dishes, but but all, like, I only take that what it's it's needed. I only have one room lighted up with with, where we're always sitting like podcasting, playing guitar and stuff like that. It was fucking cold, but I could heat it up a little bit. And if it's not like you know, you you're figuring things out and you you, you connect to the real essence of life, I think, from my perspective.
And not like, I'm gonna buy that stuff. Oh, I'm feeling like a little bit cold. Let let's get a heater or I feel like a little bit too warm. Let's get a air conditioning. No. If you adapt to the things that there are to nature, you're fine.
[01:23:54] Unknown:
The people up here alright. So Southern Maine like, we consider Portland Southern Maine. Mainers consider Portland Southern Maine, and that's a very touristy, hipster area. That's, like, the big city kind of thing. And you'll find, like, normal living there, apartments, houses, stuff like that to where you don't need extra things. Like, living up where I live, you need to have a pellet stove or a wood stove. You can't just have oil. Like, you need to be burning some sort of water pellet. If you because if you have plumbing, it's gonna freeze, pipes are gonna burst, whatever. Animals might, like, whatever. You know, Animals might, like, whatever, you know, stuff like that. So everyone around here, they're either stacking wood, bringing in wood, doing stuff with pellets. Like, it's, like, it's a certain way to heat their house, or people are off grid entirely, don't really have power, and we have a watering trough down at the bottom of my road that runs down from the mountains. It's a fresh spring. So that's where people go and get water. If you can't tap wells on your property everyone has wells around here. We don't have sewer or anything like that. Like, this water is a fresh I would never drink water from my sink before. I'll drink water from here. Like, showering and it's fine, all of that.
But people that live entirely off grid that don't tap wells, there's a watering trough right down at the end of the road, fresh spring water from the mountains running all the time. Even in the winter, it doesn't entirely freeze. You can go and get the water, and you're supplied for however much you bring down, I guess. You know? You could bring down jugs, whatever. So that's how a lot of people live up here. It's not like it it's like a mix. It's like, you have people completely off grid. Sure. But then everyone else isn't living a completely modern life. They're still using older techniques to do things or farming off the land.
[01:25:43] Unknown:
Yeah. Listen to that. No. No. I don't know what it is. But, also, you know, if I'm working around in nature, I always carry a stick normally. So I find one. I was in Peru last year, and I thought, like, because I have very steep slippery hill to go up to my, to my, my my my little, stationary do what the fuck it was like a building or with the with something. So I I want you to find the stick, and I got that one almost instantly right away when I was walking down. Just like, I I need a stick. I need a stick. I just oh, and I like to, you know, to to feel the wood and to make it, to get my energy in it. And especially when you work with the stick, you ground directly if you have a wooden stick, not not the the gel sticks. Right? So, and I brought that stick with me, from Peru to, to The Netherlands, which was, quite a challenge because on on the airplane, you normally don't walk around with a wooden stick.
[01:26:50] Unknown:
I'm glad they didn't give you a hard time. That's good.
[01:26:54] Unknown:
Well, I I think that's it. That that's the other thing. You know? If if you when we talked about support, love, and respect, and stuff like that, so the the easiest way to deal with people. Not smiley. I didn't know how to tell them the fuck off, which I normally do. But if if you are, like, open and you are, you know, treating someone with respect, it's it's very hard to get no respect back. And, of course, there are some fucking assholes in this world. But the other thing that I really like to do is to laugh. Don't laugh many maniacally if you are into, customs or through, you know, in police station, and you're like, which I think also could help because there's I think there's this one thing that really resonates with everyone on this earth, even if you do not speak the language, is when you start laughing. Everyone starts maybe to giggle or to laugh. At some, I think it's one of the highest vibrations there are. And laughing, I think got myself a healthier body after my surgery because we laugh our shit off on Phil Army and stuff like that, like stupid people.
And, something happening happens in your body. That's why people go to comedy and stuff like that. And that's why people, no matter where you are or where you're from, if if you are on a bus with several people, several cultures, bridges, whatever the fuck, and somebody starts to laugh, that's
[01:28:28] Unknown:
that's one of the only things that really connects us because that's that's the I don't know why. That that sound crazy. It's contagious. The energy is contagious. It's the same with, like, the smiles. Right? When you've got a real a genuine authentic smile that just lights up the room, it's contagious, and other people are gonna wanna smile too. It's the same thing. Like, your smile, it's bright. It takes up, like you could see your whole face lights up. It makes other if you wanna smile, I'm assuming other people would have the same reaction. It's just it's a contagious energy, but so is negativity. Like, if I come into a room, like, fuck you, fuck this, like and I'm throw like, whatever. That energy is just as contagious, maybe more so because people seem easily inclined to just go down that negativity versus the positivity seems a bit harder sometimes.
[01:29:13] Unknown:
Yeah. So it's advantageous. Yes. We we have that that the energy, that duality, all things. It is like the the love and hate or whatever the fuck you're gonna call it. Right? But it's it's same with the with the connection that we have right now with the devices and all that stupid stuff. And then all of a sudden within one storm and probably out in the desert, It's snow now. I'm meeting some cool fucking people and and be just like you know, going to America is one, but going to New York, on JFK, the the New Fucking York, New Amsterdam, like, you know, LA was a cool vibe because I know I was I I haven't planned anything now. Well, I have planned some trips to some people, but, not schedule, like, hotels and stuff. Just like that that's the other thing.
If if you're looking at the plants and the birds and the bees and the animals, they they don't fucking care about, like, oh, oh, oh, we gotta get some food. Why? Well, well, I'm a rabbit, and I need some food for tomorrow because because otherwise we're gonna die. Oh, let me go. I'm fucking about to die. You don't do that. Plans. Just like, oh, I need some water because not otherwise I'm gonna die. Really? Yeah. I'm gonna die. If you know they they don't care about that. So so with detaching the ego, I also wanna detach the the the comfort feeling of, oh, I got a house. Oh, I got a car, which is very hard for me also for everyone, you know, because you need some reliabilities.
[01:30:45] Unknown:
Yeah.
[01:30:47] Unknown:
But in what kind of way? Because if I would be a millionaire, maybe I would have a house somewhere, but I could travel more than I do now. You know? But then I have the luxury to, oh, I'm gonna check-in like, oh, this is a cool hotel with a sauna, with with the pool, stuff like that, and good food. Okay. Okay. So you need that reliability. But to to trigger that on yourself, like, okay. What the fuck is gonna happen? Let's see how how you adapt to that. Like that.
[01:31:19] Unknown:
A lot of people don't wanna put themselves in those situations. They don't wanna test themselves. It seems like, yeah, it's too much out of their comfort zone. Right? Everyone wants to be in in their comfort zone. But then how do you grow without challenges, without learning to adapt? You stay stagnant.
[01:31:36] Unknown:
Yes. Yes. You're not gonna grow, and and there's no magic happening in the comfort zone. It's not. It's the only thing you could you have is reliability. Like, oh, I'm gonna binge watch some Netflix. I gotta have food. You know, whatever the fuck. Domino's is gonna provide me pizza. All that stupid stuff. Like, do you read I mean, I like it sometimes, of course. Yeah. But do you really need it? Just like you said, if you're living in Maine, these people are connecting to they have a different way of life that that reresonates more with me than than the the the HiFi.
But the thing is we are not able to choose. No. You have to get into the system. You do you get a subscription of Amazon or Prime or Netflix or wherever the fuck or wherever the fuck wherever the fuck fuck. What are you gonna eat? You gonna eat this fuck or that fuck or whatever the fuck. You know, it's just like, no. No. And I got these nuts and hope I'm gonna bring them to America because it could be quite some challenging because of customs and stuff like that. It's just plain fucking nuts. Mhmm. But these are such a good, thing that you can use for fats and and and minerals and stuff like that. I got my Celtic sea salt packed in my bag.
I got some water. That's the other the other thing about America because I was flying in to, Las Vegas, and I wanted to fill my, my copper bubble with water. And I smell it just like, no. That's how I just like but but wait a minute, Rob. You're in the middle of the fucking desert. How did they get that water? Did they they need to subtract that on something and they have to penalize it to to make it drinkable because it's at the fucking but then I was thinking like, okay, they got the Hoover Dam, but they got a city that never rests, Las Vegas. How much is demand of energy on that? So it sucked me in for, like, two hours and then I was done.
Was I just I didn't I'm a gambler. I was a gambler. I didn't like it. It was something like nowhere in America you can smoke. Nowhere you can drink. Then you have to be very careful what you say, what you think, what you what you dress like. If you are in Vegas, nobody gives a fucking shit. You can drink, you can smoke in the fucking machine in a hotel as soon and as long as you play
[01:34:20] Unknown:
the fucking game. It's a free for all. Yeah. It's a whole what happens in Vegas stays in Vegas. No one yeah. Yeah.
[01:34:27] Unknown:
Yeah. Oh. Crazy.
[01:34:31] Unknown:
Yeah. I mean, I guess that's why maybe religious people compare it to, like, Sodom and Gomorrah. Right? It's like whatever happens there happens. It's you like, everywhere else in The States, prostitution is illegal, and prostitute to look down on, you'll be arrested for. In Las Vegas, it's legal. You can go to a brothel and legally do it. Like, you can't be arrested for it. It's it's a it's a whole profession out there. So it's even yeah. It's wild what you can do and get away with in Vegas.
[01:35:00] Unknown:
It's crazy, but but but so so we're we're on a on a brain of extension of our own society because of the stupid stuff that we're buying and that we want. Right? Yeah. Because even even even, it attracts. So if you would say, like, oh, would you, have a vacation in Maine? There's nothing. You have to, pick your own wood. Maybe there are some berries that you can pick. Maybe there's a goat or or a cow that provides you some milk. If you need some groceries like you normally use, you have to drive from forty five minutes or wherever the fuck until 08:00 because then it's everything goes. Or do you want to be like, we got prostitution, we got alcohol, we got everything that you can abuse as a human being in Las Vegas or whatever the fuck.
[01:35:44] Unknown:
It's the that's what it is. It's the extremes. Right? No one wants something in the middle. People well, maybe I'm, like, in the middle because I'm not entirely off grid. Like, I have the conveniences, but I still am removed enough for whatever. But, like, not many people find that middle space. They're either all the way off grid or they're living entirely, like you're saying, with every device and vice at your at your fingertips to just overindulge in. And people will come here for tourism and be like, oh, this is fun, like you're saying, for a vacation. I don't mind not having access to things because it's just vacation, or I don't mind camping for a week, snowboarding, whatever, going rafting. But, yeah, if it's a way of life, if you have to do it regularly, that's not something a lot of people wanna do. That's why they're fine buying a vacation home on the lakes and, you know, like, you know, they take up all the nice realty, you know, realty around here, and they're snowbirds. You know? They only come up when the weather's nice. They only do shit when we're having the festivals and this and that, and then and they take off. And, usually, they don't treat the land well. We get more littering around that time. If they bring their animals up, their animals are usually misbehaving and ask. Like, people around here, even their dogs, it's a pretty common thing that if you see someone's dog, it's people let their dogs roam around. Like, it's not a big deal. Like, they don't even have cause Is that how you collect 13 dogs?
No. Like, actually like, I got one dog after my cancer, surgery. I I can't have kids. I had a hysterectomy, and I was like, oh, I'm I'm gonna get a dog. You know? This is gonna be my baby. My friend found a few dogs in a ditch in South Carolina, and she was like, hey. Do you want one? I know you're looking for a dog. I was like, absolutely. I'll take one. So I met she found, like, seven of them. So I went, and the first one that came over and flopped in my lap and started, like, playing with me, I was like, oh, you're my buddy. So I took him home. That was fine. She kept two of them. She ended up going through a divorce and was like, hey, Ari. I don't know what to do with these dogs. You moved to Maine and have land. You have their sibling. Do you wanna take these two? I was like, yeah. I'll take them. I'll take them. With a puppy face? Yeah.
So then and and at that point, we had come up with, other dogs already. I'd already had an American bully and a pit bull and a Padango. Took in that rescue. We don't know what he is. He looks like a hot dog dog. He looks like a weird dachshund. So took him in, then took in his siblings, and everything was fine at first. Then those two males, the siblings, the litter littermates don't get along aft after a certain point. They got along fine. They would hang out, everything. And then all of a sudden, if they're they're just gonna fight. There's no if they're around each other, they will fight. So now I have to create them alternate like, you know, now you're on the crate. Now you're out of the crate.
But I feel like rehoming them would do more damage. They're attached to the other pack members. They're attached to me. They're very anxious dogs from all the trauma they've they've suffered. So even rehoming them, I feel like is I feel bad keeping some of them in crates at points, but I feel like it would just do more damage getting rid of them. So Right. Right. Like, that kinda sucks. I wish they could get along, but then it's just more like, oh, this dog needs a home? Okay. Come on. Oh, this dog needs a okay. Come on. One of the Padangos was pregnant. She had six puppies, and we tried to get rid of the puppies, but no one wanted them. So we got stuck with them. It's like, hey. We took in this Padangos. She's pregnant. Like, we can't we're not just gonna give away all the babies to, like, a shelter. They're all they're ours now, especially if no one wants them. So it's just stuff like that where
[01:39:30] Unknown:
But that should be something that you maybe, maybe you would like to do, like like a a talk center?
[01:39:37] Unknown:
We thought about maybe applying for a kennel license and seeing what else can be done. Are you of course, you need the permission and restrictions or Yeah. Which Even financially, like, we're not a millionaire. We can make do with certain things. We would have to be allowed like, kennels can get certain grants and stuff like that, and I'd be fine. If the government wants to pay me to take in dogs and be I would do that. I'm just not a millionaire, so I literally can't afford it. Things you can do to do, to do things like that, and we've thought about it.
Maybe in the future. Maybe.
[01:40:14] Unknown:
We know it because I think that what you're doing is is is we need it because I I think if you're looking at the kennels and stuff like that, we are on the same thing as society, you know. So dogs need help. A lot of dogs can survive by themselves or they have to have to be in a pack, you know, roaming down the streets and stuff like that. Cats, they're fine. You know? Cats are fucking they go out. Fuck you. I'm gonna get my own fruit.
[01:40:45] Unknown:
They're independent. They don't care.
[01:40:47] Unknown:
Yes. I think that, with the dog comes also a little bit the the same thing as as humans because if you are in the right pack and you have the the the right mama and daddy that's gonna protect you, that's fine. But all of a sudden, you could end up in the streets literally. As humans do also nowadays, I was in LA, and I think it was, like, like, 50,000 homeless people. It's LA, so so the weather is nice. You know, you live on the street, but but still, it's like what some people choose for it, but a lot of people are just in a wrong situation or or just, you know, life fucks them over or or rules fuck them over so did they end up on the streets. That's something like, what the fuck? Come on. We have to pay some money to for countries that we do not know because they're rabid of war.
[01:41:44] Unknown:
It it's everything, though, that we've allowed to happen. Like, at least in my country, you know, the founding fathers did what they wanted to and made a constitution and rules were rules about so many different things, whether it was tariffs that up until World War two, we were we were we had tariffs on nations. So the fact that my country is so disillusioned that we don't even know our own history from that, never mind, like, taxes. Like, back in the day, you found a plot of land, and if you worked it, that was your claim. That was your land. And now we pay property taxes up the ass for for what I don't know my home. If I don't pay it, they'll come and take it. Right? It's Right.
It's it's same with the car. Like, you have to pay your excise tax. If you don't, then you're not allowed to drive. They'll tow your vehicle. They'll do what up if they catch you. So it's you can own the things, but you don't own the thing. Oh, sorry. Even your land. Even if you're like me, you're lucky enough to own your own property and stuff. If I don't pay those taxes, they're coming for me. Bill Cooper he wrote this book, Behold the Pale Horse, Bill Cooper, and he was known in the UFO community and conspiracy community. And he literally died on that hill. He stopped paying his income taxes and said some shit to the Clintons when Clinton was in office, and a bunch of stateies undercover ended up coming to his home to serve a warrant, and he had a shootout with them over not paying his taxes, his property taxes. He's like, come get and he knew, like, you come on my property, you're greeted with a gun. So agents went undercover to pose as kids just playing music on his property so he'd come down with his gun to tell him to get lost, and he ended up, you know, having a standoff with them, trying to retreat back to his house, and a a shootout happened. And he shot at police. Police shot at him. He ended up dying.
But he was one that was always like, hey. Know your constitution. Keep a copy of the constitution on you. Fight the government. Do this. Fight corruption. And he literally died on that hill. Died on his
[01:43:42] Unknown:
Well, he just did a, firstly for for for, English spoken people. I did a Dutch podcast, part one of, family that was, mom, dad, and the son. Back in the days, the son was, like, seven or eight years old. Or probably well well, they they went to Spain, and they lived there for seven years, almost like, off grid. And all of a sudden, there comes a a a dust cloud of cars and with some authorities and police and and all that stuff. And, one hour later, they see their son who was 10 at the time in the back of a car, and they never saw their son again for a couple of months, which was illegally been taken by government officials.
And, well, if that is a stand alone, story, that's something like, okay. Wow. That that's very interesting. No. This happens with thousands of people that do not speak the language or do not behave like they should behave. Because when shit hits the fan, you should not do anything to provoke them so they can turn you in because that's what they want. Right?
[01:45:01] Unknown:
Yeah. Well, there was two I I can't remember what state it was, but there were a bunch of cattle ranchers that were having a hard time. I think it was the FBI. It was one it was some three letter agency here in in The States, to where their cattle were being shot, taken, all sorts of stuff. So the ranchers got together and were like, with their guns, like, hey. Fuck off. And we're having, like, a a, like, stand like, media was reporting on it and everything to where the movement grew and people from different states ended up coming in. And that's what fucked up the movement because the cattle ranchers were United Front holding their ground, telling the government to fuck off, and working on negotiations. A bunch of other people came in. The message that they were trying to get across got mixed because this person's interviewed, and they're saying, well, this is why we're protesting. This person gets interviewed. This is why we're protesting.
And then during negotiations when the main cattle rancher was gonna go and talk to the agents, he got shot in the vehicle going to go to negotiations, and that squashed everything. Now no one's sighting anymore. So it's so easy to these cattle ranchers were holding their own. People came in and thought they were helping whether or not the they were infiltrated by other, you know, agency members that helped sow disharmony and whatever. But it was so easy for once the numbers grew, people came in. They didn't have united front. They didn't have united cause, and it just broke everything up. And then someone ended up dead because of it. The person who was in the right who should have been defending his land and property. You know? Like so it's it's it's crazy too how quickly a mob of people and mob mentality can change something when you're not all on the same page. Like, it's it's wild.
[01:46:46] Unknown:
Yes. But it's the same thing that they they, whoever the fuck they are, know the system, the b system, let's say. It knows that when we get together with the right message, dude, we can do some real big stuff. But a lot of people are afraid or stuck in this this this so called, you know, oh, I'm gonna watch movie on Netflix because I don't wanna be, you know, with these people or whatever the fuck. Or this is crazy. So you you talked about Bill Cooper. Is is there, are there some, conspiracies that you really like to talk about? Yeah. But that she picked into?
[01:47:24] Unknown:
Did all of dude, everything that's been considered a conspiracy theory almost has, like, come out to be proven true at this in my life from aliens. Like, I remember how many people did we lock up in mental institutes, ashamed them for saying that they saw things. And then during the pandemic, the my government, anyway, is like, by the way, UFOs are real. No big deal. Right. Right. Right. And no one made a big deal about it. So, like, you know, there's stuff like that, the shadow people, the inter dimensionals, Bigfoot, and the cryptids, even the stuff as far as whatever you wanna call them, the Illuminati, the 13 families that rule the world.
[01:48:04] Unknown:
The 13 bloodline.
[01:48:06] Unknown:
Yeah. Yeah. All of it. And I can't say exactly what's right, but, I mean, if you do your research even, you realize, oh, this corporation owns this corporation, owns this corporation, owns this corporation. So then it's like, okay. That owns all these. And then you this owns this, owns this, owns this, and then there's maybe, like, six things that literally own everything. So you're like, okay. Maybe there are only six families that run it. Like, it yeah. Bill Cooper got me big on the conspiracy of the government going after its own people and that we've strayed so far from what the original founding fathers might have wanted. That's why he insisted on know your constitution, and if you can't memorize it, keep a copy on you.
[01:48:47] Unknown:
Right. Right.
[01:48:49] Unknown:
Yeah. Like, no. He's a anything involving overthinker.
[01:48:53] Unknown:
Yeah. I call myself finger. I'm not the first, You know, that that's also been made up by The government. The government. The government expansion. Yes. Around the chain okay. Shit. We pushed it. Yep. When we went to the moon with 230, 80 thousand miles of landline because otherwise, Nixon couldn't call. Probably that's why you have a very expensive phone bill because they're still paying off fucking, cable.
[01:49:23] Unknown:
Well, see, even some of that stuff like, I wanna believe we went to the moon because, you know, if I believe in aliens, unless they're inter dimensionals, they would have to come from someplace else in this galaxy. Right? But at the same time, if we can make it to the moon back in the day, why the fuck haven't we made it at all? Like, you know, we've tried. I keep seeing things exploding in the fucking atmosphere, but yet we can't make it back to something we did. Like so just just replicate it. That's all what science is. Right? Replicate it. Let me see it again, and I'll I'll believe it.
[01:49:54] Unknown:
Right. Yeah. But but then but then he got, of course, for example, I I love to have him on my show, journalism. He went to, with William Duffy, which I had also, William Duffy, I think this. No Duffy, I think, went to Antarctica to prove the twenty four hour sun, which they did prove, doesn't prove a flat plane Earth. And I said that in my podcast before he opt on to Antarctica, I said, you're gonna prove twenty four hour sun. That's a possibility, but you're not gonna prove with that statement. You're not gonna prove, a flat or a round globe. You're not. But what Jaronism said Jaron from Jaronism, he said, well, the things that are been pointing out right now with the flat Earth, Nat, and stuff like that do not work as what I saw with a twenty four hour sun. So we need more investigation about how does that work then if so and and I like to dig into that kind of stuff, not too much because you're gonna be, you know, ending up like, my name is Johnny. My name is Hitler. My name is Napoleon.
[01:51:04] Unknown:
I don't know. You know? I just don't know. Have to look at the stuff too that even so, like, when it comes to my government, I got intrigued by someone, admiral Richard Byrd, who had high rankings in the government. The government loved him, sent him out on trips to Antarctica as a pilot. Then he starts saying some stuff about seeing some beings and a place called either Agatha or Lemuria or whatever. Yeah. Like, within the land. And then suddenly, the government's like, yo. This dude's crazy. We gotta lock him in one of our mental institutes. So they lock him in a mental institute. Then they release him, send him back to Antarctica, send him back, then he goes home to his home. It's somewhere in Massachusetts. Maybe it was, like, Beacon Hill or something where he mysteriously dies of heart failure.
So he's so crazy. You have to lock him up, but then you take him out and send him back to Antarctica. But we're not supposed to trust anything he said. Well, that's what I'm saying. Like, something seems fit so, like, when it's stuff like that, I'm like, okay. I'm more inclined to believe whatever crazy shit came out of admiral Richard Byrd's mouth because of what y'all did to him. Like, it just makes me be like, or at least that seems more like truth. So stuff like that. Yeah. It's interesting. It's an antibiotic Yes. It It's
[01:52:23] Unknown:
it's it's not only interesting. It's it's, so okay. Let let let's say that that I have a device that that brings us to the future or the past, doesn't matter what, but I can prove what the shape of the Earth is. Right? Let's say for for example, then what? Right? So if you, you know, that that that's that's the other thing I getting my head around like, okay. So someone proves it and a lot of people will also say like when Jaren came back, just like, oh, no. It's it's it's a hoax. It's this no. No. He fucking saw it. Well, why would he lie about it? Yeah. So the the other thing I said, which could be a possibility, it's like, okay. There's a twenty four hour sun in Antarctica, but that sun will not provide The Netherlands or Australia or America with the same stuff that it does as a sun.
Maybe there are multiple suns. That's maybe a theory. So that could be. Right? Because it makes no sense when the sun is turning around in Antarctica, which is like 8,000 or 9,000 kilometers away from from from Argentina that is still providing Peru and and America like desert in Africa and stuff like that in Australia with the vast amount of 24,000
[01:53:42] Unknown:
circumstances of the of the world. The sun with all the stuff that the sun does, it makes no sense to me at all. I'd be curious about the placement of the the permanent sun in Antarctica. Like, where does it fall in relation to the ice wall that we can't seem to penetrate and that seems to heal itself supposedly from some of the things? Like, every time they dig in it, it just closes right back up. So Right. Like With the blue ice? Yeah. Like, there's a huge ice wall supposedly that's keeping us encircled in this flat earth or whatever have you. And anytime you try drilling into it, I guess it just what they're saying, heals itself, and there's videos of it of it just closing right back up. So you can't really dig in it, drill holes in it, or anything because it keeps healing itself.
So I'm curious where the sun is in even relation to that because say this ice wall is a living thing. So how I Right. I'm like, does that is that sun supposed to provide light to that part that we can't access because of the ice wall. So, like, you're saying the two suns. We have our sun that does everything on that, and what we're seeing or what he saw in Antarctica is the sun meant for the other that we can't really access because of the ice wall, and we're only seeing part of it because of his locality. I don't know if that makes sense. Like
[01:55:06] Unknown:
Well, I mean, me neither. And I think that which could be very, maybe giving a solution. I was just thinking about it. Maybe we should measure how the sun is been looked upon from some places on the land. So what is the circle? How big is it? Because Yeah. It should be bigger when you're coming, you know, ah, there's so many fucking questions. So No. Like how shadows are cast. Right? Closest like, the sun is the highest. Usually, between twelve and three. That's why the shadows are like the yeah. Like, do stuff like that to measure. But it makes no sense to me that the sun that I see coming up, like, let's say, for example, 06:00 in the morning until 06:00 in the evening, then in that twelve hours, it hits all the other continents. It makes no fucking sense to me at all.
It doesn't. Because it's 24,000 kilometers and I see it only during the day. Wow. That breaks my my my my, normal mind sometimes. And, I had a book. I don't know where where I packed it and what address. It's, thanks to, Michael Hayes. It's about, several continents, which is, several, so you just can see Asgard. I'm I'm figuring out the the title of the book right now. It's been written by a woman behind the ice ball. It's not Tertiary, but is oh, fuck. It's a blue book with all so you you basically live here in the center, but there's all, land beyond the ice walls. Yeah. Yeah.
[01:56:46] Unknown:
I've seen some old maps that that depict that. Right? Like, Tartarian bond, the ice walls and stuff. And even, like, the old maps that display certain creatures like the kraken and mermaids and stuff. Right? Which we identify the kraken now as the deep sea squid or octopus or whatever that are fucking ginormous. So when we discredit things like that, where it's like, oh, these sailors who are proficient in sailing the ancient seas and having to survive are so stupid. They don't know what animals they have to avoid in the ocean. Like Right. Just discredit everything they say. They They can use the stars to navigate. They don't have technology. They know what fish are. They know what but they can't identify these animals. Like Right. Probation sensible. And all the maps have the same shit from different societies, different countries, different cultures. So, like, they're all stupid is what you're telling me. And it's the same thing with the maps with the ice wall where it's like something happened at one point in our history where the maps have just totally fucking like, something is going on even if maybe Tartaria is not real, but something is happening. There's there's there's some reason y'all are changing the maps and trying to discredit all the ancient maps and ancient, I don't know, adventurers, fishermen Alright. Everything.
[01:57:59] Unknown:
So I don't know what your age is. I'm not gonna ask for sure, woman, and you always.
[01:58:05] Unknown:
I'm 36.
[01:58:06] Unknown:
I'm 36. Okay. So so I'm I just turned 52, Winters Young. But the thing is, when I was in school, it it was maybe like a a flip of the switch because, like, ten years before, you shouldn't ask anything to a teacher which is not in the field of their expertise because you're gonna be fucked up. You know? They they gonna hit you and stuff like that. You you just have to sit still like in a prison, you do your stuff and stuff like that. So what we're trying to say with that is, why is that same thing with history? Why is there some kind of stuff that you can't ask about and you build ridiculed or you've been thrown into prison eventually because you're asking some questions like, okay, if you have an answer to this, not like an answer, oh, it's it's just like it is, like my mom always says, like no. He's just like, no. No. No. Explain to me and and give me facts Mhmm. About the events and about why you make this statement yours and why you defend that statement.
I just wanna know because I'm curious. Well, don't be curious. Is this what they've been written out in the books? Well, I got a pen and pencil right here. So if I read some stuff down, it's gonna be the new bible? I don't know. What the fuck? No. What really interest me are, a lot of stuff like why can we you know, why don't this oh oh oh, Antarctica is so wild and so cold. You're gonna die. Okay. But if I choose to to be there
[01:59:45] Unknown:
Yeah. Because there's no different than why so I can go explore the rainforest in Colombia and go see ancient ruins there and maybe die either in the rainforest from an an animal, the cartel, anything like that, but I can't go like you're saying, I can't go to Antarctica because I might freeze to death. Like yeah. But I can go to Siberia. Like, you know, like,
[02:00:09] Unknown:
like, you know? Yes. But, also, if you see how big the country so my mom said, oh, you go to America, please be careful for the forest, the the the burns, the the the fire. I said, do you know how fucking big America is? If this is America and the the the little molecule that's here, that's probably the fires of of LA or whatever the fuck. The rest is just a big country. It's just but it's the same thing and that that's that's also what I really like about psychology. You know, like, don't go that way because you're gonna be fucked up if you go that way. Oh, oh, I'm not gonna so I I pointed out as a example as, I put a sign on the door, like, watch it freshly painted.
It's not. Don't tell anyone. But see how people react to that, oh, freshly painted door. You know, did they did they that's psychology. So that's that's also what they say about don't go to Antarctica. It's it's called blah blah. Okay. I nowadays, we got some very good clothing and stuff like that. And if you want to be so stupid or adventurous to get there, why in the fuck? I mean, it's just like, oh, because it's such a such a, a beautiful, pristine pristine continent. Well, the ones that say that it's pristine have military stuff doing their stuff. Well, is there something really polluted? It's the old cars and the old diesel trucks and the old fucking vessels that they're gonna do. That makes no sense to me. You know?
[02:01:52] Unknown:
No. That's part of I think that's why as a child, I really got into Pink Floyd, and I can appreciate him even more as an adult, like, breaking the wall. Even the videos where it shows them pumping the kids through the system. You're just you're another brick in the wall. They don't care. You don't get imagination. You're just a little fucking automaton. You're gonna do what the teacher says. Like, what do you mean? Like, yeah. Like, it it starts then. The the teachers are yeah. The teachers break your soul. I think I had maybe two teachers my entire schooling career that encouraged me to think outside the box and be creative. Where the rest, if I have questions for them, it's go to the office. You get detention or because I'm, like, back talking them or questioning them or or, like, where where it's like, I just wanna know. Like, because Right. And you had a real question. Go outside. It's like, why am I here for eight hours a day if y'all don't actually wanna fucking teach me? Like, what is the point?
But, no, they don't and, yeah, it starts I think more kids need to be homeschooled if possible. Probably be but then that goes back to parents, not the whole system. The whole system needs to be redone. That's kind of what we're looking at here.
[02:02:58] Unknown:
Or you should you you should pick and choose between the system. Like, if you wanna be on yourself or your own community, fine. But if you are fitting in this system, you have to do that perfectly. But you have a choice, a free will, whatever the fuck they're gonna call you. But in in the in the system, it doesn't matter where you are on this planet, They are sucking you in, and you have to be participating in that stupid shit.
[02:03:23] Unknown:
I know those tend to be the people that will try to break your soul and crush you to do the same. Like, that's what I'm realizing. So anytime I get confused, it'll be like, stop being an artist or you're just lazy or whatever else. It's like, okay. Like Right. Because you're you've got it so well. Right? You have it all figured out. Your life is where you want it to be. It's like, I have my moments, but I feel like, overall, I'm probably happier than most people that have to work a dead end job that they hate, be around people that they hate, like Right. Just to be able to eat or something like that where I guess I am fortunate where, yeah, I don't have to do that. Right. Like, I still have to go out in society and be around tense people, you know, people that might not really give a shit about anybody else, but at least I moved to a place where that doesn't even seem to be the majority.
And people tend to keep that victim mentality because I've had so many people be like, well, you're privileged, you know, because because of where you live. It's like, I was born in a shithole of New Bedford, Massachusetts. Like, drug I don't know how many people died of drugs there that I was growing up with as kids, adults. Like, it's a bad fucking place to live. Like, people fighting all the time, shootings. Like, I don't know how many buildings I lived in where there were shootings, drive by shootings and stuff. Like, it's it's not a good place. And then I managed to pull myself out of that, you know, with the help of a partner. We built a life together and even survived cancer, and yet I'm constantly being told, well, you're just privileged. Like, either because of my skin color or because of where I was people just assume I was born here in Maine, which I wasn't, or that I have a bunch of money that it's what it's like, I don't you know? Like Right. Right. So so their first instinct is always like, well, you're lucky because you were born there, or, oh, you're because you're white or you're because you must come from money where it's like, no. I come from none none of those things are true. Like, I had to struggle to get to where I am now, and and I'm I'm I'm in a better place, which I think goes to show anyone can do it if they put in the time, energy,
[02:05:26] Unknown:
sap which means the things. Yeah. Like, it's if you just change yeah. That's a you problem. Change it. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Exactly. And and that that's the thing. Oh, you're just so free. Well, you know how much it cost to be to to weigh I end up. Well, it's not like that's the ideal situation that I do not have a hole right now. I'm gonna work on that stuff. Right? And then that's okay because I wanna have a place to be, you know, and to to to lock my door and with my stuff and the little stuff that I own. It's your safety. That's where you can go and disconnect from all the badness too. That's your serenity and your safe place. Like Yes. The the only thing I have now, which is safety, is my mental institution right up here and my heart. You know, that's the only thing that and of course, my body, I have to take care of that.
But the the other things is just like in this society, you need something to lock up because it's, you know, to to feel safe, just just like you said. And the other thing is just like you have to choose some things early in life where you can get the fruits from later in life. So if you and and, you know okay. So so I haven't choose for kids. I love kids, but it's it's not it's like elephants. I love to see them. I love I love them, but I don't wanna have them at home. Well, there's an elephant right there. Yeah. And I no. No. Of course, that that for you, it wasn't a choice because the choice has been made for you, of course. But, the the thing is, there are so many things, geographically, the culture that you're in, the religion, the people you're gonna hang around with, the the network you're gonna build up, the way you're gonna vibrate through the world, and and and the frequency you're gonna put out is gonna all gonna manifest into that something that you are and be.
And that's all we need, you know? And if if it feels right, then why not? I mean, I like it. I I really like it. We got no place to go. Well, I got so many places to go, man.
[02:07:23] Unknown:
Yeah.
[02:07:24] Unknown:
Yeah. You're right. Right now, that's fine. That's fine. Like, that's fine. No, ma'am. The I'm not gonna walk my, wooden shoes, unfortunately. He couldn't bring them with me, but yeah. Ari, I know what's about you, but I'm flies where you were in Dzora, and I have to always say that to people. We're two hours there. I'm gonna ask you 14 questions, and I hope you have any great time. I do.
[02:07:49] Unknown:
Yeah. Yeah.
[02:07:52] Unknown:
Cool. Okay. Normally, I have the questions on my laptop, but I told you just before you uptown that I have now a little divide, like, tablet and fear out of fucking words. So I I try to do it out of my brain, which I should normally do because it's 97 fucking episodes in Rob. Come on. Okay. So what's your what's your favorite color?
[02:08:18] Unknown:
A a blue. Like, a light blue bordering on green. Like teal. Uh-huh. Yeah. K. So almost like,
[02:08:25] Unknown:
the, the real,
[02:08:27] Unknown:
a real Borealis. No. Yeah. No. Yeah. The Royal Borealis. Yes to? Everything but pop country. I can't stand pop country, but anything else I will listen to. Gangster rap, metal, Gregorian chants. I don't care. I'm listening to it. Yep.
[02:08:50] Unknown:
What's your favorite film or movie?
[02:08:58] Unknown:
It's probably tied between drop dead Fred and aliens, the second aliens movie. Ew. So horror. I really love horror as I already said. And everything about the aliens movie was perfect from the casting, the comedic relief of Bill Paxton, the special effects, just like, oh, it was a beautiful movie. And drop dead Fred, I grew up watching. I always wanted an imaginary friend. My mom sucked, so I kind of related to the character in the movie. I wanted a drop dead Fred, Rick Miles. The character was great. So that's just something that's always stuck with me.
[02:09:32] Unknown:
Right. Right. Okay. Now I have to, deep, deep dive into my, my little conscious minds. But what's your favorite, book?
[02:09:43] Unknown:
A Stranger in a Strange Land. It's by Robert Heinlein. He also wrote Starship Troopers and stuff like that. But it's about a Martian that comes to Earth and teaches Americans to expand their consciousness, and they develop telepathic powers and start fighting the government. And, oh, it's wild stuff. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. That sounds so strange of the strangest. Okay. I have to I have to notice that. Strange of the strangest lamp.
[02:10:09] Unknown:
Okay. Stranger Strange laugh. I'm just I'm just writing stuff down and and and figure out what the fucking next question would oh, yeah. What kind of clothing you like to wear the most?
[02:10:26] Unknown:
Recently, I just go for comfy stuff. So I'm probably a basic bitch wearing yoga pants or sweatpants and a hoodie. Like, I mean, taking comfort.
[02:10:38] Unknown:
Okay. Okay. And what's your favorite food?
[02:10:44] Unknown:
If we're talking desserts, cheesecake because it's just so divine. I really like stuffing for some reason. Like, if you make really good homemade stuffing and even add, like, quahogs to it, a lot of people don't add quahogs to their stuffing. Hodge. Let's switch quahogs. It's like a type of clam that you'll find in in the oceans that you dig up. Okay. Yeah. It's it's a seafood. And if you add a little bit of, like, the coo quahog to the stuffing, I feel like it just that and some chorizo, like, it it adds a certain flavor to it. It's just so good. I don't know.
[02:11:20] Unknown:
Sounds good. Sounds good. What's your favorite, drink or, beverage?
[02:11:28] Unknown:
Some kind of tea, I'm guessing. Maybe like a passion fruit or a jasmine or something. Mhmm. Yeah. I've been drinking mostly water. I kicked all that old Pepsi used to be my favorite. I used to love Pepsi. I was an addict, but got rid of all that shit. So
[02:11:43] Unknown:
Dry. Dry. Oh, a lot of people that talk about ours are pouring out water, and and, eventually, we we we work with a lot of people just like, what was the old new listening and watching and drinking and eating, and what is the new you eating, which this is gonna be another fucking conversation for us.
[02:12:04] Unknown:
Yeah. So water and tea to be healthy. That's mostly what I drink now, and I love it. I didn't at first, but now I genuinely like the taste of water. Yeah. You couldn't have paid me to drink water before.
[02:12:15] Unknown:
Oh, yeah. Well, the and the funny thing is if you have really good filtered water and stuff like that, you can you can bring gallons of it. Yes. It holds you, especially if you use your Celtic sea salt. It holds the water instead of going pee pee. Yes. Yes. So, oh, no. I have to, okay. So what's your favorite bottle?
[02:12:46] Unknown:
I don't know. I I guess it's cliche, but since cancer, I've been trying to live like it's my last. Like, I every day isn't guaranteed, and I fuck up sometimes. That's for sure. But I try to. I try to. So, yeah, each day is my last. I'm not gonna get another chance.
[02:13:05] Unknown:
Right. I like that one. What's your, favorite, quote?
[02:13:14] Unknown:
Sterling Hayden, who was an actor, and he was actually one of the first OSI agents here in America doing, like, search and rescue missions under the name John Hamilton. But Sterling Hayden was a sailor and a wanderer, and he had a quote saying, lost indeed, aren't we all? It's only when we are lost that we have any hope of ever truly finding ourselves, and that's always stuck with
[02:13:39] Unknown:
me. Nice one. No. No. Now I've got the last two questions. I think the the the last two questions. I really like to know your answer. What's your, definition? Oh, no. I got four. Four more. Now what now I remember. Four of them. What's your definition of God?
[02:14:03] Unknown:
I'm learning that definition. I'm someone that grew up, like, Catholic. I was forced you know, trying to go to communion and all that stuff and pushed it away, tried to learn as much about every religion as possible. And and Jesus. Yeah. Yeah. And now I'm almost coming back to there's a supreme creator, but I can't put a I can't put any one label on it. But there's definitely something up there doing shit with intention that's also given us free will. Yeah. Yeah. We're we're definitely a part of something. Right. I'm still meditating on it. I wish I had the I think it's gonna be a lifelong I'm kinda jealous of people that just have the answer where they're like, I'm a happy Catholic. I'm a happy Hindu. Like
[02:14:50] Unknown:
Pride. Pride.
[02:14:53] Unknown:
I wish I had that, but I don't. I feel like I'm always gonna be meditating on that possibly until the day I die.
[02:15:00] Unknown:
So so well, this is then, of course, a a bonus question. Is this something that maybe is already in you that you recognize as this, or is it still a search for something that you don't know what it is?
[02:15:15] Unknown:
I I know it's there. I think the I'm someone that just wants everything answered to, like, I wanna I want I want it. Like, give me everything so that I understand it, and it's digestible, and I could put it in categories. And that's just not how some shit works. So I think it's just the selfish part of me being like, give me all the answers so I can say with certainty, but, like, who am I to I'm also no one special. It's like, why are you gonna give me all those answers? You know? Like, I'm special. I'm not I'm not saying I'm a no one, but, like Mhmm. And that's also maybe part of the mystery of life. If you knew all the answers, what would we be doing with life?
Right. Maybe some of us would still have motivation to do shit, but I think that's part of the motivation
[02:15:58] Unknown:
of life is the mystery of it and trying to unravel. Oh, yes. For sure. I was just thinking if you have all the answers, you you you know, everything will be bored.
[02:16:07] Unknown:
I'm six year in knowing there's something there, something beautiful, but I just yeah. I don't have all the answers. I'd like to figure them out, but I probably never will.
[02:16:18] Unknown:
What's your definition of, the devil?
[02:16:24] Unknown:
I guess just evil. Right? Like, whether that's a spiritual form, if it's evil incarnate in man. Like, if you were a a degenerate person who went around hurting people, you would be the devil. Like, the devil in car incarnate. Right? Like, that's just evil. Anything that occupies and I don't mean healthy negativity. Like, anger can be good. Sadness can be good. But I mean, like, overtly evil. Like Right. Right. Being like, that kind of thing. Like, yeah, it's just a a state of being that I guess could be a spiritual thing or a very realistic thing in a human body.
[02:17:05] Unknown:
Yeah. That's impressive. Sorry. What's your definition of success?
[02:17:16] Unknown:
I guess a place where you could be happy. I you know, other people can think you're you're in a place too or, you know, be congratulated by your peers or whatever, but I think it it's gonna be personal for everybody. Some people won't think they're successful unless they are a manager of a company. Some people won't unless you own a business. So for me, I just want to be able to feed myself, be a healthy human being, and be the best person I can be, and then that's success in my eyes. I haven't hit that point yet. But I'm working on it.
So, yeah, I just wanna be the best version of me and and have what I need without taking too much. And if I can die doing that, I'm successful.
[02:18:02] Unknown:
Nice. What's your, definition of, the last one, of, value?
[02:18:13] Unknown:
Like, just in general? Someone? Whatever something can do and not even for you, what something can do for you or someone can do for you, but whatever something's special ability is. Like, if if yours is to connect with people through podcasts and get information out there and talk to people and experience things, then that seems to be your value in what you bring. And that smile, Jesus Christ, it's contagious. It's so big and yeah. So anything like that. Like, if it's a musician, like someone like myself, I've gotten so much some people I've been able to meet, some people I've looked up to, some musicians I'll never meet, but I've gotten so much from their music. They've pulled me out of the darkest times. They've gotten me through some stuff, and I got so much value out of that. And I'll never meet these people. But what they've created has done so much for me, and I'm sure Right. Other people that listen to it.
So, yeah, I place value in the things that people do or who people are, but not in a selfish way per se, but how it helps society as a whole or how it helps me as a whole.
[02:19:33] Unknown:
Right. Right.
[02:19:35] Unknown:
But not and, like, give me more. Give me more. Like, oh, you're benefit like, give me. Like, oh, I know you, so I get to hang out with these people. And, like, oh, I know you, so I get this like, not like that. Just in a, oh, I know you so I get to experience all this, and now I get to, like, up my knowledge level or now I'm adapting to this new thing. Like, that's where I find value.
[02:19:56] Unknown:
Right. Right. Love it. Love it. Oh, I love talking to you, Ari. But as as I said, time flies as, as you are always on the Dazorash productions. And, please tell, the audience where they can find you. You you mentioned your your website. Is there is there, also well, I think there is also the connections to your Spotify, Instagram,
[02:20:20] Unknown:
everything. Yeah. I'm on any like, if you're trying to listen to my music, I'm on any streaming platform. You can find me there, Ari Mnemonic, and the official website, AriMnemonic.com. I have Instagram, Facebook, though I'm more active on Instagram. Ari Mnemonic. Just type it in. You'll find me. Yeah. I'm I'm usually pretty active on LG. I try try to respond to people who reach out to me and stuff. So, but I'm also human. Like I said, I have 13 dogs. Get you me. Good. But yeah. Just Ari mnemonic everywhere you can find me.
[02:20:53] Unknown:
Cool. Thank you for your time, man, JIari. And, for all listeners back home, this is the last episode that I'm gonna do, on on the vast land of Europe because tomorrow, I'll be traveling to, The States. So let's see how the Internet connection and stuff like that goes. I have some people lined up for podcasting, but, you know, just like my trip, I don't know where it's gonna going to end. I'm not gonna know where it's going to, to start. I'm just gonna leave it. I'm just gonna embrace it and, figure things out for myself and, hopefully, for you to, by having good conversation with everyone.
And, for all of our listeners back home, have a beautiful I hope you enjoyed this episode and have a beautiful grand rising, a beautiful day, or a beautiful evening no matter where you are on this beautiful plain planet. Thank you. And then I should say namaste. Of course.
[02:21:53] Unknown:
Well, namaste. But, also, thank you for having me on. This was fun. I liked our conversation. Wasn't sure what to expect or how it was gonna go, and it it was it was fun. It was entertaining. Thought about some series. So was like a
[02:22:07] Unknown:
I like your weight flows like a flows because, you know, if you're going to be prepared for whatever, you're gonna try to prepare, you're going to be disappointed most of the times even if you are into business like, oh, I'll prepare for this client. No. Go into it. You know you you know what you're gonna talk about. You're gonna talk about a product or a service or whatever the fuck and just be there. That's it. And just like what kind of, questions he gonna ask you or whatever the fuck and then just answer them. But if you be prepared and they're not gonna talk about the subject, you will be just like, oh my god. Oh my god. I never ever prepare. Well, I Okay. Yes. I I wrote down on your Instagram, like, you know, chaos just just face of chaos and all that stuff. Yeah. But that's it, you know? Okay. You do art, you do this, you that, and just have a conversation. Just be a human guts god's sake.
[02:23:04] Unknown:
Well, that that was awesome. I had fun. If you ever wanna talk again in the future, I'm down. I hope you have fun coming over to The US, not only just seeing Max and Joel and Ben and everybody, but just in general, just experiencing whatever the whatever you're gonna get into, dude.
[02:23:19] Unknown:
Yes. I'm I'm gonna have a great time for sure. K. Thank you, Ari. You're welcome. Have a good night. You too. Bye.
[02:23:44] Unknown:
We're running for all my life with a devil on my heels. He wasn't always kind, and he couldn't fulfill my dreams. I've been running for all my life with a devil on my heels. He wasn't always kind, and he couldn't fulfill my dreams. He's a pain in the ass, black as a night. God show me light. There's a plane in the ass, black as a night. God show me light, and he'll be tight. Where I'll be running for all my life with the devil on my heels. He wasn't always kind, and he couldn't fulfill my dreams. He's a pain in the ass. Black as a night, God's swimming light and he'll be tight.
Introduction to Disorganized Productionist Podcast
Meet Ari Mnemonic: Artist and Yoga Teacher
Ari's Life in Rural Maine
Art and Music: Ari's Creative Journey
Ari's Health Journey and Cancer Diagnosis
Finding Relief with Alovea
Living Off-Grid and Community Life
Exploring Conspiracy Theories
Philosophical Musings on Life and Society
Rapid Fire Questions with Ari
