In this heartfelt Mother's Day episode, host Cole McCormick takes a moment to honor his mother, Cari, and reflect on the profound impact she has had on his life. He shares personal anecdotes, including a memorable trip to New York City where his mother supported his dreams and aspirations. He also recounts the emotional experience of visiting the 9/11 Memorial with his mother, a moment that brought back memories of watching the tragic events unfold on television together. Throughout the episode, he expresses gratitude for his mother's strength, independence, and unwavering support, highlighting her role in shaping his emotional intelligence and spiritual awareness.
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I demand that you care about my mother. What's up, everyone? It's America Plus. I'm your host, Komenclovic. Got you another week. Another episode. What's going on, everybody? It's a beautiful week to be alive. It's Sunday, Mother's Day, May eleventh, nine forty in the PM. What's going on, everybody? Happy to be happy to see you. I'm coming at you. Oh my god. I'm a little sweaty, dude. It's, like, hot in my kitchen all of a sudden. Let me open my window. Holy cannolis, dude. It's freaking, ugh, dude. I I just had dinner, so I'm sorry if I'm a little burpee. I'm gonna do my best to not burp in the middle of the show. Okay?
But whatever. Today is gonna be a really good day while I put my phone on do not disturb. It's Mother's Day. I had a twelve hour shift at the restaurant, so that's incredible. And I'm pretty tired. Yesterday, I had a ten hour shift, and then I got a little sick. Today, I had a twelve hour shift. And no thank you. No thanks for your service. No thank you for your good hard hard work, guys. Only one manager said that. We have, like, six managers at the freaking place. Only one of them said, appreciate you. So thank you to that man. Thank you to that man, juror, who, who graciously said I did I did a good job today. That always feels great.
Guys, what I wanna do this week, we're just gonna hang out. We're just gonna vibe. We're just gonna, like, feel how each other are feeling. You know? We're gonna check-in on each other. What I wanna do on this Mother's Day is just hype up my mom, dude. You know? America Plus, I've always been, like, very open about what I've been going through and what I have been experiencing. And, I've kept, you know, I have kept, like, a good chunk of my life private, except for the fact that my dad died. I've talked about that process and, like, that experience. And what I wanna do for this episode is just to express my love and gratitude, for my mother, who's been through more than I have. You know, she's lived a life longer than I have, obviously, and she's been through so much.
And what I wanna do is just, like, give a round of applause. Round of applause for my mom, please. Round of applause. My mom. My mom. My mom, Carrie. Thank you, mom. Thank you so much for being my mom. I texted you this morning. I sent in the the early morning text, so I already checked off the box of being a good son. So that's pretty good. And, I guess what I wanna start out with is, what's, like, a good memory with my mom? The one of the best memories I have with my mom is, before I moved out of the home in 2017. I thought I was gonna move to New York in 2017. I was 20 years old, and, I felt compelled. You know? I've I I thought that it was, like, gonna be, like, the place for me.
And, it was gonna be a huge move. You know? I I I grew up in Arizona, And it's like, how the hell am I gonna move to New York, dude? Like, that's a crazy like, that's a crazy move. Like, small town Arizona to big town New York City. Like, that's a big move. And didn't know where to go. And so my mom offered to pay for some tickets and to help me find an apartment, you know, and she was super open super open about it. And, I can't believe she did that. You know? That memory is, it's very fond to me because first of all, I had never had, like, a solo trip with my mom.
And along with that, it turned into just a glorified vacation with her. You know? I didn't end up moving to New York. I ended up just going to California, just six hours away from from where I grew up. And, and I knew that right when, like, the plane landed. That was, like, a weird thing apart of the trip. As soon as the plane landed at JFK Airport, I was like, there's no way I'm moving here. So it just turned into me and my mom just hanging out in New York for for a week. And, we went to museums. You know, we stayed in a couple Airbnbs. We rode taxis. You know, we did the whole New York experience. Like, there was Ubers, of course, but we also did taxis. You know, there's, like, you know, like it's like there's, like, in between. You know? The in between of, like, Uber and taxis still being relevant.
Or I I I should say, like, that fight, you know? And we went to the 911 Memorial, and that was really impactful for me, you know. I had that's connected to, like, another, like, profound memory I have of my mom. I witnessed 09:11 on television with my mom. I had gotten up early to say, goodbye to my dad, so that he could go off to work. And I fell asleep on the couch, and that morning was 09:11. And I woke up to my mom watching the TV. She's on the phone, and she's crying. She's she's, like, worried. Like, what is going on? And, she I remember her telling me that. She's, like, don't worry about this. Like, this is, like, this is just a movie. You know? She told me 09:11 was just a movie, which is a crazy idea. But I have this visual of, like, the television and 09:11 and my mom. Like, that's, like, so ingrained in my head.
And, you know, she wanted to protect me in that. And seeing the nine eleven memorial, with her in that moment in my life, that was impactful to me. And, you know, we we shared, we shared a silence for all the people that died that day, and it was just like a really, like, wow. Like, here are here's me and my mom having, like, a real, like, adult situation. Like, we're really like, we're we are honoring some people that we didn't know, but we are we shared a certain type of trauma, and we've done our best to pay our respects and to and to heal from it and grow up. And so, that's just always been really profound. I just have warm memories of New York. You know? I've been in New York two times, one with, like, high school people, and one with my mom.
And so, you know, that's a very just warm place in my heart. It's a very warm memory, and my mom made it that way. And oddly enough, I was also doing a podcast in New York. I was doing the Cole McCormack Show back in the day. So that was cool. I think I did, like, one of my last episodes of Cole McCormack Show in New York City. I think I did, if my memory is correct. I don't know. Somebody go to SoundCloud and find that out. I totally forget. I forget where that was. My mom is special because she's a woman who's independent. You know? She's, like, the best example of what an independent, feministic woman could be.
She grew up a woman of faith. You know, she's Christian. She still is Christian. And, she she did everything right, you know, or mostly everything right, I think. You know? Like, she she she grew up well. She prayed. She got married. She had kids. She did her best to support the house. She did her best to support the kids and the family at large to support her husband. And, she even believed in her husband enough to go into business with him. And that's really inspiring to me as her son. You know? You know, growing up, I sorta took the business that my parents ran, the medical billing business, as, like, for granted. You know? It's like, they're working on the business. Like, I I was, like, super moody as a kid. Like, why are you always working?
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Mom, I wanna talk to you.
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And I'm sure my mom would say, honey, I was always there for you. I was always available to talk. And me in my head are just like, no. You weren't. Me being 13. Just some bullshit, dude. Some bullshit emo coal. But I took that business for granted. But now looking back and, like, in the retrospect, you know, my like and with the context of of my dad being not here anymore, it's like, wow. Like, she really did that. She really, really did that. And she became an adult. You know? She had her her kids when she was in her early twenties, and I think they opened up the business when they were, like, I don't know, 30?
That's a crazy time. Like, that's crazy. You know? Like and she bought a house. You know? She has a pool. And it's like, from the outside, my mom's life is so amazing. And I can tell you that from the inside. My mom's life is I'm not sure if amazing is the word I would use, but I would say profound. I would say inspiring, you know, certainly right now. My mom so if anyone meets me and if I'm ever given the compliment that I am emotionally intelligent, which is something I hope people understand and realize or at least vibe off that, if anyone thinks that I'm emotionally intelligent, it's because of my mother.
Like, my mom my mom is the reason I have any sort of care for people. My mom is the reason that I have any sort of interest in understanding my own emotions. That personality trait, I guess, comes from her. That spiritual awareness comes from her. And, I thank her for that. Thank you, mom, for giving me that spiritual awareness. Wow. My nose is running. So annoying doing a podcast. This podcast might be a little shorter than usual, but we're gonna see. Just to keep the nostrils dry. But what do you think about your mom? You know, the reason why I'm talking about my mom is because I wanna I want more people to share their love for their family.
I don't think moms are under attack, but I do think that there's a lot of narratives that can demean families. You know? They can hinder what having a family really means. You know? It doesn't matter if you're if you're liberal or if you're black pilled or if you're red pilled or if you know? It doesn't matter what type of situation you're in or what types of ideas that you have. There there's objectively a lot of narratives out in the world that sort of, like, put down moms and put down women for having kids and sort of, like I don't know. I'm I'm not trying to have a hard statement on this. I just think it's weird. Isn't it weird that, like, women having kids is sort of looked down upon within modern society? I think it is. You know?
My sister turned into a mom a few years ago in 2018, and, you know, I've only seen her mature. You know? I've only seen her become a better person because she's a mom. You know? I think motherhood is something that takes profound humility and profound bravery. You know? You're you're willing a life into Earth, and then you are making the commitment to keep that baby alive and to somehow give it good ideas to live off of? That's insane. That's crazy, dude. I get it's and it it's inspiring, dude. It's so inspiring, and I think my mom did a good job with me and my sisters. And so it's, it's just cool, dude. Like, do you think similarly about your mom? You know?
Right now as I record this, you know, there's a couple people that I know. One personally and one sort of, like, a and to what's the word? Not anecdotally, but, like, acquaintances. We're, like, acquaintances online. I know that these two people, their moms are no longer around. And I can relate to them with, with that with losing a parent. But, you know, I I do wanna give a shout out to those people if you have lost your mom to some sort of disease or illness or some sort of anything. If you don't have a mom right now, you know, my heart goes out to you, and I hope that you find healing, and I hope that you continue to put your best foot forward and to, you know, try to figure out what your mom was about, you know, because that's really where I'm at with thinking about my dad right now.
Something that is going on in my life when it comes to, like, my spiritual and emotional life and and, like, grieving my father, I'm sort of, like, thinking about the life. You know? Like, I I'm thinking about the life as a movie. I had this idea a couple of nights ago. I was on a walk, and I was thinking about my dad, and I was like, wow. Like, I'm I'm trying to remember my dad like I remember a movie. And the hard thing is that, like, I can, like, I can sure. I can go to a text message or maybe I can go to a recorded video. I can go to a picture to get a better image.
But to get the essence, you know, to to understand what was really going on, I am thinking about my dad as if I am thinking about a movie that I saw. And it's, like, fleeting, but it's impactful. And, and, like, my mom is tied into that. You know? My mom is tied tied into that story, you know, because now she's put she's in a position where she has to think about her husband that way. You know, I share two memories with my mom. I guess okay. So, like, a side memory, Another memory with my mom is that she took us to Costa Rica. She insisted that the family went to Costa Rica for a vacation. Turned out being the most iconic McCormick vacation on Earth that we had ever taken ever and will ever take, honestly.
The Costa Rica trip was awesome, but I was always so mad at her. I was so annoyed that, like, she brought that she brought us to the jungle. Like, why did you wanna be here, mom? Why? But I saw a monkey. Like, there was monkeys outside my window, and we slept in a motel by a volcano that was erupting. And we, like, went ziplining. You know, my mom, like, she, like she's so, like, was like, she wants to do the activity. You know? Like, she wants to do something with you. And for some reason, I've always been, like, resistant to that. It's like, why, Cole? Why are you resistant to that, man? And so that's something I've been, like, growing up in.
And, the biggest memory that I have with my mom, you know, it's the most immediate as well, is, just going through I call it the hospice week, the last week of my dad's life. Straight up seven days. Seven days in hospice. Like, the fuck it. It doesn't get any more biblical, did you like, on the first day. You know, he signed up for hospice. On the second day, he it was seven days and or maybe a little more than seven days, whatever. But that last week with my dad that last week of my dad's life, that's a profound memory with my mom. And it's something that we're still moving through. It's something that we're still, like like, it's not healed. You know? Will it ever be healed? I don't know.
I know that my family went through a really like, we trauma bonded. Like, that's a big deal. We went through something so hard together, and we went through something so I call it holy. I describe it as holy only because of what the actual moment of my dad dying felt like. You know, I felt it felt like God was there. It felt like angels were there. It felt like it like, like, I don't even wanna get emotional right now talking about it. It's just like it wasn't the fact that my dad was leaving. It was like there was another presence when my dad left.
And I experienced that extra presence with my mom. And, me being the oldest, she's also the oldest within her family. You know, she has one younger sister, and so her and I relate by being the the eldest, the eldest sibling. And, it's, this this, idea of responsibility, you know, she had to take on her own responsibility within her her family for being the oldest, And that's that sort of translated into having a family of her own. And now, I have to I've done similar things, you know, not not like the exact same things, but like, I'm thinking the same way I think as her. I am looking for my path to, like, how can I hold my family up? How can I make sure my family is okay as the eldest sibling? Like, what is my position?
You know, as I live my personal life, as I clock in and clock out of work, you know, what is my like, how can I best support my sisters? You know, that's a that's a thought my mom and I have both had, I think. How can I best support my sisters? And, you know, seeing my mom go through that hospice week, that was really profound because,
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it even though no one wants to, like, say this, even though, like, death is death. You know, death is the end of a life. But at the same time, it's it was, like, the culmination of all of the marriage vows. Like, from my perspective, I literally watched the marriage vows. And I'm not sure how many kids really get to experience that. I'm not sure how many children get to really see their parents act out the marriage vows through sickness and in death. You know? My mom loved my dad to death. Like, that is so real. And I have that story.
I have that image. I have that memory. I have that lesson. My mom loved my dad to death through sickness and in health. You know, and she she supported him losing weight. She supported him throughout the cancer, and she did her best to to support him in the last in the final days. And that was insane. That was really insane. The family went through something really insane. So just shout out to my mom for being so strong. You know? And and she's struggling right now. You know? I'm not gonna share too much of this, but, you know, my mom is struggling. You know? She's middle aged. She's in her early, early fifties. She's widowed. You know? And throughout this whole even before my dad got cancer, she was going to school to be a counselor. You know? She was getting her degree, in in an entirely new field.
And, she she was working up with this new career, and then she had to, like, deal with this cancer bullshit, and then she had to, like, witness her husband die. It's like, what the fuck is this? Now I'm supposed to now she's supposed to help people in the community with her with their, like, relational issues. Like, she's dealing with so much more stuff than anyone can ever imagine. And a lot of it's bullshit, and I'm trying to be there for her, and I encourage her to just keep sharing her light. Light. You know? And the good thing is that she's honest when she messes up, and that's the only way that we can ever get through life. You know? My mom is showing me that, like, in these dark times, like, who you are, who how you show up to yourself and your immediate family in the worst moment of your life is who you truly are.
And I've seen my mom apologize for mistakes that she's made within this time. You know? And I've seen my mom make an effort to be the best version of herself in this time. And, you know, she's not perfect. You know? No human is perfect, but she's certainly trying, and I believe that. You know? I see that in her, and I love that about her. And so just shout out to you, mom. I just love you so much. I believe in your power. I believe that you are strong, and I believe that you are capable of being equal. I I believe that you are equal to this challenge in front of you, mom. I truly do. You know, I wish I had, like I didn't write anything out. This is all this is all just, like, at the top of my head, you know, but I don't have, like, a sprawling speech from Gladiator for my mom. I don't have some I don't I don't have this. I just it's love in my heart, and I do my best to share the love of my the love in my heart to my mom.
So just right now, take a moment, take a breath, and maybe just, like, think about your heart. Think about compassion in your heart. Think about the love in your heart, the gratitude in your heart, and to just send that out to your mom. You know? We're just gonna take ten seconds. You know? Just nasty ass booger. Okay. Thank you, mom. Thank you, mom. Thank you so much, mom. Thank you so much. Thank you. Shout out to mom, y'all. I love you so much, mom. Yeah, dude. So that yeah. That's everything I got, dude. Like, what do you think about your mom? Do you love your mom? Is your mom worthy of praise? I hope she is.
I also have a friend whose mom, you know, gave him up for adoption, and that's a little tough. You know? But him and I were talking about it today, and I was like, you know you know, man, like, maybe if you were able to have your mom's perspective when all that negative stuff was going on, maybe you would understand. And he was like, yeah. You know what? I would. I really would. I'd like, I know I would. And so I'm thankful for that as well. I'm thankful that I have, like, people in my life who are, like, capable of looking at different perspectives. You know? So what is your perspective? I wanna hear your perspective. I wanna hear your value. Yeah. America Plus is a value for value show, dude. We're gonna go into the value for value section of the podcast.
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I demand that you care about my mother. What's up, everyone? It's America Plus. I'm your host, Komenclovic. Got you another week. Another episode. What's going on, everybody? It's a beautiful week to be alive. It's Sunday, Mother's Day, May eleventh, nine forty in the PM. What's going on, everybody? Happy to be happy to see you. I'm coming at you. Oh my god. I'm a little sweaty, dude. It's, like, hot in my kitchen all of a sudden. Let me open my window. Holy cannolis, dude. It's freaking, ugh, dude. I I just had dinner, so I'm sorry if I'm a little burpee. I'm gonna do my best to not burp in the middle of the show. Okay?
But whatever. Today is gonna be a really good day while I put my phone on do not disturb. It's Mother's Day. I had a twelve hour shift at the restaurant, so that's incredible. And I'm pretty tired. Yesterday, I had a ten hour shift, and then I got a little sick. Today, I had a twelve hour shift. And no thank you. No thanks for your service. No thank you for your good hard hard work, guys. Only one manager said that. We have, like, six managers at the freaking place. Only one of them said, appreciate you. So thank you to that man. Thank you to that man, juror, who, who graciously said I did I did a good job today. That always feels great.
Guys, what I wanna do this week, we're just gonna hang out. We're just gonna vibe. We're just gonna, like, feel how each other are feeling. You know? We're gonna check-in on each other. What I wanna do on this Mother's Day is just hype up my mom, dude. You know? America Plus, I've always been, like, very open about what I've been going through and what I have been experiencing. And, I've kept, you know, I have kept, like, a good chunk of my life private, except for the fact that my dad died. I've talked about that process and, like, that experience. And what I wanna do for this episode is just to express my love and gratitude, for my mother, who's been through more than I have. You know, she's lived a life longer than I have, obviously, and she's been through so much.
And what I wanna do is just, like, give a round of applause. Round of applause for my mom, please. Round of applause. My mom. My mom. My mom, Carrie. Thank you, mom. Thank you so much for being my mom. I texted you this morning. I sent in the the early morning text, so I already checked off the box of being a good son. So that's pretty good. And, I guess what I wanna start out with is, what's, like, a good memory with my mom? The one of the best memories I have with my mom is, before I moved out of the home in 2017. I thought I was gonna move to New York in 2017. I was 20 years old, and, I felt compelled. You know? I've I I thought that it was, like, gonna be, like, the place for me.
And, it was gonna be a huge move. You know? I I I grew up in Arizona, And it's like, how the hell am I gonna move to New York, dude? Like, that's a crazy like, that's a crazy move. Like, small town Arizona to big town New York City. Like, that's a big move. And didn't know where to go. And so my mom offered to pay for some tickets and to help me find an apartment, you know, and she was super open super open about it. And, I can't believe she did that. You know? That memory is, it's very fond to me because first of all, I had never had, like, a solo trip with my mom.
And along with that, it turned into just a glorified vacation with her. You know? I didn't end up moving to New York. I ended up just going to California, just six hours away from from where I grew up. And, and I knew that right when, like, the plane landed. That was, like, a weird thing apart of the trip. As soon as the plane landed at JFK Airport, I was like, there's no way I'm moving here. So it just turned into me and my mom just hanging out in New York for for a week. And, we went to museums. You know, we stayed in a couple Airbnbs. We rode taxis. You know, we did the whole New York experience. Like, there was Ubers, of course, but we also did taxis. You know, there's, like, you know, like it's like there's, like, in between. You know? The in between of, like, Uber and taxis still being relevant.
Or I I I should say, like, that fight, you know? And we went to the 911 Memorial, and that was really impactful for me, you know. I had that's connected to, like, another, like, profound memory I have of my mom. I witnessed 09:11 on television with my mom. I had gotten up early to say, goodbye to my dad, so that he could go off to work. And I fell asleep on the couch, and that morning was 09:11. And I woke up to my mom watching the TV. She's on the phone, and she's crying. She's she's, like, worried. Like, what is going on? And, she I remember her telling me that. She's, like, don't worry about this. Like, this is, like, this is just a movie. You know? She told me 09:11 was just a movie, which is a crazy idea. But I have this visual of, like, the television and 09:11 and my mom. Like, that's, like, so ingrained in my head.
And, you know, she wanted to protect me in that. And seeing the nine eleven memorial, with her in that moment in my life, that was impactful to me. And, you know, we we shared, we shared a silence for all the people that died that day, and it was just like a really, like, wow. Like, here are here's me and my mom having, like, a real, like, adult situation. Like, we're really like, we're we are honoring some people that we didn't know, but we are we shared a certain type of trauma, and we've done our best to pay our respects and to and to heal from it and grow up. And so, that's just always been really profound. I just have warm memories of New York. You know? I've been in New York two times, one with, like, high school people, and one with my mom.
And so, you know, that's a very just warm place in my heart. It's a very warm memory, and my mom made it that way. And oddly enough, I was also doing a podcast in New York. I was doing the Cole McCormack Show back in the day. So that was cool. I think I did, like, one of my last episodes of Cole McCormack Show in New York City. I think I did, if my memory is correct. I don't know. Somebody go to SoundCloud and find that out. I totally forget. I forget where that was. My mom is special because she's a woman who's independent. You know? She's, like, the best example of what an independent, feministic woman could be.
She grew up a woman of faith. You know, she's Christian. She still is Christian. And, she she did everything right, you know, or mostly everything right, I think. You know? Like, she she she grew up well. She prayed. She got married. She had kids. She did her best to support the house. She did her best to support the kids and the family at large to support her husband. And, she even believed in her husband enough to go into business with him. And that's really inspiring to me as her son. You know? You know, growing up, I sorta took the business that my parents ran, the medical billing business, as, like, for granted. You know? It's like, they're working on the business. Like, I I was, like, super moody as a kid. Like, why are you always working?
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Mom, I wanna talk to you.
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And I'm sure my mom would say, honey, I was always there for you. I was always available to talk. And me in my head are just like, no. You weren't. Me being 13. Just some bullshit, dude. Some bullshit emo coal. But I took that business for granted. But now looking back and, like, in the retrospect, you know, my like and with the context of of my dad being not here anymore, it's like, wow. Like, she really did that. She really, really did that. And she became an adult. You know? She had her her kids when she was in her early twenties, and I think they opened up the business when they were, like, I don't know, 30?
That's a crazy time. Like, that's crazy. You know? Like and she bought a house. You know? She has a pool. And it's like, from the outside, my mom's life is so amazing. And I can tell you that from the inside. My mom's life is I'm not sure if amazing is the word I would use, but I would say profound. I would say inspiring, you know, certainly right now. My mom so if anyone meets me and if I'm ever given the compliment that I am emotionally intelligent, which is something I hope people understand and realize or at least vibe off that, if anyone thinks that I'm emotionally intelligent, it's because of my mother.
Like, my mom my mom is the reason I have any sort of care for people. My mom is the reason that I have any sort of interest in understanding my own emotions. That personality trait, I guess, comes from her. That spiritual awareness comes from her. And, I thank her for that. Thank you, mom, for giving me that spiritual awareness. Wow. My nose is running. So annoying doing a podcast. This podcast might be a little shorter than usual, but we're gonna see. Just to keep the nostrils dry. But what do you think about your mom? You know, the reason why I'm talking about my mom is because I wanna I want more people to share their love for their family.
I don't think moms are under attack, but I do think that there's a lot of narratives that can demean families. You know? They can hinder what having a family really means. You know? It doesn't matter if you're if you're liberal or if you're black pilled or if you're red pilled or if you know? It doesn't matter what type of situation you're in or what types of ideas that you have. There there's objectively a lot of narratives out in the world that sort of, like, put down moms and put down women for having kids and sort of, like I don't know. I'm I'm not trying to have a hard statement on this. I just think it's weird. Isn't it weird that, like, women having kids is sort of looked down upon within modern society? I think it is. You know?
My sister turned into a mom a few years ago in 2018, and, you know, I've only seen her mature. You know? I've only seen her become a better person because she's a mom. You know? I think motherhood is something that takes profound humility and profound bravery. You know? You're you're willing a life into Earth, and then you are making the commitment to keep that baby alive and to somehow give it good ideas to live off of? That's insane. That's crazy, dude. I get it's and it it's inspiring, dude. It's so inspiring, and I think my mom did a good job with me and my sisters. And so it's, it's just cool, dude. Like, do you think similarly about your mom? You know?
Right now as I record this, you know, there's a couple people that I know. One personally and one sort of, like, a and to what's the word? Not anecdotally, but, like, acquaintances. We're, like, acquaintances online. I know that these two people, their moms are no longer around. And I can relate to them with, with that with losing a parent. But, you know, I I do wanna give a shout out to those people if you have lost your mom to some sort of disease or illness or some sort of anything. If you don't have a mom right now, you know, my heart goes out to you, and I hope that you find healing, and I hope that you continue to put your best foot forward and to, you know, try to figure out what your mom was about, you know, because that's really where I'm at with thinking about my dad right now.
Something that is going on in my life when it comes to, like, my spiritual and emotional life and and, like, grieving my father, I'm sort of, like, thinking about the life. You know? Like, I I'm thinking about the life as a movie. I had this idea a couple of nights ago. I was on a walk, and I was thinking about my dad, and I was like, wow. Like, I'm I'm trying to remember my dad like I remember a movie. And the hard thing is that, like, I can, like, I can sure. I can go to a text message or maybe I can go to a recorded video. I can go to a picture to get a better image.
But to get the essence, you know, to to understand what was really going on, I am thinking about my dad as if I am thinking about a movie that I saw. And it's, like, fleeting, but it's impactful. And, and, like, my mom is tied into that. You know? My mom is tied tied into that story, you know, because now she's put she's in a position where she has to think about her husband that way. You know, I share two memories with my mom. I guess okay. So, like, a side memory, Another memory with my mom is that she took us to Costa Rica. She insisted that the family went to Costa Rica for a vacation. Turned out being the most iconic McCormick vacation on Earth that we had ever taken ever and will ever take, honestly.
The Costa Rica trip was awesome, but I was always so mad at her. I was so annoyed that, like, she brought that she brought us to the jungle. Like, why did you wanna be here, mom? Why? But I saw a monkey. Like, there was monkeys outside my window, and we slept in a motel by a volcano that was erupting. And we, like, went ziplining. You know, my mom, like, she, like she's so, like, was like, she wants to do the activity. You know? Like, she wants to do something with you. And for some reason, I've always been, like, resistant to that. It's like, why, Cole? Why are you resistant to that, man? And so that's something I've been, like, growing up in.
And, the biggest memory that I have with my mom, you know, it's the most immediate as well, is, just going through I call it the hospice week, the last week of my dad's life. Straight up seven days. Seven days in hospice. Like, the fuck it. It doesn't get any more biblical, did you like, on the first day. You know, he signed up for hospice. On the second day, he it was seven days and or maybe a little more than seven days, whatever. But that last week with my dad that last week of my dad's life, that's a profound memory with my mom. And it's something that we're still moving through. It's something that we're still, like like, it's not healed. You know? Will it ever be healed? I don't know.
I know that my family went through a really like, we trauma bonded. Like, that's a big deal. We went through something so hard together, and we went through something so I call it holy. I describe it as holy only because of what the actual moment of my dad dying felt like. You know, I felt it felt like God was there. It felt like angels were there. It felt like it like, like, I don't even wanna get emotional right now talking about it. It's just like it wasn't the fact that my dad was leaving. It was like there was another presence when my dad left.
And I experienced that extra presence with my mom. And, me being the oldest, she's also the oldest within her family. You know, she has one younger sister, and so her and I relate by being the the eldest, the eldest sibling. And, it's, this this, idea of responsibility, you know, she had to take on her own responsibility within her her family for being the oldest, And that's that sort of translated into having a family of her own. And now, I have to I've done similar things, you know, not not like the exact same things, but like, I'm thinking the same way I think as her. I am looking for my path to, like, how can I hold my family up? How can I make sure my family is okay as the eldest sibling? Like, what is my position?
You know, as I live my personal life, as I clock in and clock out of work, you know, what is my like, how can I best support my sisters? You know, that's a that's a thought my mom and I have both had, I think. How can I best support my sisters? And, you know, seeing my mom go through that hospice week, that was really profound because,
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it just it it
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it even though no one wants to, like, say this, even though, like, death is death. You know, death is the end of a life. But at the same time, it's it was, like, the culmination of all of the marriage vows. Like, from my perspective, I literally watched the marriage vows. And I'm not sure how many kids really get to experience that. I'm not sure how many children get to really see their parents act out the marriage vows through sickness and in death. You know? My mom loved my dad to death. Like, that is so real. And I have that story.
I have that image. I have that memory. I have that lesson. My mom loved my dad to death through sickness and in health. You know, and she she supported him losing weight. She supported him throughout the cancer, and she did her best to to support him in the last in the final days. And that was insane. That was really insane. The family went through something really insane. So just shout out to my mom for being so strong. You know? And and she's struggling right now. You know? I'm not gonna share too much of this, but, you know, my mom is struggling. You know? She's middle aged. She's in her early, early fifties. She's widowed. You know? And throughout this whole even before my dad got cancer, she was going to school to be a counselor. You know? She was getting her degree, in in an entirely new field.
And, she she was working up with this new career, and then she had to, like, deal with this cancer bullshit, and then she had to, like, witness her husband die. It's like, what the fuck is this? Now I'm supposed to now she's supposed to help people in the community with her with their, like, relational issues. Like, she's dealing with so much more stuff than anyone can ever imagine. And a lot of it's bullshit, and I'm trying to be there for her, and I encourage her to just keep sharing her light. Light. You know? And the good thing is that she's honest when she messes up, and that's the only way that we can ever get through life. You know? My mom is showing me that, like, in these dark times, like, who you are, who how you show up to yourself and your immediate family in the worst moment of your life is who you truly are.
And I've seen my mom apologize for mistakes that she's made within this time. You know? And I've seen my mom make an effort to be the best version of herself in this time. And, you know, she's not perfect. You know? No human is perfect, but she's certainly trying, and I believe that. You know? I see that in her, and I love that about her. And so just shout out to you, mom. I just love you so much. I believe in your power. I believe that you are strong, and I believe that you are capable of being equal. I I believe that you are equal to this challenge in front of you, mom. I truly do. You know, I wish I had, like I didn't write anything out. This is all this is all just, like, at the top of my head, you know, but I don't have, like, a sprawling speech from Gladiator for my mom. I don't have some I don't I don't have this. I just it's love in my heart, and I do my best to share the love of my the love in my heart to my mom.
So just right now, take a moment, take a breath, and maybe just, like, think about your heart. Think about compassion in your heart. Think about the love in your heart, the gratitude in your heart, and to just send that out to your mom. You know? We're just gonna take ten seconds. You know? Just nasty ass booger. Okay. Thank you, mom. Thank you, mom. Thank you so much, mom. Thank you so much. Thank you. Shout out to mom, y'all. I love you so much, mom. Yeah, dude. So that yeah. That's everything I got, dude. Like, what do you think about your mom? Do you love your mom? Is your mom worthy of praise? I hope she is.
I also have a friend whose mom, you know, gave him up for adoption, and that's a little tough. You know? But him and I were talking about it today, and I was like, you know you know, man, like, maybe if you were able to have your mom's perspective when all that negative stuff was going on, maybe you would understand. And he was like, yeah. You know what? I would. I really would. I'd like, I know I would. And so I'm thankful for that as well. I'm thankful that I have, like, people in my life who are, like, capable of looking at different perspectives. You know? So what is your perspective? I wanna hear your perspective. I wanna hear your value. Yeah. America Plus is a value for value show, dude. We're gonna go into the value for value section of the podcast.
Value for value means that, I just come on my show. I come on my feed, and I do my best to share what I think is important for the world and just, like, conversations like this, you know, and you're able to reciprocate the value. If you're getting any value in this right now, please send that value right back to me in the form of time, talent, treasure. If you're on YouTube or Twitter, you know, give me a like, give me a subscribe, a follow, a retweet, you know, comment down below. I wanna know what you have to say about your mom. And then the treasure portion is you can support me on a on an app called Fountain. Go to value4value.info
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is a modern podcasting app that lets you send small bits of Bitcoin to your favorite podcasters. You're using Bitcoin as a currency with this app, which is really cool and important in my opinion. And, I got a couple boostograms to to read out. This first one comes in from at p at pies. What up, pies? He sends in his usual 100 Satoshis, and, he just has to say he he sends in one emoji. He sends in, like, the beers the beers cheering emoji with 100 Satoshis. Thank you so much, Pies. Boost. Thank you very much, Pies. And he sends in another hundred and a and a beer clashing on on another episode a couple weeks ago. So thank you so much, Pies. Shout out to Pies. Be a part of this crew, y'all.
I got another boost to grandma I wanna read out. So this guy was actually streaming sats. That's the cool thing about modern podcast apps. You can stream money while you listen, and then when you hit pause, it stops. When you hit play, it goes. So he this guy was streaming me money. So shout out to Dreb Scott, man. Dreb Scott, he does the chapters for Adam Curry's podcast. Adam Curry is the inventor of podcasting. So I'm like, dude, I'm I'm, like, right next to to Adam Curry, dude. I'm, like, half a degree away from Adam Curry. I'm an email away from Adam Curry, which is pretty fucking cool. Anyway, Drep Scott. He sends in a boost to gram, and he sends in, I wasn't able to get the full amount because of the way that the splits are, but I'm reading 12 o nine, one thousand two hundred and nine SATs. It was probably more. It's probably, like, 1,300 or something like that or 1,500 maybe.
He sends in over 1,000. The 1,209 sats from Drep Scott. And what he has to say is and this is from last week. He says, enjoyed your thoughts on Trump and Hollywood. Thank you, sir. Boosting is loving. And now as the French say, it is time for Le Boost. Drap, thank you so much for vibing with me on my take on Trump. I think, Trump's a good guy, and, there's nothing you can do to make me think different. What what, so that's the value, guys. Shout out to all those people who wanna donate via Value for Value. Value for Value is the future of engaging with your favorite content online. Get involved with it. Value for Value is how you engage with your community. Barter, trade, share. This is value. And so I just wanna I just wanna exchanging that value myself with you right now. So yeah, another cool thing about value for value as we wrap up this episode, this shorter episode, is I always play a value for value song.
This song is coming in from an artist I've played on the show before. His name's Ollie. His music is really cool, like, modern, lo fi, hip hop type type sounds. He's really good. The cool thing about this is that I because I'm playing him on my podcast, I'm giving him a 90% split of your Satoshi donation. So as soon as the song plays and you feel like giving me giving us some Satoshis, 90 percent of that donation is going to this musician. And, yeah. That's value for value, man. So without further ado, this is all this is, In Between by Ollie.
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Yeah. I feel like I woke up from a dream somewhere in I'm the I'm gonna be a little bit more than I thought. I'm gonna be a little bit more than I thought. I'm gonna be a little bit more than I thought. I'm gonna be a little bit more than I thought. I'm gonna be a little bit more than I thought. I'm gonna be a little bit more than I thought. I'm gonna be a little bit more than I thought. I'm gonna be a little bit more than I thought. I
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