In this episode, Cole shares updates on his father's battle with cancer and his personal journey of quitting weed. He emphasizes the importance of choosing love and aligning the mind and heart for a better life.
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Cole McCormick:
Another day, another dollar. What's up, everyone? It's America Plus. I'm your host, Cole McCormick. It's another week another episode. What's going on, everybody? It's Sunday February 4th. That's 9:36 in the PM. What's going on, everybody? Happy to be here. What's going on? What's up, people? Vokes, welcome to America Plus. It's another beautiful week to be alive. The sun is it's set already. It's night Time right now. I had work today. I had to wait to record, because I had a shift in the kitchen. Had to chop some potatoes, had to portion some brussels, and, we got through it. We made everything we needed to make, and we messed up on some recipes, but it's okay.
We just got some glares. It's okay. No no no biggie. No fights. Nothing crazy. My manager didn't, tell me to worship Hades this week, so so that's a plus. Right. This is, the this week is gonna be an update week. I got some updates for you. It's been a really good week. It's been a really positive week, and I'm coming to you with loving energy. And, we're just gonna vibe here folks. Pretty much what I wanna start off with guys, update on my father. Update on my dad and his cancer. I got a text message from my mom a couple days ago, and we were expecting him to get, another full body scan, another CT scan, of of his body, and I got a lovely text message from my mom. I'm I'm gonna be reading it right now. Let me just pull it up. It's on your modern podcasting app, FYI, if you didn't know that, I got the photo up right now.
Why can't I find the text messages? Literally I was literally planning. Here we go. I got this text from my mom, And this this filled me with joy. She says, good news to report. Dad's liver, bone, Colon and lymph cancer is still shrinking and no new cancer. Yes. No new cancer. Tumors are stable. They are moving him to the oral chemotherapy in about a week. So he's out of the crisis aspect, and now focusing on keeping him out of distress, Pain and quality of life maintained. Surgery is not on the table. Still stage 4, but stable. Love you kids so much.
And, yeah. I just want a round of applause for my dad. Strong motherfucker. Strong guy there. Strong man on Earth. Guys, this is, that's just good news, man. Like, we're just celebrating that. You know, at this point, you know, it's all it's almost coming up to a year that my dad was told that he has that he has cancer, and It it still doesn't feel real. Like, I know it's real. I talk about it with him all the time. Like, it's a it's a normal thing, Like, in terms of the conversations in the family, you know, but it still feels surreal, you know. It it it's so strange to say these sort of, Like these words about about my family member. You know? It's, you never think that you have to say these things, but I'm happy to be able to report that It's a good time right now, and he and his tumors continues continue to shrink. He continues to heal, and we're just in a new phase. We're in a new phase of this journey, you know.
Definitely out of the crisis mode, you know. I'm thankful for that. Just being thankful. And so the message I have the narrative I have for this week is for you to look at your own life, for you to look at your own family, and just figure out, Like, just just see what can be grateful, man. Just see what is what what can you be grateful for right now? I've been really practicing that, and just going through ebbs and flows, dude. Just going through a bunch of ebbs and flows, especially with The other update I have is it's been a week, or a little bit over a week of no marijuana, no weed for Coli, And I just want to tell you my experience with that.
First of all, I everyone I've told has been super supportive. So just shout out to all of my friends at work. Shout out to Miguel. Shout out to Matt and John. Shout out to my dad. Shout out to everyone. Shout out to Shannon. Shout out to Shannon. Thank you, Shannon, for for supporting me in this. It's it's funny how weed has this, like, Culture of, like, oh, you shouldn't smoke weed, but then every time every time someone in your group is smoking, like, no one really cares. You know, like, it's like this cultural, like, don't do it, but then there's also like a subculture. Okay. It's fine. Just do it in at any time. And and people get used to it. People get used to weed.
It's it's a drug that people just just got used to. And, when I told my dad, he was, like, wow. Cool. That's a that's a really big deal. Cool. Like like, I'm with you. I'll be praying for you. I'm like, thank you, dad. And him and I were able to have a good conversation, of just like Mentality. The mentality of things. How everything in life is mental, and that's something that He's been working through. It's something that he's been realizing throughout this journey of cancer, and for me, quitting weed, I've been going through a lot of, like, different, like, mind shit. You know? I've been like irritable throughout the week, but I'm over this hump. I got over this Irritable hump.
You know, people might wanna say some people on YouTube might say withdrawals. You're gonna have a withdrawal symptom from marijuana. Like, that's just I'm I wanna just say all these bullshit things. Like like, if you say you're going through a withdrawal of marijuana, like, it's not a dude. You're just like upset for a day. Like, I I I I'm really unwilling to say it was it's it's an addiction because I'm just not going through anything any alcoholic is going through, any Adderall person is going through, any pain med person is going through. Like, Quitting weed is probably the easiest thing to freaking do, and I was like, I'm happy it's my drug of choice.
It's my drug of non choice, I should say. But it has been interesting. You know, I have done tolerance breaks before, but, You know, this one is, like, it's not a tolerance break. It's a, like, I'm not gonna do it for a minute. And I was going through waves, like, every there's, like, 3 or 4 nights in a row where I was feeling irritable and, like, just pissed off at 8:30 at night. 8:30 is, like, usually when I smoke, like, my last bowl of my bong. And so I think my body was, Like, my body would be able to go through the whole day with with no weed, but, like, I it was there was definitely a routine of 8:30, 9 o'clock. Like, you're definitely getting high here, and when that time didn't come about, it was just like Like I felt squirmy, you know, I feel like, I also felt like like heavy. I felt like, I felt I felt It's like, I just don't wanna do anything, or, like, I don't wanna talk to anyone, but I wanna yell at everyone.
Well, a lot of these very extreme polarities of of, of moods. I wanna say mood swings, but, like, I I would I would feel sad for, like, an hour. And then, like, that hour would pass, and then I would I would be okay. So it's been fun, dude. It's been fun going through that, and I'm not on that anymore. I've definitely gotten through that, so I'm grateful. And now I'm able to really experiment. Now I'm really able to have fun with this thing, because I feel good. I feel better. I feel clear. I feel like I'm funnier. Honestly, last night, my girl and I were watching, Fail Army? Anybody here watch Fail Army?
Just to just to turn your mind off for a little bit, or just have some fun? And, I was just I I had the jokes, dude. Like, I was I was snapping. I was I was quick with the lines, man. And I was making Shannon laugh just more than usual, and, I was happy. I was, I was feeling good, dude, so I feel like I could write a whole comedy movie Right now, I feel like I feel like I could write a peak 2,004 comedy film starring Will Ferrell right now. I could do it if I chose to. Does anyone else feel like a superhero when when you're not under the influence of something? Or some people feel like a superhero when they are under the influence. You know? Something funny happened today. Speaking of drugs, I'm in the kitchen. Right? And my buddy, John, John's like 58.
Okay? Like he's like he's an elder to my point of view, and he so long story short, John has a broken rib. Okay? And I'm working with John almost every day, and the reason he has a broken rib is because he got a massage last week, and he's been in He's been in a lot of pain since then. They straight up broke his rib, and he got the x-ray. He had it it's a hairline fracture in the back of his rib cage. And so throughout the day, he's just like, oh, dude. I'm in pain. Oh, I can't turn. I'm turning left to right hurts. I'm like, that's not good, John. That's so not cool, dude. And, I've said it before, the drug culture in the kitchen is flowing very well. Right? We've all seen these movies, like, we all know what's going on here. A lot of drugs, a lot of alcohol in the kitchen.
And John's a guy, he's doing his best to, like, get off of his own stuff. Right? And but he's in so much pain, like, he literally has a broken rib, and he he's, like, chopping parsley. You can't do it properly. And he's like, dude, I need a drink. And, I hear that and a little bell in my head goes off like, ding ding ding. And I remember a buddy of mine, a different friend in the kitchen, he always gives he always passes out, like, little shot glasses, low key, just passing out shot glasses, And, like, like, from from the convenience store. Right? And so I have, like, a mini collection of these shots, And I had one bottle, one one mini bottle in my bag, and it's been like weeks, and and I haven't gotten rid of this thing.
And every day it's been like, oh, I gotta get rid of this. I gotta get rid of this. And then John says this. He's like, man, dude. I need a drink. And I was like, oh. I have a drink. John, I have a drink. So maybe I enabled this man this this man's problem a little bit, but He this man was in pain. Like, I don't know what else to do, dude. Like, he needed something, and I had it. And I was like, follow me. Come with me. I got my bag, got the drink, gave it to him. He took it in the bathroom, and he was like, dude. So much so much better. It's like, phenomenal.
I'm happy for you, John. I'm happy I'm you're happy, I'm happy. Help me help you. You know? It's one of those things. Because when my when when your coworkers are happy, then your day at work is going a lot smoother. Right? Am I right? That was just a funny thing that happened, dude, and we're all just moving through shit, dude. We're all just moving through it. And, yeah, man. That's what it is, and I was talking to my dad. Getting back to my dad, we're talk him and I were having a conversation about the mentality of things. He was this is in the context of me telling him I'm not doing weed anymore.
I'm not doing the weed. And, he says, yeah. Throughout this whole thing with me having cancer, it's just been it's crazy how How much of your life is determined on your thoughts, and how much of it is really just mental? You just gotta get through it mentally, and that really aligned with a lot of stuff that I've been like absorbing the last few years, you know, I because I follow all these, like, longevity people. I follow I follow Aubrey Marcus. I follow Joe Rogan. I follow, motivational people, you know, and and everyone talks about the mind, you know, Joe Dispenza, you know, it's all about your thoughts. It's all about You're what's on the inside going on. You know?
And it's been it's a journey. It's a journey for my dad, and it's a journey for me, and That is just the ultimate It's one of the ultimate narratives for humanity. You know, the way you think determines your life, And if you're in a place that where you don't believe that, like, I don't know what else to tell you dude. Like, what else is there? Like, it's your thoughts And it's love. Your the thoughts that you have, and the love that you emit. Like, that is your life, and you need to do everything you can to Align those things, like and love comes from your heart. Right? So you gotta you gotta line up your mind and your heart, And that's and and that's how you have a good life, dude.
And it's becoming more and more real. More and more and more real. And so I just wanna encourage you right now to to just take a deep breath and and and to continue to align yourself no matter what's going on in the world or Or in your work, you know, last week I told this funny story of my manager telling me he literally wants people to die because Earth is overpopulated. And I responded to that, like, angrily. I responded to that in a really like, I was fearful. I responded to in a very fearful manner, and if you could if if real quick. My my, it's raining outside, and And my girlfriend's taking a bath. So if you hear any weird noises, it's water flowing. Just so you know. I'm not sure if you can hear that, but I can hear it in my headphones. Anyway, It's about the love in your in your body, man. It's about your thoughts, and It's really just time to hone in on this.
When it comes to my absorption of narratives online, I've taken a really conscious, a really conscious choice to move away from news, To move away from drama, to move away from things like, I don't know what else I'm supposed to do like, I I it's I'm I'm in this space right now where I am I'm rebalancing some things. I'm rebalancing my life. Which is my my internal life, I guess. And I'm getting really serious about what what is coming into me. What is a What am I absorbing? You know? And I'm I I've been trying to absorb more more of the Joe Dispenza, more of the inspirational, more of Just more information about souls.
You know, like there are books on souls, and, I don't wanna get too into it right now, but I I do wanna tell you about a book I'm reading. I'm reading a book, so this is all new, like, This book is like brand new to me, like, I I have no I had no idea going into it what it would be about, but I've heard this, author's name many times. This person's name is Dolores Cannon, and, I'm reading her book. It's called The 3 Waves of Volunteers and the New Earth, and I don't want to go too deep into it right now. I'm not even halfway through it. I'm really enjoying it, But pretty much, like, I'm just feeling connection of of souls, of love, and, Like, the the the the message the the message of love, the message of, of of your thoughts, of your perception, How you perceive things, like, that is so important, and I'm on this new wave of absorbing this type of information, and I'm getting a sense that I need to lean deeper into this type of narrative.
I don't have a clear vision for it yet, but, you know, it's, it's just serious. It's getting really serious. When it comes to America Plus, like, I want to have the the better narratives. The the narratives that build up a new beautiful world That our heart knows is possible. Like, that is the point of this, man. And so it's like the podcast is like part documentary, Part exploration, part message. You know, like, I'm trying to bring it. I'm trying to bring everything right here, and There's days when I don't feel it. There's days when I just don't feel that new world. There's days when I feel lost, and there's days when I feel sad, man.
Like a few days ago, dude, like, I if I can just be real real quick, a few days ago, I was, like, crying in my bed with Shannon. I was just and I just felt sad. I felt worried. I felt, you know, even though I got good news about my dad, you know, I was crying about my dad. I was sad about my dad. I feel Angst, and I feel it's it's like it's like there's like a 1000000 paths around me, you know, and I'm I'm looking around rapidly at all the paths, and it felt it feels overwhelming a lot of the time. And when it was happening, you know, I'm not really afraid to, like, cry. I'm not afraid to have emotions, you know, but I'm also not trying to cry.
But I'm wise enough at this age to just be okay with it. You know, I'm really not insecure about it, and so I was just letting myself feel that. Just letting myself just move through it. And I feel like a lot of other people are going through that, man. There's so many like, Earth is getting so real. Like, it may maybe it's just my age. Maybe I'm I'm just becoming more aware as a human, like and and nothing is really changing on Earth, But it seems like people are waking up. It seems like pea people are making big decisions for their life. You know, I'm I'm at that stage in my life where, if my Instagram already wasn't mothers and hoes, it's even more so. Mothers and hoes.
And then you got the mothers trying to b hoes. You know what I mean? It's, it it it's it's fascinating to see All the people that I grew up with, and like, what path are they choosing? It's inspiring dude, And I just I see the people who are choosing love, and the people who are choosing love are happier. They're just happier. And the key to that is choice. The key to that is choice, my friends. You need to choose love. Choose love for yourself, you know. You just need to. And if you if you're if you're not convinced, You know, there's a million perspectives that can justify denying that sort of idea.
The Christians, you know, a super fundamentalist Christian might say, like, oh, if you just have love, that's not enough. You need Jesus Christ. You need you, like, you need something more specific. You like, you need this religion. Or a scientist might say, like, that's ridiculous. Love is un like, there is no love. Like, love is something that you've love is love is chemicals. Love is nothing. Love is some human interpretation of brain chemicals, you know, and and whatever other perspectives in between those two things, you know. And I'm here, and I'm just experiencing life, and I swear to God, it's so much more simple than anyone has ever talked. Like, it's love. You need to choose love for your own body.
Choose love in your own actions. And every single moment that you're breathing, you have an opportunity To choose love, or you could choose the other thing. You could choose negativity. You could choose evil. You could choose Whatever dude. You can choose pettiness. You can choose ego. There's a the the there's a million different things to choose from, but I choose love, and I'm I pray that you choose love. Because as we move forward on earth, as time moves on, Love is the line. The line in the sand is love. You know what I mean?
I have been going down, I keep trying to, like, research more things about Jesus. I Keep trying to research more things about the Bible, and, I've been having a conversation with, Now here's the random thing. Here this is a random part of this week. I I posted something. As I just said, I posted about it on Facebook. Okay? And Facebook is where all the Christians are from my past from my past childhood, from my past life in Arizona. And, you know, I'm not posting, like, cliche Christian stuff. You know? I'm posting what I just said. And, a woman, a mother that I knew growing up, she decided to message me.
And, like, Ultimately, she was just looking for clarification, and, you know, she's also like a Christian. So she's trying to bring me to to her side, to the good side. And, you know, I'm just taking in her questions, and it was good, like, I'm reading what she's saying, and She's saying things like, the only way that you can be saved is if you believe in in the life, death, And rebirth and and resurrection of Jesus Christ. That's the only way. And I'm telling her, it's love. Are you kidding me? It's love. I literally know I I know that you didn't have an abortion when you were 17. You chose love.
You didn't choose Jesus when you got pregnant. My sister didn't choose Jesus when she was when she got knocked up by the drug addict. Like, she chose love, dude. She chose love. And maybe I that was super negative, dude. The but it it's it's the truth though. Like, it it it is my sister's life. It is It is like a woman's life. A lot of women that I know got knocked up by not good guys, and They they chose love. They didn't choose any other thing. They didn't choose religion. They didn't choose any other philosophy. They chose Love and moved forward in that, and their lives are so much happier. Their lives are better because of it.
And I and I'm telling this mother Who is who is messaging me, I tell her that, and I like to think that I got through to her. I like to think that, you know, She responded with me she responded to me saying, well, I can't argue against love. And I was, like, yeah. You can't. You really can't. Like, stop. Like, it's not complicated, man. Where I'm at in my faith, and maybe this episode is just about me, about my faith journey as well, I feel like I'm a soul having a human experience, and I have felt not At home or, like, as long as I can remember, I have not felt welcomed slash, like, In it for a very long time, like, when I was at church, I, like, I I grew up in church. Right? I taught kids About God. I I was following the the curriculum, but I I never felt connected in church.
But I always felt a connection with God or something. You know? Like, it's God's source. I felt a connection with my soul, And that world was never able to really describe it because when you're in the world of religion, when you're in the world of Christianity, It is very external. It's an external experience, like, you have to you you have to Accept something from the outside to come inside into your heart. Okay? And the information that I've been absorbing is, like, that's a twisted narrative. Like, you don't, like, beginning externally, like like so So the whole, like, narrative with Christians. Right? Is you have to accept Jesus into your heart. Okay?
And then Jesus is in is in your heart, and then you're saved, And then you go to heaven. And what I've been absorbing is it be like, Christ, like, Jesus, That Christ energy, that God energy is already in you. It is literally your soul. You wouldn't be alive If it wasn't for that. Like, at the moment of conception is literally when you become a human. Like, your soul goes into some cells, and if you don't believe in souls, like, okay. Like, that's your thing. Like, fine. But I believe in souls, And I have a soul, and I'm trying to dig deeper into my soul with this.
You know, weed was like, I'm beginning to realize that weed was just a very basic level of living. Just a very just I I don't think it helped me connect with my soul. Maybe it helped me relax a little bit, maybe it helped me In some areas, it definitely helped me think through some problems in a certain time period. We definitely served me in an era in my life, But I'm moving I I I'm currently in in a in a zone of my life where it just it just wasn't helping me, and it was actually Showing me more negativity. It was it was making me it it it it was like giving me An excuse to be still within negativity. Like, I was just focusing on negativity when I was high. Like, for the last, like, 6 months, I was, like, focusing maybe even more. I was focusing on, like, imaginary bullshit That was, like, harmful to my life.
And the this week of me not being high, Those thoughts, like, I I I might have had a thought like that, but that thought I'm able to just just Push away. Just blow that shit away, dude. I'm not focusing on that anymore. And I can be more conscious On loving thoughts and healing thoughts and, like, and just just better, just just more loving. And that's a real big deal to me, man. That's a real big deal to me. And of course, the mushrooms have been helping me, with that as well. I've been doing the microdose. I'm doing a microdose tomorrow. I was supposed to do it today, but I totally forgot.
I gotta maybe the weed's still affecting me, but I'm doing the microdose tomorrow, and I'm still really enjoying that, and I'm just excited to see where this thing goes, dude. I'm excited to see How much can I do? I never thought that I was lazy on weed. I I I always consider myself a productive stoner. You know, everyone at the dispensary, you know. Everyone everyone Whenever you go to a dispensary, Everyone there is going to say that they are a functioning, like, they are a productive stoner, and I'm like, sure. Like, that's probably real. Like, I'm sure you did your taxes, but like, are you really doing what you want? Are you doing the best thing that you can in your life? And, that that that's just my journey. That's just my personal journey.
I feel like it's getting easier for me to Come up with the energy to really go after it, and to come into my full highest self, the best version of myself. And, like, you're watching it right now, people. You're watching it right now. I feel clear. I feel happy, and I just wanna do my best. I wanna do my best. So yeah, man. That's pretty much it. That's that's pretty much what I got. That's the value I have. We're gonna head on into the value section, the boostagrams, everybody. If you didn't know, value for value, value for value is what America Plus runs on. By the way Boosting is loving. Yes, sir. And this one. Hang on. Go to value for value dot info for more info, then download the fountain dot f m app. It's the best way to support the show. Value for value is in whole it's the whole ecosystem that's running this podcast. Pretty much it's Time, Talent, and Treasure.
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Another day, another dollar. What's up, everyone? It's America Plus. I'm your host, Cole McCormick. It's another week another episode. What's going on, everybody? It's Sunday February 4th. That's 9:36 in the PM. What's going on, everybody? Happy to be here. What's going on? What's up, people? Vokes, welcome to America Plus. It's another beautiful week to be alive. The sun is it's set already. It's night Time right now. I had work today. I had to wait to record, because I had a shift in the kitchen. Had to chop some potatoes, had to portion some brussels, and, we got through it. We made everything we needed to make, and we messed up on some recipes, but it's okay.
We just got some glares. It's okay. No no no biggie. No fights. Nothing crazy. My manager didn't, tell me to worship Hades this week, so so that's a plus. Right. This is, the this week is gonna be an update week. I got some updates for you. It's been a really good week. It's been a really positive week, and I'm coming to you with loving energy. And, we're just gonna vibe here folks. Pretty much what I wanna start off with guys, update on my father. Update on my dad and his cancer. I got a text message from my mom a couple days ago, and we were expecting him to get, another full body scan, another CT scan, of of his body, and I got a lovely text message from my mom. I'm I'm gonna be reading it right now. Let me just pull it up. It's on your modern podcasting app, FYI, if you didn't know that, I got the photo up right now.
Why can't I find the text messages? Literally I was literally planning. Here we go. I got this text from my mom, And this this filled me with joy. She says, good news to report. Dad's liver, bone, Colon and lymph cancer is still shrinking and no new cancer. Yes. No new cancer. Tumors are stable. They are moving him to the oral chemotherapy in about a week. So he's out of the crisis aspect, and now focusing on keeping him out of distress, Pain and quality of life maintained. Surgery is not on the table. Still stage 4, but stable. Love you kids so much.
And, yeah. I just want a round of applause for my dad. Strong motherfucker. Strong guy there. Strong man on Earth. Guys, this is, that's just good news, man. Like, we're just celebrating that. You know, at this point, you know, it's all it's almost coming up to a year that my dad was told that he has that he has cancer, and It it still doesn't feel real. Like, I know it's real. I talk about it with him all the time. Like, it's a it's a normal thing, Like, in terms of the conversations in the family, you know, but it still feels surreal, you know. It it it's so strange to say these sort of, Like these words about about my family member. You know? It's, you never think that you have to say these things, but I'm happy to be able to report that It's a good time right now, and he and his tumors continues continue to shrink. He continues to heal, and we're just in a new phase. We're in a new phase of this journey, you know.
Definitely out of the crisis mode, you know. I'm thankful for that. Just being thankful. And so the message I have the narrative I have for this week is for you to look at your own life, for you to look at your own family, and just figure out, Like, just just see what can be grateful, man. Just see what is what what can you be grateful for right now? I've been really practicing that, and just going through ebbs and flows, dude. Just going through a bunch of ebbs and flows, especially with The other update I have is it's been a week, or a little bit over a week of no marijuana, no weed for Coli, And I just want to tell you my experience with that.
First of all, I everyone I've told has been super supportive. So just shout out to all of my friends at work. Shout out to Miguel. Shout out to Matt and John. Shout out to my dad. Shout out to everyone. Shout out to Shannon. Shout out to Shannon. Thank you, Shannon, for for supporting me in this. It's it's funny how weed has this, like, Culture of, like, oh, you shouldn't smoke weed, but then every time every time someone in your group is smoking, like, no one really cares. You know, like, it's like this cultural, like, don't do it, but then there's also like a subculture. Okay. It's fine. Just do it in at any time. And and people get used to it. People get used to weed.
It's it's a drug that people just just got used to. And, when I told my dad, he was, like, wow. Cool. That's a that's a really big deal. Cool. Like like, I'm with you. I'll be praying for you. I'm like, thank you, dad. And him and I were able to have a good conversation, of just like Mentality. The mentality of things. How everything in life is mental, and that's something that He's been working through. It's something that he's been realizing throughout this journey of cancer, and for me, quitting weed, I've been going through a lot of, like, different, like, mind shit. You know? I've been like irritable throughout the week, but I'm over this hump. I got over this Irritable hump.
You know, people might wanna say some people on YouTube might say withdrawals. You're gonna have a withdrawal symptom from marijuana. Like, that's just I'm I wanna just say all these bullshit things. Like like, if you say you're going through a withdrawal of marijuana, like, it's not a dude. You're just like upset for a day. Like, I I I I'm really unwilling to say it was it's it's an addiction because I'm just not going through anything any alcoholic is going through, any Adderall person is going through, any pain med person is going through. Like, Quitting weed is probably the easiest thing to freaking do, and I was like, I'm happy it's my drug of choice.
It's my drug of non choice, I should say. But it has been interesting. You know, I have done tolerance breaks before, but, You know, this one is, like, it's not a tolerance break. It's a, like, I'm not gonna do it for a minute. And I was going through waves, like, every there's, like, 3 or 4 nights in a row where I was feeling irritable and, like, just pissed off at 8:30 at night. 8:30 is, like, usually when I smoke, like, my last bowl of my bong. And so I think my body was, Like, my body would be able to go through the whole day with with no weed, but, like, I it was there was definitely a routine of 8:30, 9 o'clock. Like, you're definitely getting high here, and when that time didn't come about, it was just like Like I felt squirmy, you know, I feel like, I also felt like like heavy. I felt like, I felt I felt It's like, I just don't wanna do anything, or, like, I don't wanna talk to anyone, but I wanna yell at everyone.
Well, a lot of these very extreme polarities of of, of moods. I wanna say mood swings, but, like, I I would I would feel sad for, like, an hour. And then, like, that hour would pass, and then I would I would be okay. So it's been fun, dude. It's been fun going through that, and I'm not on that anymore. I've definitely gotten through that, so I'm grateful. And now I'm able to really experiment. Now I'm really able to have fun with this thing, because I feel good. I feel better. I feel clear. I feel like I'm funnier. Honestly, last night, my girl and I were watching, Fail Army? Anybody here watch Fail Army?
Just to just to turn your mind off for a little bit, or just have some fun? And, I was just I I had the jokes, dude. Like, I was I was snapping. I was I was quick with the lines, man. And I was making Shannon laugh just more than usual, and, I was happy. I was, I was feeling good, dude, so I feel like I could write a whole comedy movie Right now, I feel like I feel like I could write a peak 2,004 comedy film starring Will Ferrell right now. I could do it if I chose to. Does anyone else feel like a superhero when when you're not under the influence of something? Or some people feel like a superhero when they are under the influence. You know? Something funny happened today. Speaking of drugs, I'm in the kitchen. Right? And my buddy, John, John's like 58.
Okay? Like he's like he's an elder to my point of view, and he so long story short, John has a broken rib. Okay? And I'm working with John almost every day, and the reason he has a broken rib is because he got a massage last week, and he's been in He's been in a lot of pain since then. They straight up broke his rib, and he got the x-ray. He had it it's a hairline fracture in the back of his rib cage. And so throughout the day, he's just like, oh, dude. I'm in pain. Oh, I can't turn. I'm turning left to right hurts. I'm like, that's not good, John. That's so not cool, dude. And, I've said it before, the drug culture in the kitchen is flowing very well. Right? We've all seen these movies, like, we all know what's going on here. A lot of drugs, a lot of alcohol in the kitchen.
And John's a guy, he's doing his best to, like, get off of his own stuff. Right? And but he's in so much pain, like, he literally has a broken rib, and he he's, like, chopping parsley. You can't do it properly. And he's like, dude, I need a drink. And, I hear that and a little bell in my head goes off like, ding ding ding. And I remember a buddy of mine, a different friend in the kitchen, he always gives he always passes out, like, little shot glasses, low key, just passing out shot glasses, And, like, like, from from the convenience store. Right? And so I have, like, a mini collection of these shots, And I had one bottle, one one mini bottle in my bag, and it's been like weeks, and and I haven't gotten rid of this thing.
And every day it's been like, oh, I gotta get rid of this. I gotta get rid of this. And then John says this. He's like, man, dude. I need a drink. And I was like, oh. I have a drink. John, I have a drink. So maybe I enabled this man this this man's problem a little bit, but He this man was in pain. Like, I don't know what else to do, dude. Like, he needed something, and I had it. And I was like, follow me. Come with me. I got my bag, got the drink, gave it to him. He took it in the bathroom, and he was like, dude. So much so much better. It's like, phenomenal.
I'm happy for you, John. I'm happy I'm you're happy, I'm happy. Help me help you. You know? It's one of those things. Because when my when when your coworkers are happy, then your day at work is going a lot smoother. Right? Am I right? That was just a funny thing that happened, dude, and we're all just moving through shit, dude. We're all just moving through it. And, yeah, man. That's what it is, and I was talking to my dad. Getting back to my dad, we're talk him and I were having a conversation about the mentality of things. He was this is in the context of me telling him I'm not doing weed anymore.
I'm not doing the weed. And, he says, yeah. Throughout this whole thing with me having cancer, it's just been it's crazy how How much of your life is determined on your thoughts, and how much of it is really just mental? You just gotta get through it mentally, and that really aligned with a lot of stuff that I've been like absorbing the last few years, you know, I because I follow all these, like, longevity people. I follow I follow Aubrey Marcus. I follow Joe Rogan. I follow, motivational people, you know, and and everyone talks about the mind, you know, Joe Dispenza, you know, it's all about your thoughts. It's all about You're what's on the inside going on. You know?
And it's been it's a journey. It's a journey for my dad, and it's a journey for me, and That is just the ultimate It's one of the ultimate narratives for humanity. You know, the way you think determines your life, And if you're in a place that where you don't believe that, like, I don't know what else to tell you dude. Like, what else is there? Like, it's your thoughts And it's love. Your the thoughts that you have, and the love that you emit. Like, that is your life, and you need to do everything you can to Align those things, like and love comes from your heart. Right? So you gotta you gotta line up your mind and your heart, And that's and and that's how you have a good life, dude.
And it's becoming more and more real. More and more and more real. And so I just wanna encourage you right now to to just take a deep breath and and and to continue to align yourself no matter what's going on in the world or Or in your work, you know, last week I told this funny story of my manager telling me he literally wants people to die because Earth is overpopulated. And I responded to that, like, angrily. I responded to that in a really like, I was fearful. I responded to in a very fearful manner, and if you could if if real quick. My my, it's raining outside, and And my girlfriend's taking a bath. So if you hear any weird noises, it's water flowing. Just so you know. I'm not sure if you can hear that, but I can hear it in my headphones. Anyway, It's about the love in your in your body, man. It's about your thoughts, and It's really just time to hone in on this.
When it comes to my absorption of narratives online, I've taken a really conscious, a really conscious choice to move away from news, To move away from drama, to move away from things like, I don't know what else I'm supposed to do like, I I it's I'm I'm in this space right now where I am I'm rebalancing some things. I'm rebalancing my life. Which is my my internal life, I guess. And I'm getting really serious about what what is coming into me. What is a What am I absorbing? You know? And I'm I I've been trying to absorb more more of the Joe Dispenza, more of the inspirational, more of Just more information about souls.
You know, like there are books on souls, and, I don't wanna get too into it right now, but I I do wanna tell you about a book I'm reading. I'm reading a book, so this is all new, like, This book is like brand new to me, like, I I have no I had no idea going into it what it would be about, but I've heard this, author's name many times. This person's name is Dolores Cannon, and, I'm reading her book. It's called The 3 Waves of Volunteers and the New Earth, and I don't want to go too deep into it right now. I'm not even halfway through it. I'm really enjoying it, But pretty much, like, I'm just feeling connection of of souls, of love, and, Like, the the the the message the the message of love, the message of, of of your thoughts, of your perception, How you perceive things, like, that is so important, and I'm on this new wave of absorbing this type of information, and I'm getting a sense that I need to lean deeper into this type of narrative.
I don't have a clear vision for it yet, but, you know, it's, it's just serious. It's getting really serious. When it comes to America Plus, like, I want to have the the better narratives. The the narratives that build up a new beautiful world That our heart knows is possible. Like, that is the point of this, man. And so it's like the podcast is like part documentary, Part exploration, part message. You know, like, I'm trying to bring it. I'm trying to bring everything right here, and There's days when I don't feel it. There's days when I just don't feel that new world. There's days when I feel lost, and there's days when I feel sad, man.
Like a few days ago, dude, like, I if I can just be real real quick, a few days ago, I was, like, crying in my bed with Shannon. I was just and I just felt sad. I felt worried. I felt, you know, even though I got good news about my dad, you know, I was crying about my dad. I was sad about my dad. I feel Angst, and I feel it's it's like it's like there's like a 1000000 paths around me, you know, and I'm I'm looking around rapidly at all the paths, and it felt it feels overwhelming a lot of the time. And when it was happening, you know, I'm not really afraid to, like, cry. I'm not afraid to have emotions, you know, but I'm also not trying to cry.
But I'm wise enough at this age to just be okay with it. You know, I'm really not insecure about it, and so I was just letting myself feel that. Just letting myself just move through it. And I feel like a lot of other people are going through that, man. There's so many like, Earth is getting so real. Like, it may maybe it's just my age. Maybe I'm I'm just becoming more aware as a human, like and and nothing is really changing on Earth, But it seems like people are waking up. It seems like pea people are making big decisions for their life. You know, I'm I'm at that stage in my life where, if my Instagram already wasn't mothers and hoes, it's even more so. Mothers and hoes.
And then you got the mothers trying to b hoes. You know what I mean? It's, it it it's it's fascinating to see All the people that I grew up with, and like, what path are they choosing? It's inspiring dude, And I just I see the people who are choosing love, and the people who are choosing love are happier. They're just happier. And the key to that is choice. The key to that is choice, my friends. You need to choose love. Choose love for yourself, you know. You just need to. And if you if you're if you're not convinced, You know, there's a million perspectives that can justify denying that sort of idea.
The Christians, you know, a super fundamentalist Christian might say, like, oh, if you just have love, that's not enough. You need Jesus Christ. You need you, like, you need something more specific. You like, you need this religion. Or a scientist might say, like, that's ridiculous. Love is un like, there is no love. Like, love is something that you've love is love is chemicals. Love is nothing. Love is some human interpretation of brain chemicals, you know, and and whatever other perspectives in between those two things, you know. And I'm here, and I'm just experiencing life, and I swear to God, it's so much more simple than anyone has ever talked. Like, it's love. You need to choose love for your own body.
Choose love in your own actions. And every single moment that you're breathing, you have an opportunity To choose love, or you could choose the other thing. You could choose negativity. You could choose evil. You could choose Whatever dude. You can choose pettiness. You can choose ego. There's a the the there's a million different things to choose from, but I choose love, and I'm I pray that you choose love. Because as we move forward on earth, as time moves on, Love is the line. The line in the sand is love. You know what I mean?
I have been going down, I keep trying to, like, research more things about Jesus. I Keep trying to research more things about the Bible, and, I've been having a conversation with, Now here's the random thing. Here this is a random part of this week. I I posted something. As I just said, I posted about it on Facebook. Okay? And Facebook is where all the Christians are from my past from my past childhood, from my past life in Arizona. And, you know, I'm not posting, like, cliche Christian stuff. You know? I'm posting what I just said. And, a woman, a mother that I knew growing up, she decided to message me.
And, like, Ultimately, she was just looking for clarification, and, you know, she's also like a Christian. So she's trying to bring me to to her side, to the good side. And, you know, I'm just taking in her questions, and it was good, like, I'm reading what she's saying, and She's saying things like, the only way that you can be saved is if you believe in in the life, death, And rebirth and and resurrection of Jesus Christ. That's the only way. And I'm telling her, it's love. Are you kidding me? It's love. I literally know I I know that you didn't have an abortion when you were 17. You chose love.
You didn't choose Jesus when you got pregnant. My sister didn't choose Jesus when she was when she got knocked up by the drug addict. Like, she chose love, dude. She chose love. And maybe I that was super negative, dude. The but it it's it's the truth though. Like, it it it is my sister's life. It is It is like a woman's life. A lot of women that I know got knocked up by not good guys, and They they chose love. They didn't choose any other thing. They didn't choose religion. They didn't choose any other philosophy. They chose Love and moved forward in that, and their lives are so much happier. Their lives are better because of it.
And I and I'm telling this mother Who is who is messaging me, I tell her that, and I like to think that I got through to her. I like to think that, you know, She responded with me she responded to me saying, well, I can't argue against love. And I was, like, yeah. You can't. You really can't. Like, stop. Like, it's not complicated, man. Where I'm at in my faith, and maybe this episode is just about me, about my faith journey as well, I feel like I'm a soul having a human experience, and I have felt not At home or, like, as long as I can remember, I have not felt welcomed slash, like, In it for a very long time, like, when I was at church, I, like, I I grew up in church. Right? I taught kids About God. I I was following the the curriculum, but I I never felt connected in church.
But I always felt a connection with God or something. You know? Like, it's God's source. I felt a connection with my soul, And that world was never able to really describe it because when you're in the world of religion, when you're in the world of Christianity, It is very external. It's an external experience, like, you have to you you have to Accept something from the outside to come inside into your heart. Okay? And the information that I've been absorbing is, like, that's a twisted narrative. Like, you don't, like, beginning externally, like like so So the whole, like, narrative with Christians. Right? Is you have to accept Jesus into your heart. Okay?
And then Jesus is in is in your heart, and then you're saved, And then you go to heaven. And what I've been absorbing is it be like, Christ, like, Jesus, That Christ energy, that God energy is already in you. It is literally your soul. You wouldn't be alive If it wasn't for that. Like, at the moment of conception is literally when you become a human. Like, your soul goes into some cells, and if you don't believe in souls, like, okay. Like, that's your thing. Like, fine. But I believe in souls, And I have a soul, and I'm trying to dig deeper into my soul with this.
You know, weed was like, I'm beginning to realize that weed was just a very basic level of living. Just a very just I I don't think it helped me connect with my soul. Maybe it helped me relax a little bit, maybe it helped me In some areas, it definitely helped me think through some problems in a certain time period. We definitely served me in an era in my life, But I'm moving I I I'm currently in in a in a zone of my life where it just it just wasn't helping me, and it was actually Showing me more negativity. It was it was making me it it it it was like giving me An excuse to be still within negativity. Like, I was just focusing on negativity when I was high. Like, for the last, like, 6 months, I was, like, focusing maybe even more. I was focusing on, like, imaginary bullshit That was, like, harmful to my life.
And the this week of me not being high, Those thoughts, like, I I I might have had a thought like that, but that thought I'm able to just just Push away. Just blow that shit away, dude. I'm not focusing on that anymore. And I can be more conscious On loving thoughts and healing thoughts and, like, and just just better, just just more loving. And that's a real big deal to me, man. That's a real big deal to me. And of course, the mushrooms have been helping me, with that as well. I've been doing the microdose. I'm doing a microdose tomorrow. I was supposed to do it today, but I totally forgot.
I gotta maybe the weed's still affecting me, but I'm doing the microdose tomorrow, and I'm still really enjoying that, and I'm just excited to see where this thing goes, dude. I'm excited to see How much can I do? I never thought that I was lazy on weed. I I I always consider myself a productive stoner. You know, everyone at the dispensary, you know. Everyone everyone Whenever you go to a dispensary, Everyone there is going to say that they are a functioning, like, they are a productive stoner, and I'm like, sure. Like, that's probably real. Like, I'm sure you did your taxes, but like, are you really doing what you want? Are you doing the best thing that you can in your life? And, that that that's just my journey. That's just my personal journey.
I feel like it's getting easier for me to Come up with the energy to really go after it, and to come into my full highest self, the best version of myself. And, like, you're watching it right now, people. You're watching it right now. I feel clear. I feel happy, and I just wanna do my best. I wanna do my best. So yeah, man. That's pretty much it. That's that's pretty much what I got. That's the value I have. We're gonna head on into the value section, the boostagrams, everybody. If you didn't know, value for value, value for value is what America Plus runs on. By the way Boosting is loving. Yes, sir. And this one. Hang on. Go to value for value dot info for more info, then download the fountain dot f m app. It's the best way to support the show. Value for value is in whole it's the whole ecosystem that's running this podcast. Pretty much it's Time, Talent, and Treasure.
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And she has to say, I love and support you. Strength emoji. Booze. Yes. Thank you. Thank you, Shannon. I really appreciate that. Appreciate the love and support. This next one comes in from at Joel w. He sends in his regular regular Satchel of Richards, 1,111 sats. What does he have to say? He says, I love that respect my fellowship of Hades meme. Yes. Go back To last week's episode, go to the chapters. I made a hell of a a hell of a funny meme, people, making fun of my manager. So thank you Joel for liking that meme, and best of luck to quitting smoking.
Coincidentally, a few months ago, someone I work with said Something similar to, about too many people on Earth. I was shocked and left speechless. Also, never actually heard it said in real life. Wacky world. Keep on building. Bustar. Bustar. Bustar. Bust. Yes, sir. Yes, sir. I will. Thank you, Joel. Yeah, man. That's funny that you had a similar experience, like, Joel, I swear to God, you and I are connected. I'm so thankful that you are, like Like, listening to this, I'm thankful that you're my guy. You're you're my people, Joel. You are my people. Thank you for, like, at least experiencing some similar things. Like, I'm happy I'm not the only one going through this bullshit of people really thinking there needs to be more death on earth.
Incredible stuff, people. And Joel sends in another, 1,011 111, and this is for the song. He boosted the song last week, and and he was quoting it, saying, here are the lyrics. I feel like everything's so unusual. I think it's Funny how that shit's the usual. Sums it up perfectly. That track was fire. Bustarra. Bustarra. Thank you so much. Sing is loving. Thank you so much, Joel, and thank you to all those people who felt like donating. You can donate too. You can chime on in. If you wanna send And a message to me, if you're vibing with anything that I'm saying, that's what value for value is. Value for value is when you are able to engage with the content, And that engagement becomes the content, dude. Be a part of the show. Be a part of the better narratives. Be a part of building a more beautiful world. That is what's happening here. It's a choice. You choose.
And I encourage you to to choose now, to engage now. Send in some money, make a clip. Do whatever you want. Send it out. Come on now. Let's do it. I love you all. I love you. I love you. I love you. And, that brings us to the end of the episode. What we're gonna do now, we're gonna bring it on in we're gonna bring it in a new song, everyone. It's getting a little late, and I felt like I should play something a little a little moody, a little late night moody. This song is, coming in from a, a very good artist named Vertigo kid, this is Midnight Coming.
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