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In this heartfelt episode of AMERICAPLUS, I share a personal journey of transformation and growth following the passing of my father. As I navigate through grief, I discuss the changes I'm making in my life, including a new podcast schedule and exciting projects on the horizon. AMERICAPLUS will now be released every other week, allowing me to focus on creating more meaningful and authentic content. I'm excited to announce a new video project called Podcast Normie, where I'll be creating promotional content for Podhome, a podcast hosting service. This project is a step towards expanding my creative expression and reaching a broader audience.

[00:00:03] Cole McCormick:

It's Sunday, September 15th,   9:18 in the PM. What's going on, everybody? It's Sunday.   Another beautiful episode of America Plus, folks. Welcome 1 and all.   Everyone,   we got a,   just welcome to another beautiful episode of my life and, and this podcast.   I wanna start out hang on. Let me move this.   Something on the ground. Sorry.   This week, I just wanna give everyone an update on the new schedule going forward for at least the remainder of the year.   Excuse me. I just had dinner.   So we got some things to change up. There's, like, a new a new breath of life. A new life is beginning   ever since my father's death, and I'm still grieving.  

And I'm unwilling to continue doing what I have been doing   in regards to how I produce the podcast, in regards to how I live my life, in regards to how   just like my my own personal patterns   of consuming,   and and just and watching things, and just, like,   I'm changing. I'm starting with the man in the mirror. Okay? Like, this this whole moment in my life, this era   in my life is me   deciding to change. Me   choosing to go after it, and me choosing to not be held down   by anything, whether that be doubt,   or sadness,   or disbelief,   I   cannot   do that   anymore.  

So I'm in this new mode, and   I'm working on new projects, which is really cool.   I'm sort of trying to do my best to   get to my   highest self, to be the best version of myself.   And so this podcast, like,   America Plus is the expression of that, but   I can't just be, like I I never wanna be hokey with it, and I feel like if I do it   every week,   right now, in this moment,   it just wouldn't be authentic. And   and so I think the new schedule is gonna be every other week.   So I just so you know. Just every other week, every other Sunday.   So there won't be a show next week, but the week after that. Okay? So moving forward, it's every other week.  

And,   with that,   since it's every other week, I will continue to   make the podcast better. You know? I've been talking about phase 2. I've been talking about how the podcast evolves,   and I can confidently say that   that is moving forward. And   I want the podcast to be more conversational. I want more conversations   to be on this feed.   The last episode was a great example of that. I got to talk to talk to Kyren, and that was a really good time.   So I'm reaching out to people to talk with, and this is gonna be   a mix of,   like, online talks and in person talks,   and   it's gonna be be my friends and people I think are inspiring, and,   just people who I think will bring value to the concept of America Plus,   Creating a more beautiful world our hearts know is possible   who   might be aligned with that   who has a positive mindset who is building who is innovating   who is   thinking and trying to be better.  

These are important things to talk about.   It's funny. When I think about podcasting, when I think about being successful with a podcast,   you know, so many people go to YouTube for this. So many people go to YouTube to figure out, like, okay. What are the most popular podcasts? And I'm gonna do that.   And I see all these people talking to each other. You know, there's all these interview shows,   and they're just so fucking boring most of the time. Unless it's someone that I really, like, am interested in, or it's a topic that I'm really into.   But   all these different people,   like, I'm and this is from, like, just, like, general, like, the Joe Rogan clones,   and, like, the health people,   and the political people, like, it's almost like everyone is doing the same old bullshit.  

And So I want to differentiate myself from this like I don't want to just talk to anyone I don't want to try to be Joe rogan   I'm not going to try   to be the top of the YouTube algorithm   you know, I really   want to talk about what I think is important. And what I think is important is   whatever the person   in front of me   whatever that person person's perspective is. I want to get I want to talk to that person's perspective.   I wanna understand how they're thinking   and feeling,   and how they approach their lives.   And so and, you know,   also with whatever other topic that they're passionate about. I just wanna hear about that. I wanna talk about that, and maybe that can help people.  

And so that's just that's what's happening, and so I'm lining up people right now. I've been recording episodes.   I've been recording things,   and,   with that,   even the   even though the America Plus podcast is going to every other week,   I'm not, like, not doing anything.   I'm working on a new project, on a new video project, along with building up America Plus.   This new video project is really exciting.   It was something that that has been on my mind for a few months, and something I just didn't really execute,   because   I had the idea, like, right around when my dad was getting sicker and sicker, so it was just like this, like, oh, yeah. Let me this would be a cool idea, and then I gotta, like, start crying for every other night   because of my dad. So now I'm able to focus on this new project, and I actually reached out to the person that it's relevant to. And so, I guess I can announce it, like, it's just like it's not even that big of a deal, like, I'm I'm so I'm doing promotional videos   for Pod Home, which is pretty cool. Pod Home is my podcast hosting service.  

Barry is this founder and CEO. I've had him on the podcast. He's really cool. Him and I just clicked. We just clicked. I don't know why. Me and Barry,   I don't know. Something about us. Something about Barry.   There's something about Barry, dude.   I just like the guy, and I think he likes me. I think we're cool.   And I reached out to him, and I was like, hey, man. I got this idea, like, I wanna make videos for Podhome. Home. I wanna be, like, the influencer for Pod Home. Can I do this for you? Like, I really wanna do this.   And he was really into the idea, and now,   like, in an official way, I'm low key getting paid to to promote   Pod Home, which is really cool. So shout out to Barry,   and I'm focused on this. Like, this is a new project that I have every intention of completing,   and I bought a freaking whiteboard off of Facebook Marketplace   for these videos.  

And   so I,   I wanna I want these videos to be, like, low tech a little bit. Like, it's gonna be a mix of low tech, me standing in front of a whiteboard, maybe writing some things down,   giving my spiel, and then I wanna, like, splice in some different,   sections of different conversations   that I've had. So the future episodes of America Plus,   clips of those episodes will be in   these new videos,   on this new YouTube channel that I made. So this whole video project I'm doing, it's on this new YouTube channel called Podcast   Normie.  

And the whole idea is just, like, I'm talking about   podcasting   to a completely normal person. Like, just literally just a person who doesn't know   anything about it, and I'm just gonna pitch them Podhome. Like, you need to get Podhome, because it is the most modern podcast site. It's super easy to use, and it gives you all these different features. You can play music,   and, like like, there's, like, something there.   So and I'm speaking to the normie. I'm speaking to the common man.   So I think that's a good idea.   So looking for that. Subscribe to that. It's linked down below in the chapter and the show notes. Podcast Normie on on YouTube.  

And I think I'll put out these videos, on my on my ex as well, on my Twitter profile.   I'm putting   I'm trying to do more video on Twitter as well.   So if you wanna see that, if you wanna be a part of that, reach out to me. If you wanna help out, or if you wanna maybe   give   like, shine   light on something that you think is important in in regards to podcasting.   I've already spoken to Kyren again   about it. He's talking about his own little thing.   We're talking about live streaming with him. You know, I'm reaching out to other people. We'll see if these other people get back to me.   I would love to speak with Adam Curry. I would love to speak with, Dave Jones. I would love to speak with,   maybe Chris Fischer. You know, I only had a brief interaction with Chris Fischer on some random Zoom. I don't even know what it was. It was like some or something for fountain. We're on like some zoom for fountain.  

But I would like to talk to Chris Fischer more,   and I really just wanna hype up Podhome. So shout out to Podhome. Subscribe to that YouTube channel,   and, you know, that's what I'm working on. I'm working on these videos, and I'm working on being a better version of myself. I'm   drinking less. I'm smoking less. I'm looking at less porn, and I'm just being totally open about all that. Like, just and not to say I'm it was, like, consuming my life. Like, I'm just, you know, I just gotta do less. I need less of it. I don't need it.   It's so funny. So this year has been, like, the year of me, like, slowing down on weed. You know? Slowing down on consuming things.  

I took 3 months off of the of the devil's cannabis, of the devil's cabbage. What do you call it? The devil's lettuce?   Don't wanna do anything involved with the devil. Like, why would I wanna do that? Can we just stop calling it that?   I I I took 3 months off, and I felt really good, and and then I picked it back up again,   and I felt okay. Like, I didn't feel bad.   And, during my dad's death, and afterwards, like like, just the whole month of August, you know, it's me and my sisters are just smoking. You know, we're just smoking.   Like, we're on the vapes, I'm on the bong, and it's like we're sad, and we're lonely, like we're, like, we're grieving. It's a very weird time, and, you know, we're drinking and we're partying. We're trying to celebrate the life, and then we're also sad at the same time. So, like, we're partying, but then we're sad, and   and then we're just drinking more. And it's just   this whole thing is just a mess.  

And, towards the end of the month, I really had this sense. Like, I was straight up okay. So here's something crazy. I wanna talk about something   a bit   spooky.   Okay?   There have been some   low key   spooky things happening   to me since my father's passing.   And I have 2 stories for you. Okay?   One of them is about my consumption. The this first story though but before I get to that story, this first story   is about   my dad's soul. I think my dad's soul. Okay? So get ready for this. Okay. So this is   it's like the day after my dad dies. Okay? And I'm, like, sad, and I'm, like, you know, like, it's peak grieving, dude. Like, it's peak shock,   and   I'm already having a spiritual experience right like like and   to preference all of this like everything I do and I guess I'm just like admitting this more and more to myself I'm like discovering more everything I do   is because of a spiritual reason   Like, it's because my spirit needs to do it.  

And, like, the podcast, my spirit needs to do the podcast   work. I really believe,   like, I'm supposed to be at this job for a certain amount of time, you know? Like, that's how I think. Like, this is   perfect for my life. This is, like, this is this aligns with my spirit right now.   And so my dad's death, you know, it's been incredibly spiritual for me. It's been a hell of a journey.   And   that first day after he died, you know, I I'm just, like, I'm feeling all of it, you know, and I'm going in and out of emotion.   And   there was this moment where I'm home alone,   and I was eating some food,   and I was at the I was at the, the table in the kitchen,   and   my family has 2 dogs. Right? I got one dog on my left, just laying on the laying on top of the couch, and then I got this other dog to my right, who's sort of laying by the kitchen, and I'm in the middle   at the table.  

And as I'm eating, I'm just thinking about my dad. I'm just thinking about everything. You know? It's just it's just swirling all around me.   And   all of a sudden, like like, I was already emotional, and I was sort of crying,   but then I I feel this   immense,   like, pressure   in my chest, and it's, like, pressure and emotion,   and it's, like, squeezing my heart. It's like,   and I'm like,   oh, and I'm like, like, it's like I'm crying immensely. I'm trying to   and I   I don't wanna, like, scream in the house, so I'm just sorta, like, silently   crying   extremely heavily   while I'm eating eggs.  

Like, like, I'm, like, dry heaving, crying.   We'll try not to make a scene.   And I'm like feeling   sadness and love and everything   and then next thing I know I'm I feel this pressure   leave my body   and it's and it's like leaving through my left shoulder   Like, I feel it move from my heart and chest   up through my shoulder and away from me. Like, that's something that I literally felt.   And as soon as I felt it leaving my shoulder, like, the instant that I felt it, like, leaving my shoulder,   the dog on my left,   she just, like, sits up real quick. She says growl.   And she's just, like, she's she's not, like,   barking. You know? Like, usually when someone's at the door, they're, like, barking really loud.  

But this   this was just, like, a really, like, focused   and she's looking, like, above me. She's looking above my shoulder,   and I and and that's when I realized, like, oh my god. Like, that like, whatever I just felt is, like, a like, it's by my shoulder right now, and there's   and my dog's head slowly turns,   and   it's it's it's like she's, like, following   something. She's looking at something.   And then next thing I know, the dog on my right by the kitchen, she stands up. She's and she starts growling.   And both of these dogs are, like it it can seem as if they're looking at each other, but they're looking   at something that's in between them. And they're both just   and I'm sitting there quietly eating my eggs, and my eyes are just moving back and forth, left to right, left to right. I'm like, is this seriously happening right now? Are these dog what are these dogs growling at?  

And they move, and   their heads moved, and whatever they were looking at, it, like, it it was behind me, and then it, like, moved in front of me, in front of the table.   And, like, I saw their heads,   like, almost in sync looking at this thing.   And, like, and   I wasn't crying anymore. Like, when the energy left me, I, like, dropped all of my emotion, and I became calm.   And that's when I was like, what is going on? What are these dogs growling at? What is going on?   And they're growling on.   And next thing I know, they just stop.   And I go, woah.  

What   was that?   Was that really my dad's soul?   That was something.   Like, I   I I now,   of course, I have no proof.   I have no scientific method to prove this, the existence of a soul,   but I promise   you it's real.   Like, this is so radically real. Like, I don't know   who needs to hear this, but you need to know that souls are physical, dude. Souls are physical. They're real things.   And I'm pretty sure my dad was, like, giving me a hug or something. He was squeezing my heart   and   and and the dogs didn't know what the fuck was going on.   And it was crazy.  

And that and and that really blew my mind. I was like, woah.   And so that's been, like, sort of, like, a revelation, or it's been, like it was just a really surreal experience, and and it was super real.   And I sort of just like let that be you know and my mom has had experiences   similar   to that  

[00:17:52] Unknown:

and weeks go by excuse me  

[00:17:55] Cole McCormick:

weeks go by   and I continue to grieve, and   I had gone out with a buddy of mine that I hadn't seen in a couple years. I had known this this guy since I was 5 years old. We've been best friends for a long time,   but we hadn't spoken to each other in 2 years. He didn't know about my dad. He only recently found out about everything, and   and so he he wanted to meet up. I was super down for that. We had a great night. We had a drunken night. We went out to the bars in Arizona.   We were out in Gilbert, Arizona, and we got we were taking tequila shots, I was having a few Moscow mules, we're eating dinner,   playing darts,   it was a really fun time,   and I come home,   and the next morning, you know, I have a headache. I'm a little hungover.  

Like, wow. Like, that was, like like and and that's a night that I don't usually have. Like, that's not a common thing. Like, I might have a few drinks. Like, any other time when you hear me drink,   I might have I might have a few drinks and I might get a little tipsy, but, like,   this particular night with my buddy, like, that was like, that, like, maxed out. Like, I maxed out. Okay?   And coming home, I was, like, alright. That's just probably not a good idea. I probably shouldn't do this again.   And the next morning, I have a headache, and I do my Wim Hof breathing to try to get rid of it. It sort of goes away, not really, and   and   luckily I've been in this like,   rhythm of of meditating in the morning and I felt like meditating  

[00:19:25] Unknown:

and so   I  

[00:19:28] Cole McCormick:

I'm in my room and the lights are off and I get myself comfy I got my pillows   like in the right areas, and   and my meditation is very specific. Okay? So   this next story. Okay? So this is   I need to preference this by my meditation, and my thoughts   are usually, like, extremely focused about, like, gratitude, and love, and my heart. Like, I'm putting attention   on my physical heart while I try to conjure up the emotions of love, and gratitude, and peace.   And   as soon as my meditation begun   I started like seeing words in my mind   like it was like a rolodex   of words, like, flipping through my mind, like   and I could, like, see these words and phrases.  

And these words and phrases   were,   things like,   you need to slow down on drinking, slow down on weed, slow down on porn, you need to consume less of these things. You're blocking yourself. You're blocking chakras. You're blocking your body. You're blocking your spirit. Slow down on these things. Slow down on these things. Once you slow down, you'll have answers. Once you slow down, you're gonna have the answers. Once you figure out, once you clear yourself out, you're gonna have whatever answer you need. Whatever answer you're looking for, you're gonna find it. Just clear yourself out. You're gonna find it. And it was like   and I took a moment,   and I was like, woah. Is this really happening? I was like, what is this what are these words happening? Like, am I thinking these things? And I literally had it. I I did my best to, like, step back. I tried to, like, step back away from my consciousness,   and I asked myself,   am I thinking these words right now?  

And then I said to myself,   no. These are not my thoughts.   I be because I always second guess my thoughts,   and these words seem pretty firm.   Like, the words that were, like, appearing in my mind were, like,   objective   reality.   Like, there is no arguing it. It was just you're blocking yourself. You need to, like, stop it. You need to slow down slow down slow down to even stop slow down to even stop. Like you   just like over and over and over and over like the answers you're seeking will come to you once you slow down   I   was like woah is this real   and I I feel like I'm like butchering what was going on with it but   I was receiving   words.  

And it wasn't a voice. I did not hear a voice.   It was specifically,   like, words that I saw in my mind,   and   I listened to it. Like, I believe   it. I believed it.   And in that moment, I was like, okay. Like, like, first of all, what a concept. When I start drinking and smoking, then all of my spiritual   questions will be answered?   Wow.   Like, that's a great idea. Like, whoever who came up with that one?   And so   I I think it's wise, and I think it was correct.   And after that moment, I decided to It's like, okay,   that's the most clear thing that will ever happen to me. I've had   these two things, like   feeling this energy in my chest, and watching my dogs growl at something invisible,   and then having these words come to me   during this   particular moment, it was like,   this is something different.  

And there was just a very clear   it was just spoken to me very clearly.   And so it was I think that was towards the end of August, or like early September,   and You know, I just take it as real. So I'm just gonna believe that,   and I move forward with that. And so it's been a few days. It's been, like, a week. You know? I will be honest.   I did smoke some weed today. Not in my home, though. It was like I was invited to smoke weed. So it wasn't like I was, like, begging for it, and I wasn't, like, hiding   it. You know?   And this is all just like a journey. You know? This is every day is, like, every day is a new day. Every moment is a new moment, and I'm learning more about myself. And so,   you know, I'm not smoking weed as much. I definitely don't wanna drink at all. And   the porn thing, like,   that's just cultural. Like, I gotta just, like, be I get I need to break away from the culture of that. Like, that's, like, people get sucked into that. Like, it's not just a habit. You know? It's like   you sort of get sucked into these thoughts of, like, it's normal. It's natural. It's like it's self expression. It's like, I know people who do it. Okay? It's totally fine.  

But then it's like, nah.   Not really.   Ain't that funny how you can, like, do something that you know is not healthy?   When it's like it it it's like, no. This isn't good for me. It's but I still want to.   But   I digress.   So   maybe I'm just asking for encouragement, man. I'm looking for,   the America Plus community to just rally around, like, pray for me.   I am becoming my best self, and I want you to be your best self.   And America Plus will always be   an expression of that, of seeking that.   And I believe   I'm on that path,   and   I wanna be the best version of myself.  

You know? I wanna be the man in the mirror. You know? I'm starting   I'm startin' with the man in the mirror.   Like, I've been on this Michael Jackson kick, and,   you know, Michael Jackson was really talking about some real shit. Like,   Michael Jackson was special, dude. Like, he was a special soul.   Like, he's fully innocent too. I don't believe any of the bullshit that that the media said about him. Like, he's fully innocent,   and MJ had a message of peace, and love, and   change, and, like, it's just real. You know? I just feel it. I feel it when I hear the music, and I feel inspired   to change.  

And,   you know, I wish I had a little bow tie for this, but that's just how I feel, and that's what's going on. So   long story short,   I've had some spiritual experiences, and that is influencing   my current life,   and I will be acting accordingly   to these things.   So if you're into it, stick around. Subscribe to the Podcast Normie YouTube channel to watch those promotional videos,   and stick around to   well, stick around with this feed, and hear some more conversations.   And just get ready   to just get ready to watch me, like,   be a shining light on the world, dude. Like,   I'm really going places, guys. Like, this is me. I'm in my kitchen right now in North Hollywood. This is, like, some slim shady shit. I'm in some fucking this is, like, some Elvis shit. I'm in the fucking   like, I'm in like, Elvis grew up in the hood. You know? Like, Eminem grew up in Detroit. Like, I like, I'm in North Hollywood, dude. Like, my dad's dead.  

Like, this is it. Like, this is this is how we do it. This is how we do it. This is how the story unfolds, bro.   Like,   it's sad.   It's hard. It's difficult. I need to take a lot of responsibility.   I need to, like, you know,   I need to make my own bed. Of course I do, but, you know, it's it's that responsibility   thing.   And   I feel equipped, you know, I got this little chip on my shoulder, you know? Like,   this,   this week was my 1st week back at work   since I left to help my dad, and   and going into this week of work, I felt like I was like, you know what? Like, I got, like I feel like I got a chip on my shoulder. Like, no one's no one's gone no no one's dealt with what I dealt with, man. Like, get away from me. Like like, I just wanna get my work done. Like, I just wanna, like, chop chop chop. I just wanna go for it. Just, like, get out, and if anyone's in my way, get out of my way. Like, I'm at the you you ever see that Joe Rogan meme where he's talking about how he's gonna, like, elbow you? Like, I just have so much power, like,   you know, one of those things. Like, that's how I feel right now. That's how I feel right now with my dreams. Like, I'm just like, I'm about to go after this. You wanna oh, you wanna you say I can't you doubt me like, like, my dad believed in me.  

Like,   I will destroy you.   I just wanna punch something, bro. I need more vigorous exercise. That's what I need. Maybe that's all I need. I just need more vigorous exercise, and then I'll be calmer. I don't I won't have a chip on my shoulder as much.   But,   you know, it like, if you know how I feel, man, I got this energy on my chest. It's just I just wanna fuck. Just   like, I wanna   you know how I feel, man? Does anyone know how I feel?   Feel like a freaking moth. I feel like an ape. I'm a monster.   I'm an animal.   I'm not recording the freaking video. I should be recording the video. I didn't. I don't know why I didn't hit recording the video, but   whatever, dude.  

But yeah, man. That's, that that's where I'm at right now. New schedule, new new vibes, new times,   and,   I'm going for it, folks. I don't wanna play a song this week. Not the vibe,   but   yeah, whatever. I love you so much.   Pray for me.   Be better. If you need to change,   you should change.   Look into your heart. Put attention on your heart, and then you will clearly see   what you need to change to have a brighter life.   I love you so much, and I believe in you, brother. I believe in you, sister.   Let's lift up Earth. Let's lift up human consciousness.   The spirit of humanity   is rising,   and it's happening now with your personal choice   and my personal choice.  

You have that power in you.   Let's bring it together. Come on now. Come on. Come and get an amen.   Amen. Come on.   Alright.   That's America Plus, bitch. Stay free.